i'm about to sneez. ok. maybe not. its gone now. the sneez has gone.
I have eaten sooo much today, here is a list of exactly what I have snacked on during today:
1 muffin
1 bowl of soup
4 pieces of toast for the soup
1 hershy's cookies and cream chocolate bar
1/3 of a box of large hot chips with chicken salt
1 bowl of stirfry & noodles.
1 tiny chocolate
And i have drunk lots of water and had half a glass of orange juice(only because there wasn't enough for a full glass).
Some dickwad left like the smallest amount of orange juice in the fridge. I mean, what the fuck is the point of doing that? So others can have some? is that sharing? i think fucking not since there's hardly any left to share so you mite as well drink the whole bloody lot! honestly, some people really piss me off. i bet my sister did that, she does that with lemonade too - i go to the fridge to have some and find there is only enough drink left to slightly cover the bottom of the glass.
Anyway today i went for a walk to my local vid store - and i picked up a few dvds and vids: The rules of attraction, just married, casablanca and jackie brown - i couldn't see bambi.
Just married was amusing, but it was fairly predictable. The rules of attraction was very very good in my opinion. I mean if u don't like the film and script or whatever you gotta love the cinema photograhpy and that cool split scene trick. But i really enjoyed the film because it wasn't your stupid usual teen college type film - it wasn't as predictable, but i liked it alot. I have yet to view the other two films, and when i do i'll make my appropriate/or inappropriate comments then.
OH i got the michelle branch cd and the christina Ag cd...so i'm fairly content now.
I visited my friend Tristan on monday - i skipped my one hour lecture to visit him and play Halo - which was pretty cool. I admit now i wish i had an xbox so i could play that game - that and the buffy game would be sweet.

Our vcr has stoofed up. For some reason it dislikes video head cleaners, likes some tapes and hates my tape which has perfect blue taped on it from last saturday nite - which i wasn't allowed to watch cos my stupid sister wanted to watch romeo must die -but she fell asleep half way thru the film, and i fell asleep during the last ten minutes of it. Well saturday nites are never that good for me...i can stay awake late on a week night, but weekends just don't agree with me and the staying up. I do enjoy watching rage though on a friday or saturday nite - thats were i saw that sickly infectious song "star treking" i mean i hate star trek cos i think its stupid - but that damn song just gets me singing along.


Listen:
Michelle Branch - Tuesday Morning
Goldfrapp - strict machine & twist (did u all seem them on rove? hehe)
Hanson - down
mary j. blige - love at first sight
dashboard confessional - knock em dead
faye wong - eyes on me

MICHELLE BRANCH IS AMAZING! she totally rocked my socks off last night...and rocked my hearing - so after the gig i was temporaryily deaf. and my voice got lost amongst the whole crowd yesterday too. It was a very very very good performance...but the only thing i'm really bummed about from last nite is that i spent my only 20 bucks on expensiveism drinks when i could have purchased myself a copy of the album. After the gig michelle was signing stuff, me and lis hung around only for a bit and then left. I didn't realise how tired i was last night till i finally sat down..and standing for like two hours-or more in the same spot kinda hurt my knee alot. BUT it was worth it. all of it was worth it. totally. if i could i would fly to sydney and see michelle again - she was that good! and she played alot of songs from the new album...and couple of ppl in the crowd yelled out for songs like "sweet misery" and "paper pieces" but her little acoustic set of songs was very good - she played 'game of love' and my personal acoustic favourite 'desperately'. lol..it was very good.

anyway. i need to get some lecture notes before i go to uni today. buh bye.

Here I am, take me
It’s easier to give in
Some people mistake me
They only hear what they want to hear
If you’re losing sleep
Forgive me
I just can’t keep pretending
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be

There’s a prism by the window
It lets the light leak in
I wish you would let me
You feel the water but do you swim?
And it’s only me empty-handed
With a childish grin and a camera

I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be

La da da da

I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be

‘Cause I’m packing my bags
And I won’t be back

- empty handed - michelle branch

I didn't go to manifest. I wanted to. but my head decided to fuck up and give me lots and lots of head aches all day..or just one big head ache that lasted alllll day. Anyway. i have been watching plenty of tv lately. so far Im half way through series 3 of black adder - and i sooo love every episode so far. I have so many other buffy episodes to watch, a video of hornblower and one ab fab video to start this week. And its the last episode of Buffy this tuesday night!!!! i'm so excited, because i can't wait to see what happens, while it may be the end of a great cult teen series, buffy will live on forever..in the form of dvds.
Meanwhile how addictive is Australian Idol. There have only been like four episodes of the damn show and already every one is hooked! It will be exciting to see how it all turns out. But it is a very good replacement for big brother.

