I know I wrote before, but I haven't been completely honest. Everything is not fine. In fact I have spent the whole day depressed and angry and sad at myself. I know I seem like the happy hyperactive person - when actually i'm a sarcastic and bitter person. Or if you want to know the truth, i'm not all that. I don't know what I am, i just don't feel like me anymore and its going beyond what i used to know about myself. After sunday night, the thoughts and issues that have been plaguing my mind for the past couple of weeks have finally reached their peak, causing me to remain in a constant low. Lonliness is the thing i've always hated, but i've always been alone. Somehow its become a second nature to me. Because when i was younger I knew what it was like to be by myself. But recently lonliness has been creeping back into my life. OK..the main gist of it is..I know who my real friends are. And i know when i'm not welcomed..or liked as much. I know when people don't say Hi..or avoid my eye contact. I know what awkward situations are like and I know that people like to make things so damned complicated when they don't have to be.
And seeing my friends - hey i know what peer pressure is like - especially when ur two best friends have boyfriends..and you don't. I wish things were different, that i was a social butterfly, that people could instantly like me. But its not like that. I'm not like that.
Yes, i wish i had a guy - someone i could talk to, mess with. Just someone that i know would actually want me and like me. The whole Chris thing..it happened because I let it..and i wanted it to. And I wish i got more out of it instead of the over-confidence and the one night party pash. As lisa told me..there has to be something more than to just be attracted to a person. I guess i've stopped thinking that there's someone out there i'm supposed to meet. Maybe Fate is really a bitch. That if fate wanted it - i wouldn't be feeling like this right now..but no. Fate has decided that i must wait. Maybe i've made the wrong choices in life - i've said no to the wrong people..and let myself fall for others who would never give me the chance to say yes. omg i'm a dick. I need someone like me..who's not afraid to speak their mind. Someone who will challenge my opinions. oR maybe someone the exact opposite to me.
yeah..someone like that. Or maybe just someone who can put up with me...oh god. I'll never find someone like that.
Tuesday, July 02, 2002
TRACK SIX: Unwanted
All that I did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands
That's how it went
I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight
Oh, yeah, yeah
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you
[chorus]
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away
No, I just don't understand why
you won't talk to me
It's hurts that I'm so unwanted for nothing
Don't talk words against me
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you
[chorus]
Make me go away
I tried to belong
It didn't seem wrong
My head aches
Its been so long
I'll write this song
If that's what it take
[chorus (2x)]
Make me go away
Make me go away
Thank u avril - damn good songs.
I've been busy and bored again. The BBQ world cup thing was...fun. Yes it was good seeing rach again. And i've learnt sumthing new about soccer - that its boring when no one scores. Ahh well..i still had a good time.
big brother finished last night - so now..the osborne's are my new fave show.
I found something interesting online - its a database of baby names. So i found mine.
Your name of Evelyn gives you the ability to be creative along practical lines of endeavour. Your ideas can be very original and inventive. You enjoy being with people in a social environment. Your personal appearance is important to you, for you desire to make a good impression on others. Your pleasant manner attracts people to you with their problems and you are capable of offering practical advice, though you would probably not follow such advice yourself. This name causes you to be somewhat too concerned with the personalities, problems, and activities of other people. You seem positive and decisive and can be outspoken in the expression of your opinions, but you lack the self-confidence needed to follow through with your ideas and plans. Procrastination is your downfall. You frequently choose the path of least resistance to avoid your responsibilities. It is not easy for you to overcome obstacles or face issues. This name does you an injustice in that it restricts your success in business and personal pursuits through a lack of ambition. There is a weakness in the fluid functions and in the region of the head resulting in sinus problems, headaches, eye, ear, or throat conditions and related ailments. Hair loss could also be a problem.
What was that about hair loss? ARghh!! Ya know..this anaylsis is practically me in a nutshell. *"No this is me in a nutshell..HELP! i'M IN A NUTSHELL! how did i get into this nutshell?!"*
Go learn sumthing new about ur name
Well..hopefully i'll see star wars tonite *FINALLY* But now i shall leave my devoted blogger readers - with a playlist of sum choice selection mp3s.
Papa Roach - She loves me not
Monifa - Touch it (club mix)
Tenacious D - Kyle left the band & Waterboy
Counting Crows - Colour Blind
The moffats - Misery
Gil - Out of my bed & If she only knew
Danger feat. Nivea - Been so long
Sugababes - Just let it go
Tweet - Call me *reccomend*
*MUAH*
All that I did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands
That's how it went
I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight
Oh, yeah, yeah
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you
[chorus]
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away
No, I just don't understand why
you won't talk to me
It's hurts that I'm so unwanted for nothing
Don't talk words against me
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you
[chorus]
Make me go away
I tried to belong
It didn't seem wrong
My head aches
Its been so long
I'll write this song
If that's what it take
[chorus (2x)]
Make me go away
Make me go away
Thank u avril - damn good songs.
Which of the Disney Princesses are you?
I've been busy and bored again. The BBQ world cup thing was...fun. Yes it was good seeing rach again. And i've learnt sumthing new about soccer - that its boring when no one scores. Ahh well..i still had a good time.
big brother finished last night - so now..the osborne's are my new fave show.
I found something interesting online - its a database of baby names. So i found mine.
Your name of Evelyn gives you the ability to be creative along practical lines of endeavour. Your ideas can be very original and inventive. You enjoy being with people in a social environment. Your personal appearance is important to you, for you desire to make a good impression on others. Your pleasant manner attracts people to you with their problems and you are capable of offering practical advice, though you would probably not follow such advice yourself. This name causes you to be somewhat too concerned with the personalities, problems, and activities of other people. You seem positive and decisive and can be outspoken in the expression of your opinions, but you lack the self-confidence needed to follow through with your ideas and plans. Procrastination is your downfall. You frequently choose the path of least resistance to avoid your responsibilities. It is not easy for you to overcome obstacles or face issues. This name does you an injustice in that it restricts your success in business and personal pursuits through a lack of ambition. There is a weakness in the fluid functions and in the region of the head resulting in sinus problems, headaches, eye, ear, or throat conditions and related ailments. Hair loss could also be a problem.
What was that about hair loss? ARghh!! Ya know..this anaylsis is practically me in a nutshell. *"No this is me in a nutshell..HELP! i'M IN A NUTSHELL! how did i get into this nutshell?!"*
Go learn sumthing new about ur name
Well..hopefully i'll see star wars tonite *FINALLY* But now i shall leave my devoted blogger readers - with a playlist of sum choice selection mp3s.
Papa Roach - She loves me not
Monifa - Touch it (club mix)
Tenacious D - Kyle left the band & Waterboy
Counting Crows - Colour Blind
The moffats - Misery
Gil - Out of my bed & If she only knew
Danger feat. Nivea - Been so long
Sugababes - Just let it go
Tweet - Call me *reccomend*
*MUAH*
Saturday, June 29, 2002
Playlist:
Nelly - Hot in Herre
Basement Jaxx- Red Alert (club mix)
Puretone- Addicted to Base (House mix)
Papa Roach - Broken Home
Tenacious D - Rock your socks off
Gil - Out of my bed
The moffats - Misery
Missy E - 4 my ppl (basement Jaxx Vocal remix)
And for your listening pleasure - Personally I like to sing along to my fave songs - so here's the lyrics to 4 my ppl
(courtesy of www.azlyrics.com)
[Missy]
Uhh, yo
This is for my motherfucking club heads, you feel me?
AAAAOOW!!
[Missy]
People, gangstas, and pimps and people
Smokin that deeper reefer
Up in the club wit speakers
I had some base and tweeters
DJ is jockin needle
Sweat till I catch a fever
Call me the illest diva
Yo I'm on FIRE!!!!!
People go head and drink up
Get in the club get fucked up
See me you got get lucked up
Someone to touch your rubber
Show me some love, strip off your clothes, and take off your socks
[Missy]
The party's jumpin, I see something fine
Boy I wanna kiss you, but I'm just too shy
Let me dance with you, let me wear you out
Here's a glass of orange juice, let's go X it out
The music's bangin, way down in my soul
When you dance behind me, I lose all control
Make me grind my hips, make me move my waist
When the music comes on, you take my breath away
[HOOK:]
This is for my people, my party people
This is for my people, my motherfucking people
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get, get on down
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get, get on down
This is for my people, my party people
This is for my people, my ecstasy people
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get on down
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get, get on down
[Missy]
I'm at the bar now, and I'm buying drinks
And I got this feeling, and it's all over me
I wanna dance with you, and lick your face
Take me on the dance floor to feel some ecstasy
The vibe is right now, and I'm bout to score
Mr. DJ can you, play this joint once more
Cuz I see the man I want, I want him right away
I'm look him right in his face and say dance with me
[HOOK]
[Missy]
Freak that, come here baby, grab me from the back
Baby you the mack, and you know that
Put the needle on the track skip that, flip that, bring the beat back
Freak that, come here baby, grab me from the back
Baby you the mack, and you know that
Put the needle on the track, skip that, flip that, bring the beat back
Uno... dos... tres...
Uno... dos... tres...
Uno... dos... tres...
Uno... dos... tres...
[Eve]
Can't stand when a nigga fuckin up my plans
All night liquored up while I'm tryin to dance
Drunk, and his breath stink, freaky with his hands
Cocky with his mouth please like he got a fan
Can't stand when a bitch all in my side
I don't even know her and she all up in my light
Givin me the side eye like she wanna fight
Philly known for boxing bitch better get it right
Can't stand when a DJ fuckin up the song
Know I'm tryin to shake my ass all night long
Cuttin up the same shit all night long
High 'fore I got there, now my shit is blown
Can't stand when it aint jumpin like I want
Cats that try to stop my fun, take away my blunt
I don't give a fuck he aint gon' take away my fun
See him when this shit is over, make a nigga run, uh
[HOOK]
I know..that back in my teeny days(97-mid99) I was dead set against anything to do with the moffats. I dissed them..i said they sounded like chipmunks(they still do) but i have discovered since their last album/single Bang bang boom (not to be confused with the mis-leading lyrics of Gang bang boom *i did not say it*) That these four boys...no matter how corny their hair is...no matter how sucky their original stuff was (I saw one of their early "country" albums at alley tunes for five bucks) but I have to give credit to them..they know how to write a good pop/rock song. And i mean..the lyrics may be a little cheesy - what pop song isn't these days - But damn i am impressed with the vocals of the eldest moffat Scott (the taylor hanson/ scott moffat fan fic "Devil Angel" is a classic..so i've heard. www.hansonfiction.com).
Although I did enjoy that song Gil performed with the moffats - I think you can still find that at HMV. But Gil is a hottie..ohhhh yeaaah.
He can make me...[pause]..go..any day. Getting back to what I was saying...the moffats more recent album - their last one too because the band broke up; kinda hard cos their brothers, but from what i heard one of them moved to Australia.
The song that i dissed the most was..Misery. It has to be one of the most repetitive songs i've heard...but damn..that annoyingly catchy hook and chorus has got me. Even if u don't know the words...you can still remember that damn line.."Misery...da da da" - well thats what i'm like when i try to sing it.
Ok..so what has caused this change? Well...finally i guess i'm respecting the classic teeny bands a bit more. I'm learning to appreciate all kinds of music..except the crap holly valance - Yeah..sh'good marketing plan - Get ur top off - sell 1 million.
Ahh..I miss talent.
Eww..my nails...are...smelly from the acrylic...Yes..i finally got them done this morning. My appointment was moved from 8:30 to 10...thank god. I'm starting to dred late nights and early wake ups. Last nite i was up late. I did something - so un-thinkable..you will not believe it.
I WATCHED FOOTBALL
I know..scary shit huh? I actually sat through the last quater of the essendon vs, melbourne match. Of course i'm an essendon fan..and not just cos they win all the time - Well..i probably wouldn't call myself a fan...since i do think sport is the devil and even more since my lecture on media and sport. More on that later. But i watched it..and even though i have no idea about rules or who the hell the players were *there was one melbourne player...mmm..nice* But i watched and...i almost liked. OK..so i was yelling at the TV during that whole 4th quater. It was exciting while it lasted. But honestly..if it essendon wasn't playing..i probably wouldn't be watching it at all.
Well i guess..since i'm going to that soccer final bbq thingy at justin's house..i should...get to like watching sport...nah..its still boring..and i remember playing soccer at school..that was pretty boring. I had more fun attempting to play Le Cross...for that..they gave us sticks..which could double as a weapon...or...as i found out that day...can be very useful for a number of activities. Like..hitting ppl...for one. Ahh.. BAH! I SAY TO SPORT! BAH!
