playlist:
kelly osborne - right here
kelly clarkson - miss independent
kelis - trick me
kofee brown - quickie
koda kumi - 1000 words (english version)


Im going through the K's on my kazaa list..hehe.

Lisa and I are going away today. We shall be back sometime by the end of the week. If u wish to contact either one of us, try our mobiles. don't bother sending me an email because i won't look till late friday.

um...its been an interesting past few days. lots has been happening. and i've been asleep alot and watching too many films and big brother has taken over my life. its official. I am addicted.

well i'd better be off! leave me a comment or sumthing! *muah*

sneaker pimps - wasted early sunday
saves the day - you vandal

I've been at home all weekend. Its been nice :)
Lots of sleeping and lots of eating. I've taken to eating these lil packets of sugar crackers...mmm...i love them.
I watched a spike lee movie last nite..Clockers. it was aiight. hehe. i must say i liked 'do the right thing' alot better.
Im organising a few things for my short trip away with lisa. and dinner party stuff.

I haven't got much to write here today. maybe i will tomorrow. meanwhile - everyone watch Big bro tonite - cos they fucked up and kicked out bree when it was supposed to be someone else apparently.

anyway. GOODbyeee

last nite was good.
in fact the past two nights have been fun.
I wanna do something saturday nite. so any suggestions? something that doesn't involve alot of money. cos im down to about $3.50. Spent about 70 dollars on gifts and cards today.
Morgan & Aimee's 21st tonite! wooot.
apparently mark street is going to a 21st aswell. And my old friend Mark Wilko is having his 21st tonite..apparently. I bumped into Jon today and he told me. seems jon hasn't read my blog - so he didn't read that post i wrote about/for him. so he had no idea. at all about anything. didn't really speak to him that much today. anyway.
I gotta figure out what im gonna wear tonite! naughty or nice - arghhhh.

playlist:
kelis - milk shake
goldfrapp - twist
dirty dancing soundtrack - time of my life

itsss cold. cold cold cold.

Im gonna collapse and die.

no im not.

but i am hungry.

playlist:
Michelle branch - tuesday morning
Kylie - chocolate
2pac - how do you want it


i can't live a day without you. closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away..

HOKAY!
well i've just been chillin' and doing stuff. you know. And i went to the dentist today and he gave me a filling for my deformed wisdom tooth. and i got an x-ray done - and there was fun to be had by all!
I got my radio doco on cd! woot. it sounds goooooood. im exited about it. I can't wait till i get the marks for it back, i'll see if it was any good then. I'll send kazaa a copy off soon. tell me if u wanna hear it and i'll hook u up with a mp3 or a cd copy of it. I want to put it on my site, so i mite find a site which will let me store stuff...how cool is photobucket! that site is nifty as.

I have alot to do this week. and everything costs money. I'm waiting for an email from coles myer....i mite send out a few more resumes to some more places. I want to get some driving lessons this holidays..parents suck and don't want me driving.

My dad is going away on the 12th to england! woot. peace and quiet for once. Then my mum is going up to join him in england a few weeks later i think. so for a while it'll just be me at home. muahaha. except it sucks. cos probably it'll just be me. Mum mite ship aubrey off to grandma for the two weeks she's gone. She wanted aubrey to go with her but anyway.

OOH exciting news. Utada Hikaru's english album is coming out soon. its called EXODUS. very cool. and she's featured on UNITY - the official album for the olympic games. or something like that. she's done a few tracks with the legend of hip-hop and everything cool - TIMBALAND! woot. so that should be very very cool.

anyway. i gotta go and do stuff. peace out!

"Broken Angel"

So small, yet still so proud
At night before he dreams he looks into the clouds
A high flyer's what I want to be
Seems they won't let me, says I'm too small
I don't feel small at all

Break my dreams, that's what they'll do
Well I'm going to run away and learn to fly like you
I'm going to go so high and swoop so low
You can't bring me down, going to be so proud

Little angel you got to learn to fly
Get up and earn your wings tonight
Little angel just look in my eyes
Get up and earn your wings tonight

Push and shove then climb aboard
This is the shuttle train to the top of the world
When you look around what do you see
These are all high flyers
But none of these high flyers look like me

What is that supposed to mean
What am I supposed to be

I pull my way up through this crowd
To find your body crushed on the ground
It's so obvious, why couldn't you see
That you can't go high flying without a pair of high-flyer wings

Little one's broken lying on the ground
Trying to get up 'till his last breath out
Wings are strune everywhere, there's blood all around
'Cause even angel's die, but that light just fades
It's so sad, but he'd be so proud

Broken angel you've got to learn to fly
Get up and earn your wings tonight
Broken angel just look in my eyes
Get up and earn you wings tonight
Get up and earn your wings, earn your wings tonight

WHAT IS YOUR MALFUNCTION?