playlist:
bowling for soup - girl all the bad guys want (i wrote this one on the blog awhile ago, but i love it)
Christian Ag - Impossible
Boomkat - what U do 2 me
Thicke- When I get you alone
Lumidee - never leave you

It seems the world is becoming more and more fucked up.
The recent bombings in Jakarta seem more threatening now that the "smiling assasin" Amrozi, is to receive the death penalty. UK victims of the bali bombing are scared that this could make a martry out of Amrozi and more bombings could follow. Prime minister John Howard has said that Australia is at risk from terrorist groups, but other countries are at greater risk compared to us. So this is all getting a bit weird, I mean, Amrozi is being dealt with by Indonesian local law, most people are happy that he is getting the death sentence - but what about those others involved with the bali bombings? What about those people who bombed the Marriott Hotel in Jakarta? Why is one man being punished for the deeds of several? His involvement in the bali bombing seems very important, but to be honestly opinionated he seems like a bit of a smug wanka - someone else smarter must have planned and developed the attack. So why don't they locate the person who iniated the plans for the bombing? why not arrest the person who recruited people to be involved with a terrorist organisation?
The death of one man will not solve these problems. In fact it could make it alot worse, more bombings could occur in indonesia, Australia could find itself a target - even if it does seem unlikely to the rest of us - but the threat of increasing terrorist attacks or "risks" does seem to be looming over our heads.
I'm almost wishing they'd get it all over with, bomb every fucking western country and see how far that'll get them. i bet once they realise that there is no where else to bomb, that they won't quite get the desired results their looking for.

After watching bowling for Columbine on the weekend I've decided that America is one fucked up country. Fear is what leds to gun ownership, fear is what is fed to Americans night after night. IN Australia since the Monash University shooting last year - new guidelines state "semi-automatic pistols with a barrel length under 120mm, and revolvers or single-shot handguns with a barrel length less than 100mm will be banned"(ninemsn.com).
So every time Australia has a tragedy, eg. Port Arthur Massacre and the Monash shooting, the government tightens the gun laws - while in America even after Columbine guns laws are still lax. Americans feel the right to protect their families and country - yeah its nice to be patriotic but not idiotic. I like to think that we live in a civilized country - or world - one that is modern and logical. If every country was like america and had access to guns and ammo that is so freely avaliable, then the rest of the world would be just as fucked up and just as scared of everyone else. Or everyone would become tofu farmers and make home made bombs and use guns like their a right and we'd all be fucking hicks and red necks. Thankfully most people in the world - and even in america, are smart and realise that guns are a problem. But things like that have taken a back seat to terrorism - which i agree is an important issue to tackle. But now the whole world is living in fear of being a country that is at risk.

OK. EVELYN'S SHOPPING LIST:
1. Fuck me bands - THEY ARE EVERYWHERE. fluro fucking pink and orange ones.
- Portman's cost 3.95 for ten.
- Sportsgirl cost 4.95 for ten. (have heaps of colours though)
- The little cart in the middle of the shopping mall - 20 cents each (but no more black and only ugly colours)
2. Fishnet gloves!
- Sportsgirl costs 12.95 - Only in Pink though. So i mite buy two pairs...and dye on pair black. That would be cool.

and i saw heaps of other cute shit..but i can't remember what it all was.

I was out with lisa today at shoppo..wonderful shoppo. We looked around...we were in Kmart for awhile...lisa wants to plant some flower bulbs, and i learned that kmart has this cool barcode zapper thing which tells u the price of things.
FUCK its cold in here. I'm in my room today, and its freezinggg. I'm sooo hyper today, i need to keep moving around and stuff.
I need to get off this. ahhh. soo cold. byes