*Don't you just love how i jump from one topic to another?*
BAH!
www.geocities.com/evesygal - Chatter box now up and runinning...leave a message..you can actually..chat..like in normal net chat...its great. *muah bah!*
Nelly - Hot in Herre
Basement Jaxx- Red Alert (club mix)
Puretone- Addicted to Base (House mix)
Papa Roach - Broken Home
Tenacious D - Rock your socks off
Gil - Out of my bed
The moffats - Misery
Missy E - 4 my ppl (basement Jaxx Vocal remix)
And for your listening pleasure - Personally I like to sing along to my fave songs - so here's the lyrics to 4 my ppl
(courtesy of www.azlyrics.com)
[Missy]
Uhh, yo
This is for my motherfucking club heads, you feel me?
AAAAOOW!!
[Missy]
People, gangstas, and pimps and people
Smokin that deeper reefer
Up in the club wit speakers
I had some base and tweeters
DJ is jockin needle
Sweat till I catch a fever
Call me the illest diva
Yo I'm on FIRE!!!!!
People go head and drink up
Get in the club get fucked up
See me you got get lucked up
Someone to touch your rubber
Show me some love, strip off your clothes, and take off your socks
[Missy]
The party's jumpin, I see something fine
Boy I wanna kiss you, but I'm just too shy
Let me dance with you, let me wear you out
Here's a glass of orange juice, let's go X it out
The music's bangin, way down in my soul
When you dance behind me, I lose all control
Make me grind my hips, make me move my waist
When the music comes on, you take my breath away
[HOOK:]
This is for my people, my party people
This is for my people, my motherfucking people
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get, get on down
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get, get on down
This is for my people, my party people
This is for my people, my ecstasy people
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get on down
C'mon, c'mon, get down, get, get on down
[Missy]
I'm at the bar now, and I'm buying drinks
And I got this feeling, and it's all over me
I wanna dance with you, and lick your face
Take me on the dance floor to feel some ecstasy
The vibe is right now, and I'm bout to score
Mr. DJ can you, play this joint once more
Cuz I see the man I want, I want him right away
I'm look him right in his face and say dance with me
[HOOK]
[Missy]
Freak that, come here baby, grab me from the back
Baby you the mack, and you know that
Put the needle on the track skip that, flip that, bring the beat back
Freak that, come here baby, grab me from the back
Baby you the mack, and you know that
Put the needle on the track, skip that, flip that, bring the beat back
Uno... dos... tres...
Uno... dos... tres...
Uno... dos... tres...
Uno... dos... tres...
[Eve]
Can't stand when a nigga fuckin up my plans
All night liquored up while I'm tryin to dance
Drunk, and his breath stink, freaky with his hands
Cocky with his mouth please like he got a fan
Can't stand when a bitch all in my side
I don't even know her and she all up in my light
Givin me the side eye like she wanna fight
Philly known for boxing bitch better get it right
Can't stand when a DJ fuckin up the song
Know I'm tryin to shake my ass all night long
Cuttin up the same shit all night long
High 'fore I got there, now my shit is blown
Can't stand when it aint jumpin like I want
Cats that try to stop my fun, take away my blunt
I don't give a fuck he aint gon' take away my fun
See him when this shit is over, make a nigga run, uh
[HOOK]
I know..that back in my teeny days(97-mid99) I was dead set against anything to do with the moffats. I dissed them..i said they sounded like chipmunks(they still do) but i have discovered since their last album/single Bang bang boom (not to be confused with the mis-leading lyrics of Gang bang boom *i did not say it*) That these four boys...no matter how corny their hair is...no matter how sucky their original stuff was (I saw one of their early "country" albums at alley tunes for five bucks) but I have to give credit to them..they know how to write a good pop/rock song. And i mean..the lyrics may be a little cheesy - what pop song isn't these days - But damn i am impressed with the vocals of the eldest moffat Scott (the taylor hanson/ scott moffat fan fic "Devil Angel" is a classic..so i've heard. www.hansonfiction.com).
Although I did enjoy that song Gil performed with the moffats - I think you can still find that at HMV. But Gil is a hottie..ohhhh yeaaah.
He can make me...[pause]..go..any day. Getting back to what I was saying...the moffats more recent album - their last one too because the band broke up; kinda hard cos their brothers, but from what i heard one of them moved to Australia.
The song that i dissed the most was..Misery. It has to be one of the most repetitive songs i've heard...but damn..that annoyingly catchy hook and chorus has got me. Even if u don't know the words...you can still remember that damn line.."Misery...da da da" - well thats what i'm like when i try to sing it.
Ok..so what has caused this change? Well...finally i guess i'm respecting the classic teeny bands a bit more. I'm learning to appreciate all kinds of music..except the crap holly valance - Yeah..sh'good marketing plan - Get ur top off - sell 1 million.
Ahh..I miss talent.
Eww..my nails...are...smelly from the acrylic...Yes..i finally got them done this morning. My appointment was moved from 8:30 to 10...thank god. I'm starting to dred late nights and early wake ups. Last nite i was up late. I did something - so un-thinkable..you will not believe it.
I WATCHED FOOTBALL
I know..scary shit huh? I actually sat through the last quater of the essendon vs, melbourne match. Of course i'm an essendon fan..and not just cos they win all the time - Well..i probably wouldn't call myself a fan...since i do think sport is the devil and even more since my lecture on media and sport. More on that later. But i watched it..and even though i have no idea about rules or who the hell the players were *there was one melbourne player...mmm..nice* But i watched and...i almost liked. OK..so i was yelling at the TV during that whole 4th quater. It was exciting while it lasted. But honestly..if it essendon wasn't playing..i probably wouldn't be watching it at all.
Well i guess..since i'm going to that soccer final bbq thingy at justin's house..i should...get to like watching sport...nah..its still boring..and i remember playing soccer at school..that was pretty boring. I had more fun attempting to play Le Cross...for that..they gave us sticks..which could double as a weapon...or...as i found out that day...can be very useful for a number of activities. Like..hitting ppl...for one. Ahh.. BAH! I SAY TO SPORT! BAH!
*Don't you just love how i jump from one topic to another?*
BAH!
www.geocities.com/evesygal - Chatter box now up and runinning...leave a message..you can actually..chat..like in normal net chat...its great. *muah bah!*
Wednesday, June 26, 2002
I've been bored...so this is the time where i fill this space up with useless...yet funny quizzies i've been doing!
What's Your Sexual MO? Find out @ She's Crafty
Which Empire Records Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
What prep label are you?
Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
Who's Your Inner Music Industry Diva? Find out @ She's Crafty
well I had fun...
What's Your Sexual MO? Find out @ She's Crafty
Which Empire Records Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
What prep label are you?
Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
Who's Your Inner Music Industry Diva? Find out @ She's Crafty
well I had fun...
Tuesday, June 25, 2002
TRACK FIVE: Mobile
Went back home again
This sucks, gotta pack up and leave again
Say goodbye to all my friends
Can't say when I'll be there again
Its time now, I turn around
Turn my back on everything
Turn my back on everything
[chorus]
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Start back at this life
Stretch myself back into the light
I'm waking up to say I've tried
Instead of waking up to another TV Guide
Its time now, I turn around
Turn and walk on this crazy ground
[chorus]
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing out of what I know
Everywhere I go
I'm a mobile
I'm a mobile
Hanging from the ceiling
Life's a mobile
Spinning 'round with mixed feelings
Crazy and wild
Sometimes I wanna scream out loud
Everything's changing everywhere I go
I'm out of my control
Everything's changing everywhere I go
Out of what I know
La la la la la la la la la
[chorus]
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing out of what I know
Everywhere I go
I'm a mobile
Everywhere I go
I'm a mobile
Playlist:
Naughty By Nature : Feels good - What you wanna do - Swing Swang
Mandy Moore - Crush (acoustic)
Vanessa Carlton - Paint it black & Twilight
Tenacious D - Tribute
Bob Marley feat. Lauryn Hill - Turn your lights down low
Nivea feat. jagged edge - Don't mess with my man
House Mix - Daft Punk, Modjo, Deaf 'n' Dumb Crew, Basement Jaxx & Alex Gopher
Damn mp3s. Damn not full version mp3s. Yes...KaZar is my newest bestest buddy..for all my downloading needs.
Did anyone watch buffy? well..the almost marriage between Xander and Anya. it was an entertaining episode for all. Meanwhile..i missed sailor moon this morning. Still kicking myself. I think it was the episode with the final confrontation with the two evil alien things and their tree. Well damn..waking up at 8 in the morning is getting harder now..I keep sleeping in. But sleep is good. I like sleep. But damn Alias last nite was pretty good too. I love that show..but now i'm waiting for Dark Angel to start again.
I have to take a dvd back later...grr..damn walks to the video store. Oh well...we all know evelyn needs the exercise.
Yes i have decided that...while my hair looks fantastic at the moment (thanks to a new product i'm using) i still feel...ugly. And my nails...urgh. Need to be done..soon. Their getting so long, i had to file them down, and hurt my pinkie finger..it feels like my nail is gonna rip off. not nice at all.
Its almost 2pm..i should..get off my ass and do sumthing productive today. I think something is happening tonite at Justin's house...but i'm not sure if i'll go. I'm kinda..behind in what been going on lately. I keep forgetting what the date is, oh well. I'll go to the world cup final bbq thing their having...yes..drinking and soccer. Yay..sounds like a party.
Went back home again
This sucks, gotta pack up and leave again
Say goodbye to all my friends
Can't say when I'll be there again
Its time now, I turn around
Turn my back on everything
Turn my back on everything
[chorus]
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Start back at this life
Stretch myself back into the light
I'm waking up to say I've tried
Instead of waking up to another TV Guide
Its time now, I turn around
Turn and walk on this crazy ground
[chorus]
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing out of what I know
Everywhere I go
I'm a mobile
I'm a mobile
Hanging from the ceiling
Life's a mobile
Spinning 'round with mixed feelings
Crazy and wild
Sometimes I wanna scream out loud
Everything's changing everywhere I go
I'm out of my control
Everything's changing everywhere I go
Out of what I know
La la la la la la la la la
[chorus]
Everything's changing when I turn around
I'm out of my control
I'm a mobile
Everything's changing out of what I know
Everywhere I go
I'm a mobile
Everywhere I go
I'm a mobile
Playlist:
Naughty By Nature : Feels good - What you wanna do - Swing Swang
Mandy Moore - Crush (acoustic)
Vanessa Carlton - Paint it black & Twilight
Tenacious D - Tribute
Bob Marley feat. Lauryn Hill - Turn your lights down low
Nivea feat. jagged edge - Don't mess with my man
House Mix - Daft Punk, Modjo, Deaf 'n' Dumb Crew, Basement Jaxx & Alex Gopher
Damn mp3s. Damn not full version mp3s. Yes...KaZar is my newest bestest buddy..for all my downloading needs.
Did anyone watch buffy? well..the almost marriage between Xander and Anya. it was an entertaining episode for all. Meanwhile..i missed sailor moon this morning. Still kicking myself. I think it was the episode with the final confrontation with the two evil alien things and their tree. Well damn..waking up at 8 in the morning is getting harder now..I keep sleeping in. But sleep is good. I like sleep. But damn Alias last nite was pretty good too. I love that show..but now i'm waiting for Dark Angel to start again.
I have to take a dvd back later...grr..damn walks to the video store. Oh well...we all know evelyn needs the exercise.
Yes i have decided that...while my hair looks fantastic at the moment (thanks to a new product i'm using) i still feel...ugly. And my nails...urgh. Need to be done..soon. Their getting so long, i had to file them down, and hurt my pinkie finger..it feels like my nail is gonna rip off. not nice at all.
Its almost 2pm..i should..get off my ass and do sumthing productive today. I think something is happening tonite at Justin's house...but i'm not sure if i'll go. I'm kinda..behind in what been going on lately. I keep forgetting what the date is, oh well. I'll go to the world cup final bbq thing their having...yes..drinking and soccer. Yay..sounds like a party.
Friday, June 21, 2002
TRACK FOUR: I'm With You
I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
Im looking for a place
searching for a face
is there anybody here I know
cause nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
I like that song. its nice. Meanwhile, they played Complicated this morning on Nova. YAY. It made my day.
I recently put a chatterbox on my website. It kinda makes the index page...bigger. More to scroll down to, but its easier if u just click the pop-up button and you can view it that way. The chatterbox is just a cool lil gadget i found to make my site more, friendly to the people who visit it. So feel free to leave a message in it. www.geocities.com/evesygal
The only problem with the chatter box..is it doesn't save past messages, so you can't view previous chats. grr. oh well..my conversation with Al about mum jokes wasn't that interesting. I've conluded that boys are sick and twisted people who make mean jokes about other people's parents. Not that i don't understand the male humour...no, its just too immature and don't get me started.
