this layout is really starting to bug me...

Well i just did a two hour show in the radio studio. I messed up a few times - yelled fuck (but not while on air) a few times and overall it was good but i know i can do better and there are little things i need to do just to neaten it all up. if anyone would like to hear my radio shows they can email me and i'll try to make up an mp3 or something of some of it. yousendit is the coolest site for uploading files, its so easy but it only stays up for a few days though which gets annoying when trying to download large files that refuse to be downloaded. lol.
Well im at uni now, it's almost 11.30 so im gonna see jim and have him listen to the show..but it is the show i was planning on handing in...i don't think i have enough time to do another one...well i might if i come in tomorrow. There is so much to do this week i don't know when im gonna find the time to do any of it! lol. and everything cost money too. 100 bucks here...60 there..i have a phone bill to pay and my dad has asked that me and my bro both pay some insurance...all he's asked for is 100 dollars at this stage. Well let me calcualte my costs for this week :
200 - layby
100 - insurance
60 - beautician
107 - phone bill - to be paid by the 28th...but my pay day is this wednesday not the next
and also whatever is left over is bar tab. I was trying to save some money for that too. damnuts.
So im gonna be alittle bit broke...already am a tad broke.
also i have another layby which is 119 - the his and her circumstances dvd box set from EB.
but i have two months to pay that off.

OKAY well i bet ur all wondering what lil evelyn got for her b'day...well...the present listing goes alittle something like this:
minidisc recorder
hello kitty bag
ffx-2 dark aeon yojimbo & vampire hunter d figurine
toxic earrings
and the most gorgeous bracelet from lisa! its sooo niceeeee!
Also i got a nintendo ds from cookie :)

a lesson to be learned from my last week
impulsive buying is very very bad. But stores that refund are very very good ;)

HIT ME!:
cubic u - how you doing'
vanilla ice - ice ice baby
eve - got what u need
Onitsuka Chihiro - borderline

I'm sitting here with my small yet cute bottle of sanpellegrino and I am reflecting on the past few days. I've seen some weird things - said even stranger things to people - and i managed to get rid of a shift in miss shop on wednesday ;) now just one more shift to lose and im a free girl for the week....wait did i just say girl? I mean WOMAN. lol i'm 21 offically now...nah i'm still not mature enough to be called a woman..i'll wait till im about 30 or 40 till ppl can start calling me that...shit i'll be 30 in a few years. How fucked up is that. I'm getting so old. I even have one grey hair which already causes me grief....Meanwhile..hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy starts on the 28th of april wooooooooooooooo...

It's weird. I've almost forgot that tomorrow is my actual birthday lol! I'm so focused on the party I guess I've forgotten my real birthday which is tomorrow. Tremain has already jumped in and wished me happy birthday which is sooo lovely of him. *sigh* he really makes it difficult for me to not like him eh lol. new naruto ep 130 is out - im gonna wait till the BT get's busy b4 i download otherwise i'll take me forever. last time i had the latest naruto episode in one hour. that was awesome. I'm not sure about this new Utada - exodus remix..the vocals seem skewed. Honestly I think it could have been handled better but maybe because the mp3 i have is shithouse quality is why i think it sounds alittle crap...the beats are good though.

I'm so busy its not funny right now. I'm sick of it. Im sick of myer stealing all my time and forcing me to go to uni on a saturday morning at 9am! I want to be able to go out and celebrate my birthday - i wish i wasn't working tomorrow...i have alot of work to get started on. the radio ads i need to do...i've got an idea for one already and i need to come up with some music for the alley tunes ads..i've got two creative ads almost written, just need to shorten it alittle and write it out and then record it and then edit it! woot. editing should be easy because now we're using audition - or cool edit as some old skool users call it - to cut up our sound grabs and bites so it'll be easy as pie. Logic audio can go screw its self...its so refreshing to have a program that will be easy to use yay.
and i want to make some promos for my two hour program which i have to hand it on mini-disc. So i need to write that up, organise it...write everything out word for word. Be extremely organised and make it all tight etc....its gonna be hard but im looking for a challenge. I wanna do well at this course and i need to start putting more time into it now. After this week Im gonna start knocking back shifts from myer. If i don't they will walk all over me.
And 8hour shifts and band practise don't mix well at all as i discovered last night. but band is going well..i'll be recording more bass and backing vox this sunday if things go to plan ;)