for every action there is a reaction. Cause and affect. Life is like one endless narrative. Causality I believe its called, when you get into the chain of events and the linking causes. Its like a system almost, well thats how it makes sense to me. Its like whatever bad you do to a person comes back three fold. Like that time at Marshmead when I cursed Nikki three ticks. instead i got three evil ticks and she got none. And I'm talking about the insect, ticks are those horrible little things with legs that bury their heads under your skin, I still have marks from where I had them removed.
Anyway, i'm alittle sad today. i was last night, But i'll be ok. But i'm not that worried about myself, because I know i'll deal, i'm like that. I move on pretty quickly, except that crush on taylor hanson that started in year 7 didn't end till way into 2000.
I'm listening to B2K "Girlfriend" thats an odd choice of song for me to be listening to right now. Earlier I was listening to Michelle Branch, I think thats alot more appropriate for my mood. But slap me if i start listening to fiona apple. I was listening to Nelly Furtado, Vanessa Carlton, Lene Marlin, and Pj Harvey yesterday.
lol. Last night I fell asleep on the couch while watching the news, and I woke up in the middle of a Blossom repeat, lol. I fell asleep reading and writing too - i was watching the news at the same time you see. I remember that news report about the musician in queensland who had his fingers hacked off. That was pretty brutal, the poor guy may never be able to play the saxaphone again. I remember I once read a Hanson fanfiction about Taylor, and he had his vocal chords surgically removed by some angry ppl. That was a really interesting read - but I was thinking last night, i would die not being able to sing or speak. But then I thought there are worse things, like not being able to hear - if I couldn't hear music I think it would be alot worse.

Playlist:
Boa: Amazing Kiss
Dashboard Confessional: So beautiful
Mis-Teeq - Can't get it back
Rikki - Suteki da ne (final fantasy x theme song - orchestral version)
Goldfrapp - Black Cherry
New found glory - head on collision

Yo. I'm at uni again. its almost 9am. I have nothing to write because I've already written it all somewhere else. but its all in my head, i just don't want to write it all here for you all to see. But I was struggling inside before with a decision that needed to be made. And I'll be the brave one and make it happen. I've never been good with starting things and ending them. Like an essay, its so hard to make the first 250 words come out, and then they just start flowing as your mind starting spurting all these words and sentences and meanings. Most of it makes sense, but not all of it. And if your not clear on your intention then it just doesn't work. Then comes the conclusion, and you re-write your beginning. And if you were clear and concise it'll work and be a good essay, but if its scrambled, sensless and all over the place, then your not going to get a good result. I want to clear and full of direction and purpose. And research makes a good essay, but you can't research some things. Like life. There is no guide to life, on how to be successful in your career and love life. There are self help books, but there are never any real true answers for you, because you need to experience them all yourself. ahh..even my words confuse.
anyway I am 41% pick-upable according to the spark test. Thats not too bad. lol.

I'll tell you all the decision I made by next week.

hello all. Back at uni again. not much is happening, just waiting for my first class of the day to begin. I have a 25 minute wait so I thought I would waste it in here in the lib.
This morning I came to uni had a coffee - therapy has good cheap coffee i've discovered - and its really really hot. I burnt my tongue lol. :P And I finall saw the lecturer and got the tutorial I wanted for Thursday's media class. yay. I love it when things go my way. and when I get exactly what I want.
So i'm just checking my e-mails now, i got invited to a 21st - woohoo. its for this really cool guy Reddy - he's hot and asian...mmm. I probably shouldn't have written that. LOL. thats the kind of stuff that'll get me in trouble. Maybe I should go to that, i could meet some new ppl...and I haven't been really social for awhile now - so maybe its time to get out more.
Michelle branch is touring here on the 13th of August - and I have to go to it. Considering my parents money is my money my dad is usually pretty happy for me to go to gigs and concerts and pay for them, but $48.20 is how much the ticket will cost - but thats a small price to pay to see one of my favorite artists. I don't think i'll be able to save the money or anything in time for the gig though...

Anyway, On tuesday, on my way back from uni I was at doncaster shopping town...so i went up to electronic boutique to ask if I was getting my final fantasy 6 game anytime soon. Since I had ordered the game in May - they finally did something about getting me the game. There are only five copies of this game in the EB stores across australia, so they got on the phone and after calling three stores they found me a copy and I should have it by next friday. FINALLY. see if i had waited and not bothered to ask about the game, i probably would still be waiting a few more months for it. I didn't want to be demanding, but i had a 20 dollar deposit on that game and I still didn't have it.

wishlist:
ticket to michell branch's show and the Hotel Paper album
FFx-2 (i'll buy the jap version if i have to)
Aaliyah poster
Sailormoon poster