Well michelle branch was on the Big arvo yesterday. She had the celebrity tip - which was not to eat sweets b4 interviews and stuff...it was funny at the time.
I'm in the Uni Lib at the moment. I'm here sooo early, cos..i was afraid that if i stayed home and took the eltham bus, and the train and then bus to Uni - i would be late for my exam. But since i'm here nice and early, fat chance of me missing anything...but sailormoon. Dang.
I had a fight with my dad over sailor moon the other nite. He claimed that it was childish and i should watch things like. He was only being a prick though cos i wouldn't let him watch boring programs...such as the Bill. Yes the Bill is boring..since all the good characters left/died, now its just..crappy british television drama. Where's faulty towers when u need it.
*of course the fight over my childish and immature television habits - did include yelling - but i'll save u the details- when i'm sick and in front of the TV...don't mess with me* I'm feeling better btw.
Ahh..i think i need some chocolate. Since i've been sick i've been eating less - but supposedly that is a good thing according to the weight loss guy on ET. He claimed that he could make celebrities lose like 10 pounds a week..or sumthing like that. Yes...i'll lose ten pounds...and be anorexic. Like when Harry said to me that i could lose 20 kilos - and i replied - that i was 50-55 kgs....he thought i was 60kgs.
See guys shouldn't comment on girls weight - it only makes us angry or depressed. And i'm not depressed. or angry..at the moment anyway.
My fave website at the moment is 3cargarage.com. It's an aussie hanson fan site, with damn good hostees - and the fiction isn't too bad either. But i'm kinda going off fan fiction - since taylor hanson got married - its kinda..scary..cos most fiction is about the brothers - and what we think their lives are like (think passions soap opera type stuff ). And since tay got married..its true..how much we don't know about them. Also it seems kinda wrong now. Reading fictions that fanatsies about a married man. But still..the good fiction out there - u start to forget that their writing about real people - they make up their own character representations.
Actually i signed up with fanfiction.net - i was gonna post my green jelly beans story up there. I wrote that when i was in year 10 i think..its kinda funny. But its true..i suck at diaglogue. especially male dialogue.
anyway...i've been wasting too much time on this blog..when i should be studying. I might go up stairs and do some more study. Anthropology - yay. i gotta go study up on..stuff. The whole exam is multiple choice questions - personally that sounds like fun to me- but we've been warned that its gonna be tricky.
its only 9:30 amd i'm hungry..lol...i'm gonna go distract myself now. ta ta.
I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
Im looking for a place
searching for a face
is there anybody here I know
cause nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
I like that song. its nice. Meanwhile, they played Complicated this morning on Nova. YAY. It made my day.
I recently put a chatterbox on my website. It kinda makes the index page...bigger. More to scroll down to, but its easier if u just click the pop-up button and you can view it that way. The chatterbox is just a cool lil gadget i found to make my site more, friendly to the people who visit it. So feel free to leave a message in it. www.geocities.com/evesygal
The only problem with the chatter box..is it doesn't save past messages, so you can't view previous chats. grr. oh well..my conversation with Al about mum jokes wasn't that interesting. I've conluded that boys are sick and twisted people who make mean jokes about other people's parents. Not that i don't understand the male humour...no, its just too immature and don't get me started.
Well michelle branch was on the Big arvo yesterday. She had the celebrity tip - which was not to eat sweets b4 interviews and stuff...it was funny at the time.
I'm in the Uni Lib at the moment. I'm here sooo early, cos..i was afraid that if i stayed home and took the eltham bus, and the train and then bus to Uni - i would be late for my exam. But since i'm here nice and early, fat chance of me missing anything...but sailormoon. Dang.
I had a fight with my dad over sailor moon the other nite. He claimed that it was childish and i should watch things like. He was only being a prick though cos i wouldn't let him watch boring programs...such as the Bill. Yes the Bill is boring..since all the good characters left/died, now its just..crappy british television drama. Where's faulty towers when u need it.
*of course the fight over my childish and immature television habits - did include yelling - but i'll save u the details- when i'm sick and in front of the TV...don't mess with me* I'm feeling better btw.
Ahh..i think i need some chocolate. Since i've been sick i've been eating less - but supposedly that is a good thing according to the weight loss guy on ET. He claimed that he could make celebrities lose like 10 pounds a week..or sumthing like that. Yes...i'll lose ten pounds...and be anorexic. Like when Harry said to me that i could lose 20 kilos - and i replied - that i was 50-55 kgs....he thought i was 60kgs.
See guys shouldn't comment on girls weight - it only makes us angry or depressed. And i'm not depressed. or angry..at the moment anyway.
My fave website at the moment is 3cargarage.com. It's an aussie hanson fan site, with damn good hostees - and the fiction isn't too bad either. But i'm kinda going off fan fiction - since taylor hanson got married - its kinda..scary..cos most fiction is about the brothers - and what we think their lives are like (think passions soap opera type stuff ). And since tay got married..its true..how much we don't know about them. Also it seems kinda wrong now. Reading fictions that fanatsies about a married man. But still..the good fiction out there - u start to forget that their writing about real people - they make up their own character representations.
Actually i signed up with fanfiction.net - i was gonna post my green jelly beans story up there. I wrote that when i was in year 10 i think..its kinda funny. But its true..i suck at diaglogue. especially male dialogue.
anyway...i've been wasting too much time on this blog..when i should be studying. I might go up stairs and do some more study. Anthropology - yay. i gotta go study up on..stuff. The whole exam is multiple choice questions - personally that sounds like fun to me- but we've been warned that its gonna be tricky.
its only 9:30 amd i'm hungry..lol...i'm gonna go distract myself now. ta ta.
Tuesday, June 18, 2002
Sunday, June 16, 2002
TRACK THREE: Sk8er Boi
He was a boy, she was a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?
He was a punk,she did ballet
What more can I say?
He wanted her, she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well.
But all of her friends stuck up there nose
they had a problem with his baggy clothes.
He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enought for her
She had a pretty face, but her head was up in space
she needed to come back down to earth.
five years from now, she sits at home
feeding the baby
she's all alone
she turns on tv
guess who she sees
skater boy rockin' up MTV.
she calls up her friends, they already know
and they've all got tickets to see his show
she tags along and stands in the crowd
looks up at the man that she turned down.
He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enought for her
now he's a super star
slamin' on his guitar
does your pretty face see what he's worth?
sorry girl but you missed out
well tough luck that boys mine now
we are more than just good friends
this is how the story ends
too bad that you couldn't see
see that man that boy could be
there is more that meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside
He's just a boy, and i'm just a girl
can I make it anymore obvious?
we are in love, haven't you heard
how we rock each others world
I'm with the skater boy, I said see ya later boy
i'll be back stage after the show
i'll be at a studio
singing the song we wrote
about a girl you used to know
This is one of the damn coolest songs at the moement. Its fucking grand..go download it and listen to it.
Yes well i have been..hiding from the world for the pas few days because i am sick. Yes..evelyn..the girl who gets sick every six weeks...is sick yet again. Actually, this is the first time i've been sick since...december or janurary...so i must be doing good.
Well...on Tuesday i was feeling a bit off. And then that night i got a tempreture. so far my highest has been 38.6 - go me! sadly i found out yesterday my brother beat that with a 39. So i am at home, suffering a cough, a cold and a dizzy head which is telling me to go lie down in front of the couch. And funnily enough, i haven't eaten anything since breaky, and i'm not hungry. It's 4pm by the way. And i have exams this week. urgggh..study is gonna be hard. My mother was just yelling at me for wasting time on the internet. BAH TO EXAMS AND ESSAYS!
If u haven't heard the shocking news...you will learn of it on ET tomorrow (monday). AND its so shocking- that i am still in shock. Which doesn't help me..cos i'm still in shock from Aaliyah's death and..and a no. of other incidents.
But its nothing as drastic as aaliyah's death. No..far from it.
Ok..make sure ur sitting down for this..
TAYLOR HANSON IS MARRIED!
I know! Shocking isn't it? Well..sudden is the proper word for it. BUT i am very happy for Taylor and his new wife - she's 18..he's 19. 21 is the legal drinking age in America. SEE my problem with it.
BUT no matter - its their life. If they think they can...stay together - for more than two years. Good luck to them.
They have their whole lives ahead of them..now they can spend it with each...thats a scary though...for anyone.
He was a boy, she was a girl
Can I make it anymore obvious?
He was a punk,she did ballet
What more can I say?
He wanted her, she'd never tell
secretly she wanted him as well.
But all of her friends stuck up there nose
they had a problem with his baggy clothes.
He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enought for her
She had a pretty face, but her head was up in space
she needed to come back down to earth.
five years from now, she sits at home
feeding the baby
she's all alone
she turns on tv
guess who she sees
skater boy rockin' up MTV.
she calls up her friends, they already know
and they've all got tickets to see his show
she tags along and stands in the crowd
looks up at the man that she turned down.
He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy
he wasn't good enought for her
now he's a super star
slamin' on his guitar
does your pretty face see what he's worth?
sorry girl but you missed out
well tough luck that boys mine now
we are more than just good friends
this is how the story ends
too bad that you couldn't see
see that man that boy could be
there is more that meets the eye
I see the soul that is inside
He's just a boy, and i'm just a girl
can I make it anymore obvious?
we are in love, haven't you heard
how we rock each others world
I'm with the skater boy, I said see ya later boy
i'll be back stage after the show
i'll be at a studio
singing the song we wrote
about a girl you used to know
This is one of the damn coolest songs at the moement. Its fucking grand..go download it and listen to it.
Yes well i have been..hiding from the world for the pas few days because i am sick. Yes..evelyn..the girl who gets sick every six weeks...is sick yet again. Actually, this is the first time i've been sick since...december or janurary...so i must be doing good.
Well...on Tuesday i was feeling a bit off. And then that night i got a tempreture. so far my highest has been 38.6 - go me! sadly i found out yesterday my brother beat that with a 39. So i am at home, suffering a cough, a cold and a dizzy head which is telling me to go lie down in front of the couch. And funnily enough, i haven't eaten anything since breaky, and i'm not hungry. It's 4pm by the way. And i have exams this week. urgggh..study is gonna be hard. My mother was just yelling at me for wasting time on the internet. BAH TO EXAMS AND ESSAYS!
If u haven't heard the shocking news...you will learn of it on ET tomorrow (monday). AND its so shocking- that i am still in shock. Which doesn't help me..cos i'm still in shock from Aaliyah's death and..and a no. of other incidents.
But its nothing as drastic as aaliyah's death. No..far from it.
Ok..make sure ur sitting down for this..
TAYLOR HANSON IS MARRIED!
I know! Shocking isn't it? Well..sudden is the proper word for it. BUT i am very happy for Taylor and his new wife - she's 18..he's 19. 21 is the legal drinking age in America. SEE my problem with it.
BUT no matter - its their life. If they think they can...stay together - for more than two years. Good luck to them.
They have their whole lives ahead of them..now they can spend it with each...thats a scary though...for anyone.
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
*i just realised..that...i didn't publish my last post. U should read that first..scroll down.*
TRACK TWO: Complicated
Uh Huh, Lifes Like this
Uh Huh, Uh Huh, thats the way it is
Cuz lifes like this
Uh Huh Uh Huh Thats the way it is
Chill out what ya yellin for
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're driving in your car
and your talkin to me one on one but you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way your acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Lifes like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honestly promise me im never gonna find you fakin
no no no
You come over unannounced
dressed up like your somethin else
where you are and where it's at you see
your makin me
laugh out when you strike your pose take off
all your preppy clothes
you know your not foolin anyone
when youve become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way your acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Lifes like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honestly promise me im never gonna find you fakin
no no no
Chill out what ya yellin for
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
then you will see
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way your acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Lifes like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honestly promise me im never gonna find you fakin
no no no
*MY FAVE SONG OF DA MOMENT*
I think I relate so well to this song, because it reminds me so much of Blake..funny that.
Well i'm blogging this here at Uni..cos i can. I don't even have to be here to today, but I am cos i have to hand in my essays. Yes, my two evil essays. Anthropology and Media. I started and finished the media essay yesterday. Anthropology took up most of saturday and Sunday to finish. At least that essay makes some sort of sense, the media one is all over the place. I had too much information and I didn't know where to start, and then I didn't have enough information and i didn't have enough to write.
Yes Pop/rock music evolved with technological developments..blah blah blah...MEanwhile..i found some kick ass books about the Aussie music Industry and the independant lables in sydney and stuff. Its pretty cool. The stories of hatred and fuck-ups in the industry, its all very entertaining.
So entertaining it makes me wanna start up my own record label. I reckon I could do it..with a bit of help from the right people, and a lot of money of course.
Do u know it costs half a million to launch a new act. That is another reason why Mushroom/Festival records went from 200 sumthing acts to only 16. So they can spend more money on Kylie.