I've been busy this week. Monday I finished the Anime essay. I handed it in at like 8pm. LOL. I got my brother to drive me to uni and he almost got us lost on the way home. But luckily we got back just in time for queer eye. I've been busy doing readings for the pornography essay though, lots of reading to do still so i'll finish that today.
I watched Ring 2 last night. And i watched THE O.C..in fact i also taped it. and will watch it again in the next hour. Im cooking ravioli at the moment. mmmm...

I've been watching lots of naruto and love hina episodes, but in fast forward mostly. I've been looking at the anime style, stillness and time is very important in anime.
Also the Miyuki-chan in Wonderland video arrived yesterday. And i've watched it, and well its not the best anime i've seen, but its certainly weird. Very perverted. And there are no males in that anime at all!

So for your lyrical pleasure, here are the words to my fave anime song at the moment - Wind Sung and written by Akeboshib from Naruto:


Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

(Repeats)

You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

(Repeats)

for you 

wish me luck

CUT THEM OFF! CUT THEM ALL OFF!
the world would be a better place.

I've finished my radio documentary. Now i'm writing essays.

playfed FFX-2 today
watched love hina every night this week (BAKA BAKA BAKA!)
watched the hit man - starring JET LEI!
watched a bruce lee film that was on tv last nite, crrrraaazy...WWWWWAAAAAAAAH!
written - one essay plan
Read - two chapters of Susan J. Napier's "From Akira to Princess Mononoke: Experiencing contemporary Japanese animation"
Listened - to five britney songs
Ate - two pieces of toast with nutella, one bowl of special K, one bowl of soupy instant noodles (with 5% more apple juice!), hot chips and 1 potato cake.
Yet to do - write my essays. Finish my readings, watch that episode of angel i taped.

madness - wings of a dove
kofee brown - quickie
third eye blind - the misfits

I have a cold. *sniff* I thought I could dodge it, but all those natural herbal pills i've been taking haven't totally stopped me from getting sick. I feel okay, just sniffly. I've been busy doing work, reading articles on anime, lots of articles on anime. I'm about to read some on the hentai. Then i have to start my essay on porn. And for that I've been watching some films:

SEX: the annabell chong story & The girl next door
I recommend both, because they really give you an inside look at the porn industry and the life of a porn star.

Lis, if u want articles on porn i have a few academic one u mite find interesting.

I went and borrowed like ten videos yesterday, i got legend of the overfiend, frank mcClusky C.I , the Ring (jap ver.), and three Peter Jackson films...i got a few others but can't remember them all here. I was thinking of getting some porn films to help me with my essay, but i want to find some feminist porn films instead...and i dunno where to find those. And since i don't have too much time I'm not really gonna start looking for them now.

Things were going well Friday morning. I felt really confident that things were going well. That the doco would be finished that day. By 1pm I realised that if we didn't work quickly it would not be finished. By 4pm I knew that we were royally screwed. And by 4:10 I knew that we would be finishing the doco a day late from the due date.

So from the 3 sessions we had during the week- we didn't finish the editing or anything else. We're only just putting it all together now. And Im confused about the editing because i thought we fixed it all up. We went through each interview and did it. Although we may have skimmed over the main kazaa interviews and the graeme phillipson one, but other than that it was all edited. And that logic audio program is giving me hell. It hates me. It always loops on me when I try playing back what i've edited. And we moved our script, and everything just went weird. What we had edited had the starts and ends cut off so we had to fix that again. There were spaces throughout the kazaa interview that weren't there b4. Its not a mess, but its not far from it. I just want it to be over. But wednesday is the last chance, after that - i cannot continue working on it. So far the weekend is totally booked out at the editing suits, and we could have had monday night to work on it from 4.30pm till 8:30am the next day, but thats more of an inconvience. So i booked wednesday. All day wednesday. We'll see. If i miss out on that A or A+ then its okay. As long as i know its my best work then i'll be happy.
But right now, i can see it won't be my best, but it won't be my worst. But once its finished, i'll be sooooo happy. Anyway. this weekend im doing readings essay plans and starting things for next week. So i'm pretty busy with all that. But It'll all be over soon thankfully, i'm looking forward to just relaxing and doing nothing at all.