Download list:
Basement Jaxx - Jus 1 kiss (you won't believe the trouble I have d/l this song)
Dashboard confessional - a mark, a mission, a scar (new album)
Bowling for soup - punk 101
Sean Paul - get busy (aiii)

Tonite's TV Viewing:
Kath and Kim
Tlc
Will and Grace
FatCow Hotel
Angel

I'm in such a good mood today. Maybe because my throat doesn't hurt. Maybe because i stole a chocolate bar from my dad (he's trying to lose weight so i'm helping out). Maybe because lisa called me today.
I just made a quiz, but i decided it was stupid so i'm not sending it out to anyone. My net is slow today, thanks to Kazaa - grr. But the download list is unbelievable. Its huge..all these mp3s we want downloaded, its gonna take months on this internet.
MEanwhile i'm finding i'm feeling alittle hungry again, that chocolate bar just didn't cut it - of course i could always steal the hershy's crunchy chocolate bars.....NO i'm must resist the naughty evil temptation.
Anyway, my uni timetable seems pretty ok at the moment except for thursdays, and because i don't want to come into uni on tuesdays on wednesdays i've decided I must get the Thursday media tutorial at 4pm - so i won't finish till 6pm on thursdays..nasty.

Tomorrow I mite be going to the city for lunch at Santes with lisa and co. which will be sooo good cos i will finally get out of the house and do something on my last day of holidays! And we mite go see Terminator 3...yay! I was watching T2 last night, the director's cut, very cool. One of the best god damn blockbuster action films ever made. Plus it was made by the mastermind behind Dark Angel, James Cameron. Fucking genius. Shame about dark angel though. but dark angel series two has been released on dvd here..so YAYness.

last nite we had singapore take away - practically like chinese food, but with bigger noodles. lol. i'm feeling like eating that right now, i was told there were some left overs. I hate left overs, i just think there's no point leaving food un eaten in yoru fridge. That and if you have too many left overs you use all ur tupperware containers and it just clutters the fridge.

On a musical note, Hanson (scroll down to the next para if you want to skip this) have finally come out into the open and performed on jay leno. And "my god look at Zac" was the first thing that came to mind when i viewed this clip from hansonhotel.com. Its not a big deal, but i thought i had to mention it - to prove that they haven't died yet and are still kicking on with their little guitars and shaker things. I just wish i could seem them on their acoustic tour and get myself a copy of their EP.

Michelle branch's album recieved only two and a half stars in the herald sun's hit lift out on thursday. I was disappointed considering how good the songs all are on her new album. But i guess i would have to agree that her sound is very pop and pleasing for radio.

Playlist:
Eve 6 - On the roof again (once you get past the crappy intro its not bad)
Howie Day - Morning After
Sean Paul - Get busy
Michelle Branch - Desperately (album version not live version i orignally had)
Eagle Eye Cherry - Falling in love again (this is worth the download)


Watch:
Dirty Dozen
T2
FFX-2 Opening sequence

I'm so bored right now. I was bored yesterday too, and the day before that and the day before that too. I was so bored yesterday that while on my searching for my missing kitting needles I found my sisters old glass bottle painting kit and i did some painting. So I now have a pretty badly decorated bottle sitting on my desk. But at least I wasn't bored for 20 minutes out of yesterday. I've also finished two books - Dune Messiah and Queen of the damned (i downloaded the pdf. file of it and read the ending of it last nite). So yesterday was almost a productive day, but I still haven't found my knitting needles.
I've tried writing, but that doesn't seem to last long. TV is boring, radio is boring, my PS2 is boring, my small collection of DVD's
bore me, playing computer games for longer than 10 minutes bores me. I could be playing the sims right now but it takes too long to get into the game so fuck it. Maybe i will go looking for those knitting needles again...

Movies to watch:
Sugar and Spice (Cheerleaders that rob banks - amusing)
Crackerjack (dvd commentary is cool)
Movies not to watch:
Sample people (Crap. Australian movies just lost all their credibility after this bad egg)
Striptease (crap)

Playlist:
GoldFrapp - Train
Basement Jaxx - Jus 1 kiss
Benny Benassi - Satisfaction
B2k - Girlfriend
The dandy warhols - You were the last high
Michelle Branch - Hotel Paper
Kelly Osbourne - Right Here
The Juliana Theory - To the tune of 5000 Screaming