I can't believe that already Holly Valance has made it to NO. 1! iTS ONLY tuesday! So what..she's s sold more singles in one week than Kylie and Eminem. Yes..well anyone can cover a song that was a hit in turkey. And honestly, have u heard that song? It gets boring after the first minute and a half. I'm sure the original versions of that cover are much..better in turkish. And I will download them to prove my point. (Not that i have much of an agrument..just a seeding hate for Holly Valance and her frog like face).
Personally I think that Kylie's song is so much better. LOL. Yes, i am defending Kylie the pop queen her self. Well...she did a duet with kermit the frog..thats just repect. Respect the frog - Lick a toad.
But it only goes to prove that while artists struggling to get off the ground are losing out to Neighbours stars! I mean..wtf. Remember those twin sisters off neighbours who tried to do a Kylie but failed? Yes..well where are they now? The live only in the neighbours re-runs on our afternoon tv screens.
OK..so Holly has prooved that she's taken a good song. Now the song is good - i mean its kinda catchy. Just a little boring in the centre near the end (yes i'm going bak on what i just said). It has to be a good song if it has been hugely popular with the other artists that covered it. But for sum reason, i'm seeing a back track in music trends. Not long ago Mandy moore released a song "In My Pocket" which is a damn good song, but it had an exotic influence that added to the feel of the song. I can;t describe it better..cos i can't think of the exact influence it was taken from. But Holly's song has also taken that turkish influence of the original song, kept it in there and polished it off as her own because she takes her clothes off for the film clip. Now..Mandy did it first. Holly took a turkish song and made it english. If truth be known..Holly had probably recorded the song at the time Mandy's was released.
Now trends in pop music are fickle. We think we are progressing and then some group or artist takes us back again.
N'sync's No strings attached is a classic pop album because of the nitty gritty sound influences that come through with the..drum machines and midi synthesizers that were arranged by Max Martin the Master Song writer and producer. N'ysnc were on to something, and it went further with the single POP (which is excellent - its a 'shouldabeenahit' song). Its australian crap that keeps reappearing on our radios and CD store shelves. Shit like Human nature which is an exact copy of N'sync second album style. And have u heard the latest crap parading on Australia's NO.1 Video hits? This 3 piece boy band - all look like their 30 years - covering a classic song- but putting a shitty early 90's dance beat over the top of it. Is it just me..or are ppl to lazy to think of something original.
Now. I'm a slave 4 u is original. Hella good is original. P.diddy is original. Missy E and Aaliyah is original.
And now with all the "Mahhhn" bands (say Mann in a deep growling voice - much like the one of the singer from creed) like creed, i argue Lifehouse, and staind, and lots of em. Rock music is coming back. And Finally Chick guitar music is coming back with the likes of sheryl crow returning to the scene and Michelle Branch and Avril Lavigne. And dare i say it..Lash is bring it bak too.
The calling, justincase, Dave matthews band (rock), Rock is slowly making its way back onto the radio.
Ya know..its a long way to the top. And record companies wonder why ppl have stopped buying CDs - well at least not in Australia. We had a 12% rise in sales...the majority of them Overseas artists. YAY. Aussie pop sucks - no surprise there. Kylie isn't aussie - she's UK now. There's a difference in the quailty of good pop/dance music in the UK than in Oz.
I think that if the record companies stop producing shit boy bands, shit music. If they take the time to make good albums. Not just good singles, there would be a rise in CD sales. Singles aren't everything. An artist makes more from album sale royalties ($2-$4 an album) than they do from singles.
So the industry should take this as a wake-up call. To sit up, and pay attention. Because the consumers won't put up with shit bands, shit music, and recycled pop any longer. Well..of course i'm mainly speaking for myself. Everything i just wrote was my opinion. And if this was an essay i'd have lil citations through out it.
If only i could write like this everyday. It took me a whole day to write an essay yesterday..the introduction took 2 hours and was still 150 words under limit.
*MUAH*
Visit me and i'll make it worth ur while ;) www.geocities.com/evesygal
TRACK TWO: Complicated
Uh Huh, Lifes Like this
Uh Huh, Uh Huh, thats the way it is
Cuz lifes like this
Uh Huh Uh Huh Thats the way it is
Chill out what ya yellin for
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're driving in your car
and your talkin to me one on one but you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way your acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Lifes like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honestly promise me im never gonna find you fakin
no no no
You come over unannounced
dressed up like your somethin else
where you are and where it's at you see
your makin me
laugh out when you strike your pose take off
all your preppy clothes
you know your not foolin anyone
when youve become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way your acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Lifes like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honestly promise me im never gonna find you fakin
no no no
Chill out what ya yellin for
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
then you will see
Somebody else round everyone else
Watchin your back like you cant relax
trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way your acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Lifes like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get and you turn it into honestly promise me im never gonna find you fakin
no no no
*MY FAVE SONG OF DA MOMENT*
I think I relate so well to this song, because it reminds me so much of Blake..funny that.
Well i'm blogging this here at Uni..cos i can. I don't even have to be here to today, but I am cos i have to hand in my essays. Yes, my two evil essays. Anthropology and Media. I started and finished the media essay yesterday. Anthropology took up most of saturday and Sunday to finish. At least that essay makes some sort of sense, the media one is all over the place. I had too much information and I didn't know where to start, and then I didn't have enough information and i didn't have enough to write.
Yes Pop/rock music evolved with technological developments..blah blah blah...MEanwhile..i found some kick ass books about the Aussie music Industry and the independant lables in sydney and stuff. Its pretty cool. The stories of hatred and fuck-ups in the industry, its all very entertaining.
So entertaining it makes me wanna start up my own record label. I reckon I could do it..with a bit of help from the right people, and a lot of money of course.
Do u know it costs half a million to launch a new act. That is another reason why Mushroom/Festival records went from 200 sumthing acts to only 16. So they can spend more money on Kylie.
I can't believe that already Holly Valance has made it to NO. 1! iTS ONLY tuesday! So what..she's s sold more singles in one week than Kylie and Eminem. Yes..well anyone can cover a song that was a hit in turkey. And honestly, have u heard that song? It gets boring after the first minute and a half. I'm sure the original versions of that cover are much..better in turkish. And I will download them to prove my point. (Not that i have much of an agrument..just a seeding hate for Holly Valance and her frog like face).
Personally I think that Kylie's song is so much better. LOL. Yes, i am defending Kylie the pop queen her self. Well...she did a duet with kermit the frog..thats just repect. Respect the frog - Lick a toad.
But it only goes to prove that while artists struggling to get off the ground are losing out to Neighbours stars! I mean..wtf. Remember those twin sisters off neighbours who tried to do a Kylie but failed? Yes..well where are they now? The live only in the neighbours re-runs on our afternoon tv screens.
OK..so Holly has prooved that she's taken a good song. Now the song is good - i mean its kinda catchy. Just a little boring in the centre near the end (yes i'm going bak on what i just said). It has to be a good song if it has been hugely popular with the other artists that covered it. But for sum reason, i'm seeing a back track in music trends. Not long ago Mandy moore released a song "In My Pocket" which is a damn good song, but it had an exotic influence that added to the feel of the song. I can;t describe it better..cos i can't think of the exact influence it was taken from. But Holly's song has also taken that turkish influence of the original song, kept it in there and polished it off as her own because she takes her clothes off for the film clip. Now..Mandy did it first. Holly took a turkish song and made it english. If truth be known..Holly had probably recorded the song at the time Mandy's was released.
Now trends in pop music are fickle. We think we are progressing and then some group or artist takes us back again.
N'sync's No strings attached is a classic pop album because of the nitty gritty sound influences that come through with the..drum machines and midi synthesizers that were arranged by Max Martin the Master Song writer and producer. N'ysnc were on to something, and it went further with the single POP (which is excellent - its a 'shouldabeenahit' song). Its australian crap that keeps reappearing on our radios and CD store shelves. Shit like Human nature which is an exact copy of N'sync second album style. And have u heard the latest crap parading on Australia's NO.1 Video hits? This 3 piece boy band - all look like their 30 years - covering a classic song- but putting a shitty early 90's dance beat over the top of it. Is it just me..or are ppl to lazy to think of something original.
Now. I'm a slave 4 u is original. Hella good is original. P.diddy is original. Missy E and Aaliyah is original.
And now with all the "Mahhhn" bands (say Mann in a deep growling voice - much like the one of the singer from creed) like creed, i argue Lifehouse, and staind, and lots of em. Rock music is coming back. And Finally Chick guitar music is coming back with the likes of sheryl crow returning to the scene and Michelle Branch and Avril Lavigne. And dare i say it..Lash is bring it bak too.
The calling, justincase, Dave matthews band (rock), Rock is slowly making its way back onto the radio.
Ya know..its a long way to the top. And record companies wonder why ppl have stopped buying CDs - well at least not in Australia. We had a 12% rise in sales...the majority of them Overseas artists. YAY. Aussie pop sucks - no surprise there. Kylie isn't aussie - she's UK now. There's a difference in the quailty of good pop/dance music in the UK than in Oz.
I think that if the record companies stop producing shit boy bands, shit music. If they take the time to make good albums. Not just good singles, there would be a rise in CD sales. Singles aren't everything. An artist makes more from album sale royalties ($2-$4 an album) than they do from singles.
So the industry should take this as a wake-up call. To sit up, and pay attention. Because the consumers won't put up with shit bands, shit music, and recycled pop any longer. Well..of course i'm mainly speaking for myself. Everything i just wrote was my opinion. And if this was an essay i'd have lil citations through out it.
If only i could write like this everyday. It took me a whole day to write an essay yesterday..the introduction took 2 hours and was still 150 words under limit.
*MUAH*
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Friday, June 07, 2002
LET GO - Avril Lavigne
Track One: Losing Grip
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone
Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere
I've decided to go with the theme of Avril Lavigne's debut album - which is fantastic. It would be unfair to compare Avril with Michelle Branch, but the two young performers are destined for big things in the future. It feels good to be excited about a new music artist, theres still too much crap in the charts at the moment and being able to hear something new is refreshing.
I don't really have anything interesting to mention at the moment, i just felt like doing a lil blog for those few people who read this. And I keep forgetting that some people actually do read it. Well..lets see...
JON - STOP READING THIS - it will do ur head in..And u can't be that bored!
To Rach - damn girl, where'd you go? give me a call NOW.
JUSTIN - if u just read that, tell rach that a phone call once in awhile would be nice :)
Lisa - HI :) (see, no long scary paragraphs for you to read).
muahaha..and the purpose of that was? Hmm..i dunno..just felt like it *shrugs*.
Track One: Losing Grip
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone
Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere
I've decided to go with the theme of Avril Lavigne's debut album - which is fantastic. It would be unfair to compare Avril with Michelle Branch, but the two young performers are destined for big things in the future. It feels good to be excited about a new music artist, theres still too much crap in the charts at the moment and being able to hear something new is refreshing.
I don't really have anything interesting to mention at the moment, i just felt like doing a lil blog for those few people who read this. And I keep forgetting that some people actually do read it. Well..lets see...
JON - STOP READING THIS - it will do ur head in..And u can't be that bored!
To Rach - damn girl, where'd you go? give me a call NOW.
JUSTIN - if u just read that, tell rach that a phone call once in awhile would be nice :)
Lisa - HI :) (see, no long scary paragraphs for you to read).
muahaha..and the purpose of that was? Hmm..i dunno..just felt like it *shrugs*.
Wednesday, June 05, 2002
Relationships. Thats the main topic of conversation at the moment. I don't know why but some people make such a big deal out of it.
Well the question here is - if it is a big deal, why are people so caught up in it at the moment? And I would be the wrong person to answer that, mainly because if I didn't give so much as a shit about it, I probably wouldn't be writing about it here.
We all know that I'm single, not that I mind but other people make a deal about it(peer pressure). Like try and set me up with other people - and guys of course flirt. And because i have nothing to talk about, i shall talk about today's flirting encounter with a friend of mine, and please note: I didn't flirt at all. It was all him. I just sat and said "uh huh" alot.
Since I'm at Uni, i have met a few new people, I met most of them through Jon, btw. So I'm doing nothing sitting pretty in the ISA. And pne of jon's friends has decided he's gonna fail uni and not go to any lectures. So i'm just reading the newspaper - very interesting stuff these tv guides- anyhoo..he's talking shit and i'm like..yeah..yea...whatever. Not paying any attention.
So we start talking about shopping and clothes, and he thinks he's cool cos he's gonna buy a full length leather jacket (and to him 3000 is loose change) and he's chatting on about how impressed i'll be when I see him in the jacket with his newly aquired six pack.