I can't believe how happy I am right now! is this it? is this what its supposed to be like? When everything is going well, when things finally fall into place and I discover things when I least expected I would...is this happiness? is this what i've been searching for? have I even searched for it or did it just land in my lap? Nothing can bring me down because the last few hours have been so good. Even just simply chilling and watching dvds - its amazing how more relaxed I am and how much I enjoy just being near him. At first the idea used to make me panic, but now I feel calm and resolved to make this work because I think that I really really like him. And I'm not just saying that cos I know that he likes me...in fact I don't really know because he hasn't said straight up - but he doesn't have to at all. He talked alot more tonight, which I'm glad about and i'm still laughing over the story about his friend getting kicked by a kangaroo. I don't mind the quietness, it just makes me want him more, it makes me want to know him more. But that's all it takes, just being near him makes me happy. and if i recall last rehersal it distracted me alittle, but i think i was smiling more just because of those thoughts and knowing he was nearby. I made him go home...which i regret and i don't. I just don't think my parents would be happy with the idea of cookie staying over...i think i need to explain a few things first b4 they'd be cool with it..like tell them that i'm seeing cookie as more than just friends lol. My sister worked it out pretty quickly...lol...she reckons i have a thing for stevens - lol also she commented on cookie being thinner than me...he's all bones..but so what...i like him like that. Gosh...hear me, i miss him already...i hope he gets home okay next time i'll make him stay over ;)

playlist:
the postal service - such great heights (john tejada remix)
MSTRKRFT - Thank me with your hands (panthers remix)
sharpshooters - japanese mathematics
lemon jelly - the staunton lick
!!! - Hello? Is this thing on?
Her space holiday - My girlfriend's boyfriend
dangermouse & Zero feat Doom - Somersault


My feet hurt so much. I don't want to stand up ever again. I'll just sit here and get fat on my ass. I'd rather that than the feeling of walking barefoot on glass. had a hard working weekend...friday nite had spur of the moment go out to bar eight moment...cover bands suck and some girls will do anything on stage to get a drink card except show nipple. but i had a good time :)
I worked at myer all weekend :( BUT im free next weekend wooot! crazyness shall ensue.

playlist of utada songs:
parody
time limit
For You
addicted to you

It's weird...in a good way though. I'm weird. haha.
I've been a busy beee this week...especially yesterday it was just go go go for me. I had a rehersal in the radio studio...so i recorded my ads and practised for an hour and tried to time getting the 3aw network news at 5pm...except the clock in the studio was off by about 30 seconds! so i totally missed the news and had to cut a song and ARGHH!! its annoying me cos i haven't got it right yet. So i need lots more practise which i shall do next friday cos its the only day off i have from uni and work. Im thinking i need to go in on weekends now because otherwise i'll never catch up...everyone else in the class know what their doing and I think i'm getting better at putting on a show..but i don't have the same experience as everyone else. But I try my darn hardest! yeeehaw.

Episode 127-128 of naruto is out now! I'm downloading it off Bit Torrent as i type this...i'm excited...its been one week too long without naruto to keep me happy. I was watching samurai champloo last night...it has to be one of the better anime series to come out of japan in recent years. Also i bought myself a copy of vol. 5 of Azumanga Diaoh - did i spell that right? And I love azumanga diaoh...i got my brother hooked on it too ;) its soooooo good. So that means there is only one volume left of the series to collect and watch and love...so thats exciting. Im seriously considering lay-buying the 'his and her circumstances' dvd set. it's $119 and it would be well worth it cos it'll have the dub and the orginal soundtrack and good decent subtitles on it (not like my samurai champloo dvds which are shockingly subtitled - thats what u get for buying cheaper inferior copies) Meanwhile i have only a few episodes of Revolutionary girl Utena to watch...and i must say that for when that series was made...they managed to get away with alot of innuendo and metaphors for sex - it's not explicit in anyway..in fact its very subtle and you don't even realise it till it happens..especially with the Utena and Akio scene.
And also i have too much macross plus to watch...Tristan wants it back i think..and he wants his gameboy back...woops. I haven't had much time for games lately..im waiting for a chance to just sit back and get a whole day's worth of gaming and anime in. See if i didn't have a job i'd still be sitting on my bum like a bum watching anime, eating noodles and playing PS2. meanwhile..my noodles are almost ready. excuse me.

nothing can bring me down...except one thing

The road to sanity has not been an easy one these last few days - in fact all my insecurities are starting to surface, I can feel the cracks already appear in my self-confidence. What I want and what I have are becoming two very different things. I was set on something - and then stupidly I agree to listen to things and people who tell me what I already know but all too late. And I don't want this "what if" question hanging over my head. Because it was there last night. I could feel the seriousness of what he was trying to tell me, even if i told him it didn't matter - it did to him. Even when i said i didn't care, he took the hint but still wanted to tell me everything that he was feeling and thinking. He was sorry for what he'd said thursday to me, but also that he realised then that I actually meant something...not alot..but I was someone he liked and it took his blutness to realise that. After so much abusive language in the car driving home last nite, i got over it. I'll think what I want to, I'll be friends with him, but I can't do more than that.