I'm listening to jpop at the moment. and I'm downloading the scenes from FFX-2 of yuna singing 'real emotion'. yay.
OK. update for now, i'm sick - very sick. My flu/sinus sickness has turned worse, i now have icky tonsils. Yes thats right folks i have tonsilitis (excuse the poor spelling). And it sucks. I have like one week of holidays left and i'm stuck inside nursing a killer of a sore throat. But at least i'm on pills so hopefully it'll all clear up soon in the next few days, cos i would suck going back to uni still sick. I mean i hate uni (reminds me of high school those damn tutorials) and going to uni sick is not fun, i recall a day last year when i turned up to a tutorial and i was feverish and dying and fucking pain. That was two hours of hell i shall not forget. and i suffered silently too, when i should have asked the tutor to leave early - but oh well, i endured.
Well since my holidays have been boring as hell lately (but i reckon hell would be more interesting) i don't have much to say in my bloggie.

At the moment i am currently reading two books. Dune Messiah and Ninteen-eighty four - which so far has proved an interesting read. The television show 'Big brother' is loosely based on this book, i'm sure the book is better than the show though. Meanwhile tonite is the second last eviction of Big brother - which shall be entertaining to watch and see which contestant will be evicted. I personally think its between Patrick and Chrissy. But Patrick is the next to go honestly, but it all depends on what the audience votes for and audiences are stupid. i am an audience member but i'm not always actively particpating with the show and my opinions are different to the majority - I mean they voted Jamie out instead of Vincent! That was wrong, so very very wrong.

Playlist:
Gerling - Get Activated
The Dandy Warhols - We used to be friends
Goldfrapp - Strict Machine
Planet Funk - Who said (stuck in the U.K)
Michelle Branch - Breathe

Why is it HMV - has to put giant big black round stickers all over CD covers. Its like they see a CD case and they have to block the cover completely with a sticker. And what is up with charging $4.99 for a CD? Why don't they just say $5 and be done with it. The buyer isn't fooled into thinking that they've just save 1 cent - How can they since in Australia there is no such thing as a 1 cent or 2 cent coin anymore. But seriously, i remember the old HMV stickers, the $4.95 ones i used to pull off my single cases, they came off with hardly any mess and then they changed type of stickers - the backing was alot stickier and was a bitch to take off - *see exibit A - my Janet jackson feat. missy E single case* They ruined my CD case, and now its horrible looking at the cover of it - its so ugly with that huge sticker residue mess in the right hand corner. So after that i completely stopped trying to take the stickers off, knowing that if i tried i would have a whole lot of ugly CD cases. And this new single i purchased just today has this huge mutha of a sticker price tag on it - and i'm so not even going to attempt it. But its horrible, cos the sticker almost covers Michelle Branch's head - and HMV that is NOT COOL.
Meanwhile, the CD is fantastic. sounds beautiful in my CD player but shit in my computer.

I've been thinking alot of things over today, and i've realised what i am doing wrong. which is writing exactly how i feel in this blog. So if u read anything in the past few hours, ignore it. i was pissed off.

I've changed the template. I have to edit it and stuff now. its not as funky but i like it. Since blogger has been revamped all the old templates have disappeared!
Meanwhile, HOW GOOD IS THE FIFTH HARRY POTTER BOOK? it was very exciting. I won't go into details about it at all, cos i don't want to spoil it for those smart people who are reading the book, but itz alll good.

YOU MUST ALL GO AND BUY THESE ALBUMS:
The Juliana Theory - LOVE
Michelle Branch - Hotel Paper
Third Eye Blind - Out of the Vein

Yesterday i wrote this HUGE post. and u know what, when i clicked the post & publish button I got a friggen error instead! So all that effort...wasted!
Well tonite is THE juliana theory gig, and i am very excited. Its gonna be very very cool.
I did feel like writing b4..but i've lost that inspiration now. and my right hand has freezed up. so this is particularly difficult to type.
anyway. i'll write more tomorrow when i actually have something of interest to report ;)