I'm thinking to myself, 'ok..what is he getting at' and i finally get cluey about his flirting intentions when he moves to the seat next to me and contiues to talk about clothes. And we were talking about jeans..and he was doing the..touchy thing. I joked that he was feeling up my jeans - he was just..poking them. But i'm no..genius at flirting - but i know what it means when they start to make "contact" ..that sounded really tacky. But ya know..how when you like somone..you might..touch them on the knee. Friendly distance..that sort of thing.
Awhile earlier..this week i believe, Jon said to me that, this friend, was a bit on the friendly side. he was hinting. And I got pissed off with him..cos i was thinking, this guy is like a friend..no way. Ick...puke..all of the above.
Now i should have a point to this story, but i'm slowly getting to it. OK..in anthropology, we learnt about prejudice and discrimination. These terms are normally used in a racist context, but what about in an everyday - prejudice against people who can be catorgrized by looks and apperance. I dunno..maybe i'm bull shitting. But generally, guys say..No fat chicks. Now isn't this discriminating against girls who are comfortably over size 8? Maybe I do have a prefrence over what guys I do like. But i've realised...i'm starting to get narky at this friend who is flirting with me. Maybe cos i don't like the flirting. I get alot of un wanted attention- normally i just get weird strange people giving me a greasy, but when you arent attracted to a person..not necessailry because of apperance...but the person in general...how do polietly let the person know..your not interested in them "like that"? Now, apart from the fact - and i'l be honest - this friend..isnt at all what i go for...But i don't want him..or other ppl..to think the reasons i don't like him is because of his physical appearnce..cos its not.
But to be honest, i believe that in order for something to happen there has to be a spark of interest. You have to be able to click with them straight away. Everyone starts out as friends (Or ends as friends). Ya know what..fuck it. I should have to explain myself to anyone. Ignore this whole blog. It was a waste of time (time-waster) anyway.
Well the question here is - if it is a big deal, why are people so caught up in it at the moment? And I would be the wrong person to answer that, mainly because if I didn't give so much as a shit about it, I probably wouldn't be writing about it here.
We all know that I'm single, not that I mind but other people make a deal about it(peer pressure). Like try and set me up with other people - and guys of course flirt. And because i have nothing to talk about, i shall talk about today's flirting encounter with a friend of mine, and please note: I didn't flirt at all. It was all him. I just sat and said "uh huh" alot.
Since I'm at Uni, i have met a few new people, I met most of them through Jon, btw. So I'm doing nothing sitting pretty in the ISA. And pne of jon's friends has decided he's gonna fail uni and not go to any lectures. So i'm just reading the newspaper - very interesting stuff these tv guides- anyhoo..he's talking shit and i'm like..yeah..yea...whatever. Not paying any attention.
So we start talking about shopping and clothes, and he thinks he's cool cos he's gonna buy a full length leather jacket (and to him 3000 is loose change) and he's chatting on about how impressed i'll be when I see him in the jacket with his newly aquired six pack.
I'm thinking to myself, 'ok..what is he getting at' and i finally get cluey about his flirting intentions when he moves to the seat next to me and contiues to talk about clothes. And we were talking about jeans..and he was doing the..touchy thing. I joked that he was feeling up my jeans - he was just..poking them. But i'm no..genius at flirting - but i know what it means when they start to make "contact" ..that sounded really tacky. But ya know..how when you like somone..you might..touch them on the knee. Friendly distance..that sort of thing.
Awhile earlier..this week i believe, Jon said to me that, this friend, was a bit on the friendly side. he was hinting. And I got pissed off with him..cos i was thinking, this guy is like a friend..no way. Ick...puke..all of the above.
Now i should have a point to this story, but i'm slowly getting to it. OK..in anthropology, we learnt about prejudice and discrimination. These terms are normally used in a racist context, but what about in an everyday - prejudice against people who can be catorgrized by looks and apperance. I dunno..maybe i'm bull shitting. But generally, guys say..No fat chicks. Now isn't this discriminating against girls who are comfortably over size 8? Maybe I do have a prefrence over what guys I do like. But i've realised...i'm starting to get narky at this friend who is flirting with me. Maybe cos i don't like the flirting. I get alot of un wanted attention- normally i just get weird strange people giving me a greasy, but when you arent attracted to a person..not necessailry because of apperance...but the person in general...how do polietly let the person know..your not interested in them "like that"? Now, apart from the fact - and i'l be honest - this friend..isnt at all what i go for...But i don't want him..or other ppl..to think the reasons i don't like him is because of his physical appearnce..cos its not.
But to be honest, i believe that in order for something to happen there has to be a spark of interest. You have to be able to click with them straight away. Everyone starts out as friends (Or ends as friends). Ya know what..fuck it. I should have to explain myself to anyone. Ignore this whole blog. It was a waste of time (time-waster) anyway.
Sunday, May 26, 2002
Here I am so don't try to forgive me
I don't believe in fairy tales
Here we are we're nothing but honesty
I've had enough I'm not gonna stay
I'm sorry for running away like this
and i'm sorry, i've already made my wish
But Cinderella's got to go
I'm sorry just trying to live my life
Don't worry your gonna be alright
But cinderella's got to go
- Cinderella - Britney
Its been a busy last few weeks. And its been interesting aswell. Shout out to everyone who has bothered to stick with me and read this page. Kudos!
anyhoo..these blogs are becoming few and far between, i've been super busy with that thing called uni. Yes, it has become..half my life. Well my life..cos my life seems to revolve around photocopying and lectures. And how fucking cold is it? Shit..this room is like a freezer..outside is like..warm compared to in here. searious. lol. Well i can't type long, i need to get to sleep. Uni tomorrow..last Cinema studies screening and lecture for the semester. I've only got two weeks left and then exams. So i need to start my essays now. Or else i'll get behind, and screwed cos..then i'll be having screaming matches with mother over who gets the computer first. She seems to forget that i'm at uni during the week..and unless i wag a whole week..i won't get anything done. wagging lets me..stay at home..watch tv..and Then write my essay. Yeah..whateva ev.
*muah*
www.geocities.com/evesygal
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I don't believe in fairy tales
Here we are we're nothing but honesty
I've had enough I'm not gonna stay
I'm sorry for running away like this
and i'm sorry, i've already made my wish
But Cinderella's got to go
I'm sorry just trying to live my life
Don't worry your gonna be alright
But cinderella's got to go
- Cinderella - Britney
Its been a busy last few weeks. And its been interesting aswell. Shout out to everyone who has bothered to stick with me and read this page. Kudos!
anyhoo..these blogs are becoming few and far between, i've been super busy with that thing called uni. Yes, it has become..half my life. Well my life..cos my life seems to revolve around photocopying and lectures. And how fucking cold is it? Shit..this room is like a freezer..outside is like..warm compared to in here. searious. lol. Well i can't type long, i need to get to sleep. Uni tomorrow..last Cinema studies screening and lecture for the semester. I've only got two weeks left and then exams. So i need to start my essays now. Or else i'll get behind, and screwed cos..then i'll be having screaming matches with mother over who gets the computer first. She seems to forget that i'm at uni during the week..and unless i wag a whole week..i won't get anything done. wagging lets me..stay at home..watch tv..and Then write my essay. Yeah..whateva ev.
*muah*
www.geocities.com/evesygal
-My guestbook disappeared!!!-
Wednesday, May 15, 2002
What is people's facsination with my love life? You know, the non-existant love life.
I think people make too many assumptions of me. For instance, they think I've dated and been with a lot of guys. Well I haven't, but that's the impression some people have of me. I don't know where people get that kind of impression of me from. I guess sometimes I can be a little full on, but I'm interested by this now. First impressions - I want to know what people first thought of me. I don't care what they think now (well I do - depends on who's making the judgments).
So I guess your wondering where this, new found topic came from? Well Jon and Matt left me at the mobile shop at La trobe - I swear it's becoming a "day-care centre" for bored youths. So I was hanging out with Gavin, he's the dude who works there.
And he told me he was very "curious" about my relationship with Jon. I think Gavin was thinking that I would confess to him my undenying love for Jon right there and then - but sadly, that will never happen (sorry Jon). Gavin was asking me lots of questions, basically quizzing me on my own life - of course everything related back to love. And i don't think he was hitting on me. Cos when he mentioned the "God, godly" fellow I guessed right away that he wanted to be a minister. That was somehow..not as reassuring as it should have been. But here I was talking with Gavin, and in the way he worded questions - he made it clear that his impressions of me was that I dated alot of guys.
The conversation wondered off a little bit, somehow the idea of soul mates came up - and he kept saying that i was the kind of person who 'believes in love' or if i were in love, i would be "deeply" in love. But i 'kindly' told him, that love isn't real - and it's only lust, inaftuation and obsession. Well - that's what I know of it anway :)
But getting back to the suggestions about me and Jon - well I find it weird, that in our Australian culture - for a male and female to be just friends - doesn't happen. That it's impossible because, well- just because it's seen as strange, not the norm. This idea actually came up in a media discussion on ideology. Well you know, it's true. That alot of people think "Oh you two look friendly *wink wink, nudge nudge*" when all it is ..is hanging and being an idiot with one of your good mates. Because it can be taken the wrong way, people think that your flirting, even when your not. Can people even tell the difference between flirting and not flirting? It's just..normal interaction with the opposite sex - what's the big deal?! Ya know, i could like a guy for a week - then instantly go-off him - but then a week later flirt with him and it not mean anything. Cos flirting isn't slutty. Everybody flirts - just some are better at it than others. It's like dirty dancing. You can dirty dance with a stranger at a fricken party - and it won't mean anything. Not that i go around dirty dancing - or as lisa likes to call it "slutty dancing."
Songs 4 the blog
Oops I did it again - Britney
Criminal - Fiona Apple
Freak like me - Sugababes
Rock'n' roll machine - The Donna's
Come On - Josie and the pussycats
Playas gonna play - 3LW
See ya - Atomic Kitten
Songs to get down and boogie to
Bootylicious - DC (remix only)
Hella good - No doubt
4 my ppl - Missy E
Strange love addiction - Supreme beings of lesuire
Run away - Nivea
Caramel - City High
One night stand - Mis-teeq
*eves* Come visit me www.geocities.com/evesygal
I think people make too many assumptions of me. For instance, they think I've dated and been with a lot of guys. Well I haven't, but that's the impression some people have of me. I don't know where people get that kind of impression of me from. I guess sometimes I can be a little full on, but I'm interested by this now. First impressions - I want to know what people first thought of me. I don't care what they think now (well I do - depends on who's making the judgments).
So I guess your wondering where this, new found topic came from? Well Jon and Matt left me at the mobile shop at La trobe - I swear it's becoming a "day-care centre" for bored youths. So I was hanging out with Gavin, he's the dude who works there.
And he told me he was very "curious" about my relationship with Jon. I think Gavin was thinking that I would confess to him my undenying love for Jon right there and then - but sadly, that will never happen (sorry Jon). Gavin was asking me lots of questions, basically quizzing me on my own life - of course everything related back to love. And i don't think he was hitting on me. Cos when he mentioned the "God, godly" fellow I guessed right away that he wanted to be a minister. That was somehow..not as reassuring as it should have been. But here I was talking with Gavin, and in the way he worded questions - he made it clear that his impressions of me was that I dated alot of guys.
The conversation wondered off a little bit, somehow the idea of soul mates came up - and he kept saying that i was the kind of person who 'believes in love' or if i were in love, i would be "deeply" in love. But i 'kindly' told him, that love isn't real - and it's only lust, inaftuation and obsession. Well - that's what I know of it anway :)
But getting back to the suggestions about me and Jon - well I find it weird, that in our Australian culture - for a male and female to be just friends - doesn't happen. That it's impossible because, well- just because it's seen as strange, not the norm. This idea actually came up in a media discussion on ideology. Well you know, it's true. That alot of people think "Oh you two look friendly *wink wink, nudge nudge*" when all it is ..is hanging and being an idiot with one of your good mates. Because it can be taken the wrong way, people think that your flirting, even when your not. Can people even tell the difference between flirting and not flirting? It's just..normal interaction with the opposite sex - what's the big deal?! Ya know, i could like a guy for a week - then instantly go-off him - but then a week later flirt with him and it not mean anything. Cos flirting isn't slutty. Everybody flirts - just some are better at it than others. It's like dirty dancing. You can dirty dance with a stranger at a fricken party - and it won't mean anything. Not that i go around dirty dancing - or as lisa likes to call it "slutty dancing."
Songs 4 the blog
Oops I did it again - Britney
Criminal - Fiona Apple
Freak like me - Sugababes
Rock'n' roll machine - The Donna's
Come On - Josie and the pussycats
Playas gonna play - 3LW
See ya - Atomic Kitten
Songs to get down and boogie to
Bootylicious - DC (remix only)
Hella good - No doubt
4 my ppl - Missy E
Strange love addiction - Supreme beings of lesuire
Run away - Nivea
Caramel - City High
One night stand - Mis-teeq
*eves* Come visit me www.geocities.com/evesygal
Sunday, May 12, 2002
Playlist
Lil Bow wow - Take ya home
Sash - Ecuador!