brand new - secondary
planet funk - who said
basement jaxx - where's your head at
ludacris - stand up
incubus - talk shows on mute

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here's the details kids. go crazy.

Its been a long week and thank god tomorrow will be the end of it.

Today I got to uni early, photocopied a few books and found i had some time left so I sat down and watched the film Porco Rosso and half of Laputa: Castle in the Sky. I think i have some new stuff to write my anime essay on. Im thinking of discussing strong female characters in anime, and maybe even a whole section dedicated to Miziayki films such as Nausicaa and Princess Mononoke. So that essay will be good to write. Only have a few days for it though. Once i finish this radio doco te better.

Meanwhile, i had a few troubles with the doco yesterday. Im worried that beate's accent will be too strong and difficult for people to understand. Maybe we should have mixed the scripts up alittle with my voice. Secretly I wish i was doing the scripts and inbetween bits for the doco. But then i'd be doing almost everything. So how i wanted the doco to sound in my head..it won't sound like that at all. But tomorrow i'm gonna hijack the computer and do the music myself...im thinking basement jaxx's plug it in will work nicely for an intro. I have alittle more editing to do, and i need to work out how to make a digital copy of the doco onto cd. Because i'd really like to make a cd with all my work on it, not just a crappy cassette. So i need to learn how to do that tomorrow also. Otherwise i'll book the studio for tuesday or the weekend and do more work on it. I want it to be perfect, and its almost perfect. Just need to put it together. When its done, i'll try and make it avaliable for ppl to download and listen or something like that.

Well also today, I met up with Lis and Will. we had lunch at TGI's. except Will. Because he had already eaten before hand. Which totally defeats the purpose of going out for lunch. He figured he was there just to 'visit' with us. Not happy will.

lol. but it was good. i had a nice afternoon. Its always good to do something like that to get my mind of things.

um also. we were thinking of having a party sometime b4 the 5th of july. If anyone is interested...in maybe having it at their house - tell me. lol. I dunno..just need to organise something..cos poor marko street is starting work on the 5th. So we need to party and go crazy for the days b4 it. muahaha.

anyway.

playlist:
Hanson - hey
basement jaxx - plug it in
N.E.R.D - she wants to move
Chingy - one call away
Count the stars - fight the fade

Watch:
Utada hikaru - Hikari (live in Budokan 2004)
Naruto & love hina episodes

im tired, so very very tired.
Spent today doing interviews, vox pops and editing interviews. Tomorrow more of the same editing and also we'll be in the recording studio doing the scripts. So that shall be exciting, except we have to write the scripts first...i'll do that tonite. Not sure what we need yet though. It hasn't all come together quite yet. I need to work a few things out, mite do that early tomorrow. I'll listen to all the audio clips maybe and just work out what should go where, get the "story" happening. lol. story. its a fucking doco. there is no story, only facts! But my lectuer is kinda craazy. nah he's cool.
But yeah. i bumped into alot of ppl today..or rather they bumped into me....bit of both. found some ppl in the lib, founddd some ppl in the agora (lisa, will grace..) it was alll good.

I found my mum at shopping town this arvo, i scared the shit out of her...hehe.

playlist:
brand new - tautou
the darkness - black stuff
funeral for a friend - red is the new black
utada hikaru - with or without you (U2 cover @ mtv unplugged)

I don't know if anyone has noticed but my tag board has returned! *scroll down* TA DA! there it is again. With all the exciting and rude original comments that you all left me there the first time.