I am gonna die. of stress. is that possible? i remember watching 'beauty and the beast' the tv panel show - not the disney film- and stan would be saying "There's no such thing as stress..woff woff woff" and all the beauties would be arguing that it was a medically proven condition.
Maybe this isn't exactly stress, maybe its the panic starting to set in. Maybe i should start kicking myself, cos this is all my own fault. OK. my problem exactly is this. I have two essays due on monday, thats tomorrow. they'll both be due by 4am.
Now my Radio Theory essay took a couple of long hours to write today, but its done and finished and i'm almost satisfied with it.
My researching the media essay is a different story, not that it will be harder, its 2,500 words i think i can do that. But it requires a 2nd piece of research to compare and contrast with. So i'm manically looking on the internet for policy research, or research done on eletctronic entertainment and parental monitoring and regulation. So while i'm looking for 2nd piece, which only has to be short, i've just realised i probably could have used the research monograph i had on community views and the australian broadcasting tribunal, cos that was like policy research, and..i'm fucked. there's all there is to it, because simply i have been too fucking stupid to ARGHHH. ok, so its 7:14pm now sunday night, and i have to write a friggen 2,500 word essay - which has no 2nd compartive piece, and hardly any references. My university career is over. i might as well give up, but knowing me i'lll still do the damn thing, and hopefully i won't hand it in on tuesday, cos then i'll be fucked.
I should have started this yesterday at least, and i should have done the radio essay during last week, cos i could have done it then, but i kept fucking around cos i wasn't sure wether i should have gotten an interview or not, i see now it probably would have been a good idea if i did, but i didn't so fuck it. And i'm beginning to feel tired, and i have no caffine.

ok songs to get down and boogie to:
Feel good time - Pink and William Orbit
Ben Harper - Diamons on the inside & WIth my own two hands
Marliyn Manson - this is the new shit
good charlotte - boys and girls

ok i'd better get back to it. *muah* i hope you all survive exams and ur essays.

I am impressed. Blogger has this whole funky new look. I know those of u reading can't see what i am seeing, but its funky and prettty. yeah.
Anyway, i've been so busy lately, lots of work to do and still to start and finish. This weekend i have to write my whole cinema essay. which sucks cos i really wanted to go out tonite to dinner @ georges with justin &co. but sadly, alas i am forced to sit here and stare at computers and ugly books all weekend. Monday i'm hopefully taking steve to the footy, and i mite be able to get extra tickets to the game cos i have acquired some very very very good afl membership passes ;)
Yes, well the essay i'll be working on today is due on tuesday arghh! its about the affect of miramax and indpendent cinema...blah blah..i haven't actually read the question yet, so i'm not sure..but its about corporate stuff etc. Yeah, not too hard cos i already know alot of stuff, i just have to pick two films to write it on. which mite mean i have to make a trip to the video store...woo.
anyway i'd better get offline, things to do ppl to sms and cancell plans with..grr. i hate doing that, but right now i seriously can't fail uni, and i think i'm slowly heading in that direction. I've been waaaay too slack lately, and way to distracted.
OK. byes.

Listen:
Utada Hikaru - In My Room
Third eye blind - blinded
midtown - like a movie

SONGS IN MY PLAYLIST:
Shawn Desman - Shook
Beoynce - Crazy In love
NOFX - Franco unamerican
Liam Lynch - united states of whatever
Michelle Branch - Are you happy now?
Utada Hikaru - Colours

its saturday morning. 10 am. and i am awake. i've been awake since 8.30ish. i saw the michelle branch video on rage...i saw it last nite on the net. but .life could be good. i'm doing my work, i'm starting it all, and i'll have something written down soon. but tonite is steve's b'day gathering in da city. and while i really really want to go, i know i can't beacause the amount of work i've got to do has just been piling up. and i have to do it, cos otherwise i'm fucked basically. and while i thought maybe i could get away with going out tonite..its an absoulte bitch going to the city right now. getting home isn't an option if i went out..and it costs way too much just to get home. its almost not worth it. anyway. my inner vibes and instincts..what ever u wanna call them..are telling me not to go tonite. cos i mite regret it in the morning. i think im starting to stress now. yes...panic and stress is setting in now.
anyway. i've decided that the male species suck, except for a few which i can actually stand. I think maybe i'm missing my single life. I have all these restriction..i mean i can't flirt, i've been told not to perve..but i do it anyway. I have to talk on the phone constantly..i actually have to see steve, which means organising something and i'm too lazy to even bother with things that involve organisation. i mean i like talking on the phone and stuff...i feel more like i'm just friends with steve. last nite he got shitty and threatened to dump me because i made a joke about flirting with another player in quake. lol. stupid shit to get all jealous over. seriously, but i could have my share of being jealous about all the chicks steve talks to...but i honestly don't care...i'm amused by the idea of him flirting with someone else. lol. i have my own issues, some of which i'm not prepared to share online..i will eventually. fuck it all. i can do whatever the fuck i like. this relationship isn't supposed to be serious, therefore jealousy shouldn't even be an issue. i don't care enough. whatever.
MEANWHILE. my i got my nails done yesterday. yay. lol and i got a cute little star on two of them. looks gorgeous. hehe. lol. yes i am excited about the smallest things.
If anyone knows anything about community radio in melbourne or australia. like history or about the stations syn, hitz or kiss fm please contact me evesygal@hotmail.com!!!
I would appreciate any information i can get!