SUGABABES - Freak Like Me
Hoobastabk - Running away
Vanessa Carlton - A thousand Miles
Robert Miles vs. Darude - Children of the sandstorm
Drowning pool - Bodies
Hey all - obviously if ur reading this u must be as bored out of ur brains as I am. yay. *sarcasm* lol
Well - alot happened yesterday - and i'm dead tired.
First off, i had a fight with someone over the net, but i won't go into it here because, i don't feel like dragging that up again.
And secondly, i went out last night. With Lisa. And, i have to say - my mother is waay to protective of me. She didn't want me staying out and crashing at one of lisa's friend's friend's house. LOL..did ya get that? lol
So she called up a taxi for me, and i was home by 2.30 am. Well b4 that whole fiasco, i was having a good old time with lisa at crown waiting for her friend, kirstie. And she's really cool, btw. so - we were at crown for..too long. And i so felt, slutty. I didn't think i looked it, i mean i was wearing my giant black -Italian- coat. But i was dressed for a good night, ya know - i was wearing a little make up and my hair was..fucked beyond repair - but thats beside the point.
So while me and lis are trying to kill sometime, we get the idea to try and see if i could get into the casino with my...la trobe ID card.
We tried twice and i got knocked back..twice. So we were wandering around, and then decide after awhile to try Barcode.
So the guy, checked my id..and he let me in. So we spent about ten minutes in there- seeing that it was just a bar..with arcade games, and u can get betta games at the galatic circus, so..we left there and continued to wonder round the place.
So..at almost 12 or sumthing like that..kirstie rolls up with her friends, and we go to the spy lounge which is just walking dist from crown. And its on king street - yay for dodgy locations. We lined up, and finally after all my "i'm not gonna get in" talk...we get to the front of the line. and the chick..who was the door bitch for the night..Or female bouncer is a nicer term - she said she couldn't just accept my la trobe card. So i offered her my medi-care card, lol..cos i have my own being 18 and all.
She asked me a few questions - like my date of birth - and i had a mental block for ten seconds - lol..i couldn't remember my b'day. Then she asked me my middle name - and i got in. so..there we were in the spy lounge. And i must admit, i liked this place better than barcode. It was packed. like..you couldn't move at all near the bars. But it was cool. The music was good..and the r&b room - which was like..this loft...was mad. ppl were dancing all over the place. And the music was cool Overall i would of like to have stayed longer and do a bit of dancing, not standing around with my handbag, but oh well..i won't get into the argument over the phone with my mom locked in a bathroom cubical.
So now..i'm gonna get my L's. cos..i need it to get in overaged places. lol..but honestly..i'm scared shitless about driving. I guess thats prolly why i've put it off..for..ooh i dunno..two fucking years..well...close to that anyway.
anyhoo..i'm gonna. go catch some Zzz's...i'm still tired.. meanwhile - who was watching rage last nite? Some mad video clips - lots of classics..like offfspring..nirvana..foo fighters...ever clear. it was mad. OK..i'm going now. TA TA
Lil Bow wow - Take ya home
Sash - Ecuador!
SUGABABES - Freak Like Me
Hoobastabk - Running away
Vanessa Carlton - A thousand Miles
Robert Miles vs. Darude - Children of the sandstorm
Drowning pool - Bodies
Hey all - obviously if ur reading this u must be as bored out of ur brains as I am. yay. *sarcasm* lol
Well - alot happened yesterday - and i'm dead tired.
First off, i had a fight with someone over the net, but i won't go into it here because, i don't feel like dragging that up again.
And secondly, i went out last night. With Lisa. And, i have to say - my mother is waay to protective of me. She didn't want me staying out and crashing at one of lisa's friend's friend's house. LOL..did ya get that? lol
So she called up a taxi for me, and i was home by 2.30 am. Well b4 that whole fiasco, i was having a good old time with lisa at crown waiting for her friend, kirstie. And she's really cool, btw. so - we were at crown for..too long. And i so felt, slutty. I didn't think i looked it, i mean i was wearing my giant black -Italian- coat. But i was dressed for a good night, ya know - i was wearing a little make up and my hair was..fucked beyond repair - but thats beside the point.
So while me and lis are trying to kill sometime, we get the idea to try and see if i could get into the casino with my...la trobe ID card.
We tried twice and i got knocked back..twice. So we were wandering around, and then decide after awhile to try Barcode.
So the guy, checked my id..and he let me in. So we spent about ten minutes in there- seeing that it was just a bar..with arcade games, and u can get betta games at the galatic circus, so..we left there and continued to wonder round the place.
So..at almost 12 or sumthing like that..kirstie rolls up with her friends, and we go to the spy lounge which is just walking dist from crown. And its on king street - yay for dodgy locations. We lined up, and finally after all my "i'm not gonna get in" talk...we get to the front of the line. and the chick..who was the door bitch for the night..Or female bouncer is a nicer term - she said she couldn't just accept my la trobe card. So i offered her my medi-care card, lol..cos i have my own being 18 and all.
She asked me a few questions - like my date of birth - and i had a mental block for ten seconds - lol..i couldn't remember my b'day. Then she asked me my middle name - and i got in. so..there we were in the spy lounge. And i must admit, i liked this place better than barcode. It was packed. like..you couldn't move at all near the bars. But it was cool. The music was good..and the r&b room - which was like..this loft...was mad. ppl were dancing all over the place. And the music was cool Overall i would of like to have stayed longer and do a bit of dancing, not standing around with my handbag, but oh well..i won't get into the argument over the phone with my mom locked in a bathroom cubical.
So now..i'm gonna get my L's. cos..i need it to get in overaged places. lol..but honestly..i'm scared shitless about driving. I guess thats prolly why i've put it off..for..ooh i dunno..two fucking years..well...close to that anyway.
anyhoo..i'm gonna. go catch some Zzz's...i'm still tired.. meanwhile - who was watching rage last nite? Some mad video clips - lots of classics..like offfspring..nirvana..foo fighters...ever clear. it was mad. OK..i'm going now. TA TA
Wednesday, May 01, 2002
I need time, love, joy..i need space, love, i need me..
Say hello to the girl that I am
your gonna ahve to see through my perspective
i need to make mistakes to learn who i am
and i don't wanna be so damned protected
There must be another way
cos i believe in taking chances
but who am i to say
what a girl is to do gotta need some answers
What am i to do with my life? you will find it out don't worri
How am i supposed to know what's right? you just gotta do it ur way
I can;t help the way i feel
all my life has been so over protected
I tell them what i like, what i want, what i love
But everytime i do i stand corrected
Things that i've been told i can't believe
what i heard about the world i realise i'm over protected
There must be another way
cos i believe in taking chances
but who am i to say what a girl is to do
gotta need some answers
What am i to do with my life? you will find it out don't worry
How am i supposed to know what's right? you just gotta do it ur way
I can't help the way i feel
all my life has been so over protected...
----Britney "over protected" - darkchild mix is cool.
I thought i'd..type out almost all the lyrics - just for u :)
Hehe...not much is happening. I got a B for my cinema studies essay..and a C+ for my anthropology :P well..i'm just waiting for the media essay back now..and then i'm sweet.
The other week..some dude..called mike, 20 yrs-old, started talking to me on icq. But it was so obvious that, he had no idea about chat. And i know i shouldn't get fustrated by it, but i can't help but get pissed off by some ppl's lack of..skills. It's bad of me, but hey it happens. Not that i'm the greatest at the chat lingo..cos i'm not. I just know..the basics. And i know about all types of ppl since being exposed to icq random chat for..a few years.
You know how, on icq it's message based. Well, this, Mike person, would send his message, but then after he sent it, send two more messages with annoying smiley faces on them. I dunno about u, but this at first i thought he was being friendly. After the first slow hour of chatting to him all these smiley faces got annoying. Really annoying. it was like, message..second message, third message :) Now i dunno about u..but that was over kill for me. And on Icq..the lil icon for the smiley face...is fucking annoying. It's the kind of face..that..you just wanna punch a few times to break it's smile..cos it's got that pissy lil pixle smile.
So getting to the point - he starts talking to me again. And i'm thinking...do i know this guy - then i recongise the smiley faces..and i think - oh god..this guy again *rolls eyes* So he starts talking.he's "confused and sad" and i use my sarcasm on him - which he didn't get..my "poor baby" line. hehe. So he tells me, that he thinks his gf is cheating on him. I'm thinking to myself..it wouldn't surpise me..u suck! But i'm still..trying to be helpful in a none helpful way. In other words - i wasn't feeling very sympathetic. so i was like..how do u know she's cheating on u...why do u think she is cheating on u...he didn't get the last question. Good thing too..cos i was planning on insulting him with that one. He then says, "should i get another girl friend?" to which i replied - "f it will stop u from whinning to me about it...yes."
He got pissed. and said - "WELL FUCK YOU MAT" *mat? is that mate? stoopid male speeling* "DON'T COME BACK TO MY LIST AGAIN" and i think he blocked me or deleted me cos he quickly disappeared off my icq. He is now on my invisible list..which he will probably stay there for..awhile. until icq stops fucking up when i delete contacts anyway.
Yes, well..i'm a harsh bitch. But fuck - i'm tired and i've only spoken to him once. He was just looking for someone to chat to..to pour his lil bleeding heart out on someone..and he picked me...and unfortunately i've been a sarcastic bitch to him since we chatted over the net all those weeks ago.
Playlist
Britney - Boys & Overprotected darkchild remix
FAO - The next time
Sash - Oxygen
Hanson - 2002 album clips - OOHHH JOY....think ben folds five - and ur somewhat close to hanson's new sound.
Say hello to the girl that I am
your gonna ahve to see through my perspective
i need to make mistakes to learn who i am
and i don't wanna be so damned protected
There must be another way
cos i believe in taking chances
but who am i to say
what a girl is to do gotta need some answers
What am i to do with my life? you will find it out don't worri
How am i supposed to know what's right? you just gotta do it ur way
I can;t help the way i feel
all my life has been so over protected
I tell them what i like, what i want, what i love
But everytime i do i stand corrected
Things that i've been told i can't believe
what i heard about the world i realise i'm over protected
There must be another way
cos i believe in taking chances
but who am i to say what a girl is to do
gotta need some answers
What am i to do with my life? you will find it out don't worry
How am i supposed to know what's right? you just gotta do it ur way
I can't help the way i feel
all my life has been so over protected...
----Britney "over protected" - darkchild mix is cool.
I thought i'd..type out almost all the lyrics - just for u :)
Hehe...not much is happening. I got a B for my cinema studies essay..and a C+ for my anthropology :P well..i'm just waiting for the media essay back now..and then i'm sweet.
The other week..some dude..called mike, 20 yrs-old, started talking to me on icq. But it was so obvious that, he had no idea about chat. And i know i shouldn't get fustrated by it, but i can't help but get pissed off by some ppl's lack of..skills. It's bad of me, but hey it happens. Not that i'm the greatest at the chat lingo..cos i'm not. I just know..the basics. And i know about all types of ppl since being exposed to icq random chat for..a few years.
You know how, on icq it's message based. Well, this, Mike person, would send his message, but then after he sent it, send two more messages with annoying smiley faces on them. I dunno about u, but this at first i thought he was being friendly. After the first slow hour of chatting to him all these smiley faces got annoying. Really annoying. it was like, message..second message, third message :) Now i dunno about u..but that was over kill for me. And on Icq..the lil icon for the smiley face...is fucking annoying. It's the kind of face..that..you just wanna punch a few times to break it's smile..cos it's got that pissy lil pixle smile.
So getting to the point - he starts talking to me again. And i'm thinking...do i know this guy - then i recongise the smiley faces..and i think - oh god..this guy again *rolls eyes* So he starts talking.he's "confused and sad" and i use my sarcasm on him - which he didn't get..my "poor baby" line. hehe. So he tells me, that he thinks his gf is cheating on him. I'm thinking to myself..it wouldn't surpise me..u suck! But i'm still..trying to be helpful in a none helpful way. In other words - i wasn't feeling very sympathetic. so i was like..how do u know she's cheating on u...why do u think she is cheating on u...he didn't get the last question. Good thing too..cos i was planning on insulting him with that one. He then says, "should i get another girl friend?" to which i replied - "f it will stop u from whinning to me about it...yes."
He got pissed. and said - "WELL FUCK YOU MAT" *mat? is that mate? stoopid male speeling* "DON'T COME BACK TO MY LIST AGAIN" and i think he blocked me or deleted me cos he quickly disappeared off my icq. He is now on my invisible list..which he will probably stay there for..awhile. until icq stops fucking up when i delete contacts anyway.