I have an interview this morning with Graeme Phillipson, who is a journalist for the age newspaper. But at the moment he's in the US traveling. So we're gonna do an over seas call at uni (hehe) and record it and its gonna be great. Also we'll probably do some vox pops today. But there aren't too many ppl at uni this week, so it might be a little difficult. Mite have to scrap that idea.
We'll see. I spent yesterday afternoon doing the transcripts for the tapes, but i got lazy on one of them and didn't put in any of the duration and time stuff. Which is actually bad for the editing, it helps to know the approx time of something or of what was said on the tape.

well i'd better get a move on. its 9. i gotta get to AV. cya

Trucker hat that i want 

Dashboard is coming 29th of July. Nova is sponsoring the gig. Its at the metro. I dunno when tickets go on sale. I'll find out soon :)

I'm only writing this for one person. He knows who he is.

I want to write this here because I know you'll read it. And also because right now I don't want to see you face to face. It would be better to say all this in person I think, but at least I'm going to tell this to you here. And I want to avoid the confrontations with you, because it would be useless anyway because no matter what you might have to say - nothing will change my mind.

We can't be friends. At least not now, not for a while. I can't be friends with you while you keep those feelings for me. I don't want to be rude, I don't want to hate you. That's why I'm doing this. I can't give you what you want ever. I made my mind up about us a long time ago and I've moved on since then. But for you to suddenly just tell me that you want to start again - just took me by surprise and it angered me. Because right now, especially after last friday, You are not exactly my favourite person. And the last thing furthest from my mind was starting again with you.
I'm sorry, I know this isn't what you want to hear. But what do you expect? I can't give you what you want. I can't help you, I can't fix your problems. And I won't enter into a relationship with you for those reasons and others which are too complex to explain here - and which I will not explain further.

All you want is a chance, but I'm not prepared to give it to you. I know what I once said to you, "I wasn't ready then, But I am now". I've realised how much of a lie that really was. So that makes us both liars then.

So there it is. I can't be friends with you now. Maybe some day, later on we can be friends again. But right now how can I be friends with you, knowing what you want from our friendship. But it was silly of me to think that we could go on being friends. So I'm sorry if I've led you on, it was never intentional.

I don't really know how to end this. But this will give me closure, and you'll just have to be satisfied with this.

http://p2pnet.net/story/1565

http://rocknerd.org/article.pl?sid=03/07/20/1141231&tid=7

http://themusic.com.au/

Today I was running around the uni literally. I was in AV forawhile this morning, then me and beate left and went to see John our lecturer and then I realised i had a message from julie the lovely lovely person from iicon communications who does the pr for Kazaa...and she was ready to do the interview today! So that was perfect timing. Totally perfect. We got everything set up for the interview to sydney. After alot of running around, had to go to the library and check my old emails because we realised we didn't have a list of the kazaa questions ourselves. So that was all rushed, and i went and saw John again and talked about the interviews and about radio and my other options and stuff for next year. So finally had the kazaa interview after being put on hold and waiting and calls back and forth. But we got it done, and I must say the people at Kazaa rock socks. They were soooo nice! Julie set up the interview for us, and she was totally very very cool about it. And they wanna hear the finished product. So now i feel like i need to make it extra extra good. So me and Beate deserve a pat on the back after getting thru today, and just getting the hard part over with. But it was great. After we did the interview we both hung up and did a few squeals and i did a jump around the room. I just got this huge buzz from doing that interview. It was funny cos b4 we even started the interview I was shaking, and after being on hold for almost 25 minutes all my nerves got calmed and it all ended well. So im REEAAALLY happy about that.

In fact life is suddenly very very good at the moment. Im in the mood for livin' it up alittlee...and go alittle crazy..and alittle naughty me thinks ;) well thats how i feel..once holidays kick in...woot.
i have cake here. And its been sitting on this plate next to me...for a good 25 minutes now...and i haven't touched it. I guess chocolate isn't my guilty pleasure anymore...its more of my 'fuck it i'll exercise the weight off later' pleasures.


playlist:
Rufus feat Chaka Kahn - Ain't Nobody (one of myyyy all time fave songs!)
Count the stars - Fight the fade
koffee brown - quickie
hanson - strong enough to break (maaaaybeeee you could take a look at urself lateeely)
Rufio - like a prayer (cover from the punk goes pop)
chingy - one call away
The darkness - i believe in a thing called love
yellowcard - way away