i better get back to work *MUAH*

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My foot hurts alot. I hurt it yesterday while my stupid father left the house leaving the front door wide open, and then my dog who was sitting in the hallway decided to take that as her chance to make a run for it outside (and she got hit by a car last time she did that) so i ran to the door stopped the dog, shouted a few abusive words to my father who just looked like a dumb deer on the outside steps once he realised his mistake, and i slammed the door and then found myself limping back to the room and my left toes throbbing in pain. So i've been hobbling around, limping, hopping..walking strangely, whatever u wanna call it. And its painnful..and i've been really whiny about it..getting sympathy from everyone..lol. I finished my media essay at 8:30 tonite..which i'm very proud about, cos it was due last week and i won't be up all night finishing it. It wasn't that hard after all to write, i dunno why i was making such a big deal over it.

anyway. im getting sleepy. nite *MUAH*

"Try Again"

What would you do
To get to me
What would you say
To have your way
Would you give up
Or try again
If I hesitate
To let you win
Or would you be yourself
Or play your role
Tell all the boys
Or keep it low
If I say no
Would you turn away
Or play me off
Or would you stay

[Chorus]
If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off and try it again
You can dust it off and try it again

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off and try it again
You can dust it off and try it again

I'm into you,
You into me
But I cant let it go
So easily
Not 'til I see
What this could be
Be eternity
Or just a week
You know, our chemistry
Is off the chain
Is perfect now
But will it change
This aint a yes
This aint a no
Just do your thang
We'll see how it goes...ohhh

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off and try it again
You can dust it off and try it again

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off and try it again
You can dust it off and try it again

[Hook]
If you dont wanna throw it all away
Might be shy on the first date
What about the next date
huh, huh, huh, huh

If you dont wanna throw it all away
You might be buggin' on the first date
But what about the next date
um, um, um, um

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off and try it again
You can dust it off and try it again

If at first you don't succeed
Dust yourself off and try it again
You can dust it off and try it again

- Aaliyah.

When i first heard this song probably back in 2000, I was completely in awe of it.
It was like nothing I had ever heard before, it was cutting edge, dark and modern. The video clip was slick, and Aaliyah was like this leather clad- biker-gothic- vixen.
Aaliyah's smooth and gentle vocals just flowed over the top of the beats and jagged loops, and I was completely in love with the song and Aaliyah's presence on the screen held me entranced. And the song was dark, it didn't have this poppy bright destiny's child feel about it, it was almost like a ballad, but it almost wasn't because it was something else entirely. Everytime I watched that video I could hear every pop and sqeak, I could see the production I could see Aaliyah's music in my head. This song just set the bar for 2000 and for r&b and Hip-hop music. And I can remember waiting for the music to get better, I was waiting for this stuff to go completely maistream, because it was so good and so refreshing compared to other music at the time. And I remember being very fustrated with music, because it was taking too long to reach this perfection, that was 'try again'. Thank god for artists like Kelis, and N.E.R.D and Missy E and Timberland (otherwise i'd have gone insane a long time ago) - and all the best artists are producers these days too :)
Of course, 'Try again' was the first Aaliyah song I hade ever heard, and sent me on a frantic search for the rest of her music, because in my mind it had to be as good. And I wasn't at all dissapointed with it. Her music stuck a chord with me, and watching her on the screen in her videos, in 'romeo must die' just made being a fan of her's worthwhile. It's funny how u could never be dissapointed with her work, i know Queen of the Damned was a pretty crap movie, but Aaliyah made it decent, and vamped up every scene she was in. Even if that only amounted to about 15 minutes of screen time.
Getting back to the song, 'Try again' has to be my all time favourite song. I can never get tired of it, i can still listen to it and love it the way I did when I first heard it. So for all of u who don't have it, just listen to it, let it take u back. it may seem a little 'old skool' for 2000 now, but its still one of the best songs of alllll time.