Yes, well..i'm a harsh bitch. But fuck - i'm tired and i've only spoken to him once. He was just looking for someone to chat to..to pour his lil bleeding heart out on someone..and he picked me...and unfortunately i've been a sarcastic bitch to him since we chatted over the net all those weeks ago.
Playlist
Britney - Boys & Overprotected darkchild remix
FAO - The next time
Sash - Oxygen
Hanson - 2002 album clips - OOHHH JOY....think ben folds five - and ur somewhat close to hanson's new sound.
Saturday, April 27, 2002
For once..im not confused. Everything is simple once more. I am no longer confused with the troubles of young love,crushes,obessions, infatuation and lust. I know what i want. BUT what do you do, when you think you've stuffed it up with the one guy that ever liked u, and actually did something about it. And i mean - did sumthing other than telling you..that he liked you.
Before, I almost though I knew what I wanted. But I'm seeing things differently now.
You know that feeling, where..you think you know what you want - but your feelings are clouded by something else. Well I was like that, and now I feel like I should break into a chorus of that "I can see clearly now the rain has gone..i can see all obstacles in my way" yea..well...for me it wasn't raining. More like a fog or as i might like to call it "The fog of deception."
"Your a sexy guy, and I'm a nice girl...Lets turn this dance floor into our own nasty world" - Boys
OK..so put into even more simple terms. I want him.
I know..last blog I was saying I liked two guys. Well, if you don't know already from a number of alternative sources, My goal was to ask a guy out. I had given rach permission to kick me if i hadn't by the end of the night. LOL..she did kick me..really hard in the foot i might add..but at that stage - everything seemed resolved. He was right - going out probably wouldn't work. Anyway...he's a cool friend, and good to chat wit. So in the end..the night wasn't a failure after all..even though lisa and rach were all very..sympathetic for me...But to me, it wasn't a big deal. It was just a crush. But that whole night...i couldn't stop thinking about...the other guy. The one..that I want. I guess itz my own fault. I mean...i'm still new to this. But i can take a hint when a guy that I only talk to over the net, cancells on me - then fights with me - then an hour later apologises - then i say "Friends is best" - I mean...maybe I was just being played around. But i can't deny my basic instinctive feelings, but then again..i can;t deny my..other feelings. Ok..that sentence was so screwed up the ass it wasn't even..making sense. I bet i know what ur all thinking... "EVELYN..START MAKING SENSE!!!"
"I need time, love, joy...I need space, love...I need me."
*muah* - visit me www.geocities.com/evesygal
Before, I almost though I knew what I wanted. But I'm seeing things differently now.
You know that feeling, where..you think you know what you want - but your feelings are clouded by something else. Well I was like that, and now I feel like I should break into a chorus of that "I can see clearly now the rain has gone..i can see all obstacles in my way" yea..well...for me it wasn't raining. More like a fog or as i might like to call it "The fog of deception."
"Your a sexy guy, and I'm a nice girl...Lets turn this dance floor into our own nasty world" - Boys
OK..so put into even more simple terms. I want him.
I know..last blog I was saying I liked two guys. Well, if you don't know already from a number of alternative sources, My goal was to ask a guy out. I had given rach permission to kick me if i hadn't by the end of the night. LOL..she did kick me..really hard in the foot i might add..but at that stage - everything seemed resolved. He was right - going out probably wouldn't work. Anyway...he's a cool friend, and good to chat wit. So in the end..the night wasn't a failure after all..even though lisa and rach were all very..sympathetic for me...But to me, it wasn't a big deal. It was just a crush. But that whole night...i couldn't stop thinking about...the other guy. The one..that I want. I guess itz my own fault. I mean...i'm still new to this. But i can take a hint when a guy that I only talk to over the net, cancells on me - then fights with me - then an hour later apologises - then i say "Friends is best" - I mean...maybe I was just being played around. But i can't deny my basic instinctive feelings, but then again..i can;t deny my..other feelings. Ok..that sentence was so screwed up the ass it wasn't even..making sense. I bet i know what ur all thinking... "EVELYN..START MAKING SENSE!!!"
"I need time, love, joy...I need space, love...I need me."
*muah* - visit me www.geocities.com/evesygal
Wednesday, April 24, 2002
I learnt the truth at seventeen
that love was meant for beauty queens
OK..how is it possible. That..I ..Evelyn C. Hamlett is going through a difficult and emotional time. That's just not possible for the seemingly happy young girl who just turned 18.
Nooo..i have to make things extremly difficult. By - and ur gonna love this - I LIKE TWO GUYS! ok...i'm a horrible slut who's never slept around with anyone...Ok..so i flirt with one of them..alot. And..shit..he drives me insane. He's like...sleazy but in a good way! and i kno guys wit a one track mind u kinda have to be careful with. Maybe he's just playing with me, but i can't say i don't like it.
The other guy - is nice and a dude. Ya know..i would say..i'm more attratcted to his personality more. And plus..i like his slippers.
The most depressing thing I can do, i read my horoscopes for the day online. And since i want the most accurate horoscopes, i'll check out three different sites for the most reliable one. MSN site is a personal fave of mine because of the mood thing. But today, it just didn't cut it for me. My horoscope was ruined by the fact that it told me, i would go all..lovey dovey over a guy. Well..it hasn't happened. And i'm still single..so that says sumthing about the msn horoscopes. The other two sites, were kinda..critical of me today. Nothing good was to come out of today, so I was told by two different websites.
I need to go out. And see some friends. I'm feeling sad. I need a hug. Cos i want to see my close friends, and forget about the troubles of uni and pressures of normal home life.
I'm gonna go join the uni radio station. That's it. I'll do it...next week. And i'll get my I.D - cos i need some Alc...
Playlist
Michelle Branch Goodbye to You - *as seen on buffy last monday!*
Jimmy Eat World - Crimson and Clover
The Donna's - Rock and Roll machine & checkin it out
Usher - U turn & You don't have to call
Incubus MTV unplugged - Clean
Jamiroquai - Where do we go from here
Ashanti - Foolish
Counting Crows - Catapult
P.diddy feat. Usher - I need a girl
Goo Goo dolls - Here is gone
Alicia Keys - how come you don't call me?
No doubt - Hella good *****recommend*****
Silverchair - Luv your life
that love was meant for beauty queens
OK..how is it possible. That..I ..Evelyn C. Hamlett is going through a difficult and emotional time. That's just not possible for the seemingly happy young girl who just turned 18.
Nooo..i have to make things extremly difficult. By - and ur gonna love this - I LIKE TWO GUYS! ok...i'm a horrible slut who's never slept around with anyone...Ok..so i flirt with one of them..alot. And..shit..he drives me insane. He's like...sleazy but in a good way! and i kno guys wit a one track mind u kinda have to be careful with. Maybe he's just playing with me, but i can't say i don't like it.
The other guy - is nice and a dude. Ya know..i would say..i'm more attratcted to his personality more. And plus..i like his slippers.
The most depressing thing I can do, i read my horoscopes for the day online. And since i want the most accurate horoscopes, i'll check out three different sites for the most reliable one. MSN site is a personal fave of mine because of the mood thing. But today, it just didn't cut it for me. My horoscope was ruined by the fact that it told me, i would go all..lovey dovey over a guy. Well..it hasn't happened. And i'm still single..so that says sumthing about the msn horoscopes. The other two sites, were kinda..critical of me today. Nothing good was to come out of today, so I was told by two different websites.
I need to go out. And see some friends. I'm feeling sad. I need a hug. Cos i want to see my close friends, and forget about the troubles of uni and pressures of normal home life.
I'm gonna go join the uni radio station. That's it. I'll do it...next week. And i'll get my I.D - cos i need some Alc...
Playlist
Michelle Branch Goodbye to You - *as seen on buffy last monday!*
Jimmy Eat World - Crimson and Clover
The Donna's - Rock and Roll machine & checkin it out
Usher - U turn & You don't have to call
Incubus MTV unplugged - Clean
Jamiroquai - Where do we go from here
Ashanti - Foolish
Counting Crows - Catapult
P.diddy feat. Usher - I need a girl
Goo Goo dolls - Here is gone
Alicia Keys - how come you don't call me?
No doubt - Hella good *****recommend*****
Silverchair - Luv your life
Friday, April 19, 2002
WHEN THE PAWN hits the conflicts he thinks like a King
What he knows throws the blows when he goes to the fight
And he'll win the whole thing 'fore he enters the ring
There's no body to batter when your mind is your might
So when you go solo, you hold your own hand
And remember that depth is the greatest of heights
And if you know where you stand, then you know where to land
And if you fall it won't matter, cuz you'll know that you're right
- Fiona Apple
OOH LOOKIE HERE!!! Lil' Ev ain't so Lil any more...yes..i turned 18 on monday..The 15th of April. Yay for me. I'm legal now ;)
Ok..ya know how I was dissing beauty magazines. Well..everything I said..now..is contradicts and makes me seem like a fricken hypocrit. I have nails. Long...square..white fake acrilic nails. And they are a bitch.
Now i didn't ask for these nails. Last saturday my mom said she had a surpise for me. So i got up early, went to pick up my b'day cake (*SHAMLESS PROMOTION - ARNOLD'S CAKES HEIDELBERG - BEST CAKES IN TOWN..TRUST ME*) then mom was driving..and soon i found my self a her fricken nail salon place. which incidently is in heidelberg also. So I was all WTF is going on here? And two hours later..i come out of the shop with nails. Ok..so..they look cool. But long nails are an absoulte pain in the fricken ass! My fingers hurt cos i keep bashing the fake nail on stuff...and i got pen marks all over them...and pen ink doesn't come off these nails easily...ahh well. I'm stuck wit em for a few months now.
HoTmaiL Is A BiTcH!
and plz..no more mail to my kittymail addy ppl - i never use it..its for all the crap mail - similar to what i get in hotmail..lol.
*muah*
What he knows throws the blows when he goes to the fight
And he'll win the whole thing 'fore he enters the ring
There's no body to batter when your mind is your might
So when you go solo, you hold your own hand
And remember that depth is the greatest of heights
And if you know where you stand, then you know where to land
And if you fall it won't matter, cuz you'll know that you're right
- Fiona Apple
OOH LOOKIE HERE!!! Lil' Ev ain't so Lil any more...yes..i turned 18 on monday..The 15th of April. Yay for me. I'm legal now ;)
Ok..ya know how I was dissing beauty magazines. Well..everything I said..now..is contradicts and makes me seem like a fricken hypocrit. I have nails. Long...square..white fake acrilic nails. And they are a bitch.
Now i didn't ask for these nails. Last saturday my mom said she had a surpise for me. So i got up early, went to pick up my b'day cake (*SHAMLESS PROMOTION - ARNOLD'S CAKES HEIDELBERG - BEST CAKES IN TOWN..TRUST ME*) then mom was driving..and soon i found my self a her fricken nail salon place. which incidently is in heidelberg also. So I was all WTF is going on here? And two hours later..i come out of the shop with nails. Ok..so..they look cool. But long nails are an absoulte pain in the fricken ass! My fingers hurt cos i keep bashing the fake nail on stuff...and i got pen marks all over them...and pen ink doesn't come off these nails easily...ahh well. I'm stuck wit em for a few months now.
HoTmaiL Is A BiTcH!
and plz..no more mail to my kittymail addy ppl - i never use it..its for all the crap mail - similar to what i get in hotmail..lol.
*muah*
Thursday, April 11, 2002
Playlist
The cars - Let the good times roll
Imperial Teen - Yoo hoo
Letters to cleo - I see
Transistor - Flow
Jack Drag - We are we
**These songs are from the Jaw Breaker soundtrack**
Well..Media and Cinema studies are a bitch. Two essays due on my birthday. I am very busy. I have..now..less than four days to whip them up and hand them in! But tomorrow..i shall conquer this media bitch essay and start on cinema studies on saturday.
Well tomorrow i'm having my birthday at TGI friday's - just a gathering type dinner and drinks thing. hehe..But for tomorrow only i'll be 18 - cos i wanna be able to drink at TGI's..so..itz cocktails and flings for me!
I have decided that teen magazines are the scum of the earth. I now believe that magazines have probably caused alot of teen eating disorders which could have been prevented if these magazines didn't publish such stoopid articles about weight loss and the ideal body image. But magazines sometimes don't even have to publish these articles - its the magazine as a whole that contributes to the bad influence. The pictures of young 14 year old models that look like 20 somethings are enough to make you want to be sick.
And the wonder why now bulimia and anorexia is becoming more and more acceptable with teens. Just look anorexia up on the internet and all these websites and communities about being thin as a lifestyle which follow the commandments "Thou shall not eat."
Society is letting this happen - it is letting these images of young women be advertised. Dolly magazine and girlfriend or the American Seventeen - who's main audience is 14-15 year old girls - They are promoting this type of life style which is only attainable through constant exercise/dieting and thru the purchasing of commodities (eg, fashion and cosmetics) and that somehow this will make them a better person "inside and out." Isn't it the same beauty magazines that tell their readers - to love and accept their bodies - to love who they are, but instead they give advice on how to change your looks so you can pick up, and how to "make you self popular." Popularity and trends are superficial. Of course the world is very superficial these days - You only have to watch an episode of Absoutley Fabulous to realise how superficial the trend and the people are.
"I didn't eat today, and I didn't eat yesterday, and I'm not gonna eat tomorrow - cos I wanna be a supermodel"
- "Supermodel" Jill Sobule
Girls read these magazines for advice, and because their curious about certain subjects. Of course - if everyone in the world thought that they were ok - and that they were beautiful in their own precious way, there wouldn't be a need for these types of magazines and advertising. Advertising is a form of education - it teaches us to be consumers, cos otherwise - how else will they sell these products to mindless and influential "potential" consumers? One advertising big shot once said "Take a 7 year old and introduce him to adverstising - and you've got him for life." If you want to know about modern and contemporary lifestyle/society - all you have to do is look to advertising.
Advertsing plays on our desires and emotions - it tells us "You're not Ok..cos your not using our products."
It will never say "Your ok - your fine just the way you are" because to do that - would mean you wouldn't need their products and you wouldn't help them make a profit off you. So they play on your insecurities, they make you feel ugly and tell you that your fat and not perfect - and not cool. They try to make your life easier by saying "Our product/service will make u lose weight" "We can change your lifestyle" and "You can be a better person(eg. Mother, friend, daughter) if you own one of our products."
You can't escape this advertising. It's a big business. Millions is spent each year on marketing products, and only 50% of advertising actually works - the problem is - which 50%? So it's a superficial world - and we just live, eat, breath and think consumerism.
I shall leave you now with some interesting quotes...
"I want to be the girl with the most cake
I love him so much it just turns to hate
I fake it so real I am beyond fake
Some day you will ache like I ache"
- Courtney Love
"Everybodu knows I wear Gucci and Chanel and I feel a more valuable person if I have them." - Atsuko, Japanese schoolgirl prostitute
"For when I ask him if this necklace is alright he replied, 'Yes, if no means looking at three others.' - Wendy Cope, 'My Lover'
"Sometimes when you can't feel anything, you'd rather feel pain than nothing." - Lydia Lunch
The cars - Let the good times roll
Imperial Teen - Yoo hoo
Letters to cleo - I see
Transistor - Flow
Jack Drag - We are we
**These songs are from the Jaw Breaker soundtrack**
Well..Media and Cinema studies are a bitch. Two essays due on my birthday. I am very busy. I have..now..less than four days to whip them up and hand them in! But tomorrow..i shall conquer this media bitch essay and start on cinema studies on saturday.
Well tomorrow i'm having my birthday at TGI friday's - just a gathering type dinner and drinks thing. hehe..But for tomorrow only i'll be 18 - cos i wanna be able to drink at TGI's..so..itz cocktails and flings for me!
I have decided that teen magazines are the scum of the earth. I now believe that magazines have probably caused alot of teen eating disorders which could have been prevented if these magazines didn't publish such stoopid articles about weight loss and the ideal body image. But magazines sometimes don't even have to publish these articles - its the magazine as a whole that contributes to the bad influence. The pictures of young 14 year old models that look like 20 somethings are enough to make you want to be sick.
And the wonder why now bulimia and anorexia is becoming more and more acceptable with teens. Just look anorexia up on the internet and all these websites and communities about being thin as a lifestyle which follow the commandments "Thou shall not eat."
Society is letting this happen - it is letting these images of young women be advertised. Dolly magazine and girlfriend or the American Seventeen - who's main audience is 14-15 year old girls - They are promoting this type of life style which is only attainable through constant exercise/dieting and thru the purchasing of commodities (eg, fashion and cosmetics) and that somehow this will make them a better person "inside and out." Isn't it the same beauty magazines that tell their readers - to love and accept their bodies - to love who they are, but instead they give advice on how to change your looks so you can pick up, and how to "make you self popular." Popularity and trends are superficial. Of course the world is very superficial these days - You only have to watch an episode of Absoutley Fabulous to realise how superficial the trend and the people are.
"I didn't eat today, and I didn't eat yesterday, and I'm not gonna eat tomorrow - cos I wanna be a supermodel"
- "Supermodel" Jill Sobule
Girls read these magazines for advice, and because their curious about certain subjects. Of course - if everyone in the world thought that they were ok - and that they were beautiful in their own precious way, there wouldn't be a need for these types of magazines and advertising. Advertising is a form of education - it teaches us to be consumers, cos otherwise - how else will they sell these products to mindless and influential "potential" consumers? One advertising big shot once said "Take a 7 year old and introduce him to adverstising - and you've got him for life." If you want to know about modern and contemporary lifestyle/society - all you have to do is look to advertising.
Advertsing plays on our desires and emotions - it tells us "You're not Ok..cos your not using our products."
It will never say "Your ok - your fine just the way you are" because to do that - would mean you wouldn't need their products and you wouldn't help them make a profit off you. So they play on your insecurities, they make you feel ugly and tell you that your fat and not perfect - and not cool. They try to make your life easier by saying "Our product/service will make u lose weight" "We can change your lifestyle" and "You can be a better person(eg. Mother, friend, daughter) if you own one of our products."
You can't escape this advertising. It's a big business. Millions is spent each year on marketing products, and only 50% of advertising actually works - the problem is - which 50%? So it's a superficial world - and we just live, eat, breath and think consumerism.
I shall leave you now with some interesting quotes...
"I want to be the girl with the most cake
I love him so much it just turns to hate
I fake it so real I am beyond fake
Some day you will ache like I ache"
- Courtney Love
"Everybodu knows I wear Gucci and Chanel and I feel a more valuable person if I have them." - Atsuko, Japanese schoolgirl prostitute
"For when I ask him if this necklace is alright he replied, 'Yes, if no means looking at three others.' - Wendy Cope, 'My Lover'
"Sometimes when you can't feel anything, you'd rather feel pain than nothing." - Lydia Lunch
Sunday, April 07, 2002
Playlist
S.O.A.P - Miracle *the whole album...too many songs to write up here*
Watch The princess diaries, the princess bride, crouching tiger/hidden dragon. THE MUMMY*oooh..spoookky*
Read: Cinema studies - 80 pages...grrr....
I just wrote my whole anthropology assignment. It was long and difficult. 1000 words of bull shit that's supposed to be an essay is very hard to fill. And now i'm dead tired. So i'll probably go to sleep early tonite because I have uni tomorrow.
We're watching Dity Harry in cinema..hehe :)
But my uni work doesn't stop there. Tuesday i have to hand in my linguistics sheet..so i'll do that monday night. It's pretty easy.
Then on the 15th *MY BIRTHDAY* I have two essays due, which i need to complete by the weekend. Cos my mother came home this afternoon and started yelling at me for having people over yesterday and not doing my essay then. I finished the essay! The cinema studies one should be easy - but all damn essays have refrence systems and stoopid bibliographies. Ya know...i haven't written a bibliography since...........ya know my essays at mlc never had bibliographies..or refrences. how long is that word..Bibliography...I'm probably not even spelling it right..lol..
I hate work. I do. only school work of course. I hate essay writing...itz such bull shit.
Anyway - Friday night was Andrew's party. And it was carlos's birthday! yay! So we all went to La Porchetta *how ever ya damn speel it* Yes...Lisa got impatient with the old waitress person. mmhehe.
But Andrew's party was good - maybe i mixed a really digusting drink and got horribly tipsy within my first 20 minutes of arriving. And yes I did dance my lil feet off - but the alchol got the better of me. Now i know what they mean by it not being a stimulant. I'm gonna stick to caffine. No more vodka - unles itz in a ruski or cruiser :)
But the party got me thinking. I'm seeing all my friends around me - and their all with someone. It got me thinking about Chris. Now if u don't know who he is by now...i'll fill u in. I met him at Matt T's party.
I don't know if i've made any mistakes - i don't feel like i have. I mean - i like being friends with people. Friends always come first. Guys second. that's how i've always thought of it. But it just gets so annoying when ur the odd one out.
I mean...I'm not really looking for any one. I just wish i could feel like I had someone. Someone who understands me...someone who actually likes me - and does something about it! No more dancing round the issue and no more crushes. I'm sick of crushes! They cause more harm than good to a person! trust me..i know. My whole Taylor hanson crush back in 97-99 was just not healthy. nahuh.
I guess maybe i'm just fustrated. I'll be 18 soon and i've never had anything - interesting. I have had a boring life so far. I had a shit childhood...and a few crappy teenage years. SO adult hood...well...turning 18 is nothing interesting. I'll just be one year older. BUt i'll be able to drive and buy alchol *and not get kicked out of safeway liquor store for not having ID* I'll be able to get into pubs and over age gigs. All this shit i couldn't do b4. But this means nothing to me. It's not important. Well it is - because when i'm 18 i'll have more freedom. But honestly, i lack knowlege and experince in so many things still.
Maybe all this - is just me trying to make sense of how I feel. I feel inadequet. not good enough. But that;s just one part of me...one part of how i feel. Yes i'm confused. and maybe i just confused myself more.
"What is a place doing in a girl like this!"
whateva..i'll post more later. *muah*
S.O.A.P - Miracle *the whole album...too many songs to write up here*
Watch The princess diaries, the princess bride, crouching tiger/hidden dragon. THE MUMMY*oooh..spoookky*
Read: Cinema studies - 80 pages...grrr....
I just wrote my whole anthropology assignment. It was long and difficult. 1000 words of bull shit that's supposed to be an essay is very hard to fill. And now i'm dead tired. So i'll probably go to sleep early tonite because I have uni tomorrow.
We're watching Dity Harry in cinema..hehe :)
But my uni work doesn't stop there. Tuesday i have to hand in my linguistics sheet..so i'll do that monday night. It's pretty easy.
Then on the 15th *MY BIRTHDAY* I have two essays due, which i need to complete by the weekend. Cos my mother came home this afternoon and started yelling at me for having people over yesterday and not doing my essay then. I finished the essay! The cinema studies one should be easy - but all damn essays have refrence systems and stoopid bibliographies. Ya know...i haven't written a bibliography since...........ya know my essays at mlc never had bibliographies..or refrences. how long is that word..Bibliography...I'm probably not even spelling it right..lol..
I hate work. I do. only school work of course. I hate essay writing...itz such bull shit.
Anyway - Friday night was Andrew's party. And it was carlos's birthday! yay! So we all went to La Porchetta *how ever ya damn speel it* Yes...Lisa got impatient with the old waitress person. mmhehe.
But Andrew's party was good - maybe i mixed a really digusting drink and got horribly tipsy within my first 20 minutes of arriving. And yes I did dance my lil feet off - but the alchol got the better of me. Now i know what they mean by it not being a stimulant. I'm gonna stick to caffine. No more vodka - unles itz in a ruski or cruiser :)
But the party got me thinking. I'm seeing all my friends around me - and their all with someone. It got me thinking about Chris. Now if u don't know who he is by now...i'll fill u in. I met him at Matt T's party.
I don't know if i've made any mistakes - i don't feel like i have. I mean - i like being friends with people. Friends always come first. Guys second. that's how i've always thought of it. But it just gets so annoying when ur the odd one out.
I mean...I'm not really looking for any one. I just wish i could feel like I had someone. Someone who understands me...someone who actually likes me - and does something about it! No more dancing round the issue and no more crushes. I'm sick of crushes! They cause more harm than good to a person! trust me..i know. My whole Taylor hanson crush back in 97-99 was just not healthy. nahuh.
I guess maybe i'm just fustrated. I'll be 18 soon and i've never had anything - interesting. I have had a boring life so far. I had a shit childhood...and a few crappy teenage years. SO adult hood...well...turning 18 is nothing interesting. I'll just be one year older. BUt i'll be able to drive and buy alchol *and not get kicked out of safeway liquor store for not having ID* I'll be able to get into pubs and over age gigs. All this shit i couldn't do b4. But this means nothing to me. It's not important. Well it is - because when i'm 18 i'll have more freedom. But honestly, i lack knowlege and experince in so many things still.
Maybe all this - is just me trying to make sense of how I feel. I feel inadequet. not good enough. But that;s just one part of me...one part of how i feel. Yes i'm confused. and maybe i just confused myself more.
"What is a place doing in a girl like this!"
whateva..i'll post more later. *muah*