I know what I want now - I feel it so much. And it's driving me crazy. I wonder if he's out there thinking of me - if he's going crazy too ...lol i guess the cat is out of the bag now....but i feel very very lucky to have found something or someone as sweet as him. I don't deserve anything good right now, but i hope i don't mess this up. knowing me i'll mess it up and sabotage it in some way. My insecurities are already playing up - and all these scenario's are playing in my head like some bad melodrama. But i just think that if i think of the worst now - it won't come true. So I'm hoping for the best - that I don't run and hide and that maybe if i just go with the flow i'll be okay.

Last nite on the train to Frankston:

26/3/05

I haven't felt this way in so long. please don't let me down, please don't let me down.
Whatever happens tonight happens, whatever I wish for will and won't come true. but I don't care, just please don't take this feeling away from me.
It's been too long since I've been this excited. It's been forever since I've felt this way for someone. I don't even know if this is real, but I don't care because its the feeling I've been looking for. I've searched so many places, I thought I had found it again, but I was mistaken. Now it's here again, the same familiar feeling from long ago. It's knocking at my door waiting for me to open up.
Whatever happens, happens.
Whatever will be, will be.
No forcing, no changing.

27/3/05

we got alot of time and it sure feels right:
The juliana theory - top of the world
dashboard confessional - hands down
david franj - oxygen
howie day - collide
steven speaks - passenger seat
ben lee - get gotten & into the dark

I'm so happy I think I'm gonna pass out!

Nah I won't. But I couldn't sleep last nite at all - I could only think of him and how close he was to me. I couldn't focus, I couldn't breathe half the night because my heart was racing. I knew I wanted him and I had him - But I still wanted his arms around me the whole nite. He was just so sweet and last night was all him. I swear I didn't do anything but turn up - and to think that if I hadn't turned up I wouldn't be this happy today. All that effort was worth it and I can feel it. I get these feelings in my stomach like butterflies - and I know that it's right. I just don't want this feeling to leave me ever again. I'm on top of the world - nothing can bring me down....

It's funny how quickly I can change my mind about someone. Its also funny how utterly terrible one person can make me feel in the time of 30 seconds. It also just shows how sensitive I can be sometimes. I can injure someone else with my words - and then they throw it back at me and I can't take it. It's true, I do contradict myself. But fuck it. I don't care. I still know what I mean and I still know what I feel. That's the only thing that's real for me. I get to this stage where I don't know who to trust and I know that some feelings I shouldn't act upon because I'll hurt someone else. So I don't do anything about anything - and then suddenly I'm so bad because I actually DIDN'T do anything. Maybe I should say what I feel more clearly. Maybe I should respect other's feelings more - I think I do, as much as I can. But I'm unsure now of some people and their reactions and assumptions. I think some people assume too much of me. And I think that's what I dislike - the assuming. I wish I could be me all the time, but I can't. I wish I could trust everyone - but I can't. Right now, I think I've realised how fucked up some people are and that they are dragging me down into their own confusion and fucked-up-ness. Didn't I say I didn't need that. Didn't I think that. Didn't I avoid that? why is it so easy to revert back to old feelings? When things were less complicated. But decisions I made I won't break. Anyway, you don't go out with your friends. You can't always go back after that. but sometimes you can. And there's always hope in that. I cling to hope sometimes. That's what I'm doing now. I'm wishing and hoping that everything will work out. That what's meant to be will be and all that stuff. I'm not so lost after all eh?

stem - shiina ring "the real is but a dream"
l0w - kelly clarkson "they look at me with sad eyes, well I don't want their sympathy"
gamble everything for love - ben lee "love me with an open heart, tell me anything"
forget myself - third eye blind "who am I we both don't know/ time ticks by, where did you go?"

meanwhile james is sick from the pizza hut food. THAT'S why vegeterians shouldn't eat meat on a fricken religious holiday!

Sydonia - Life in a cup
Queens of the stone age - no one knows
Ben lee - catch my disease

I've never been this confused about anything. But I'm also never very definate with my feelings either. So maybe this is just a temporary situation and I'll go back to normal soon...I hope so.
I think I like the idea of someone right now more than I like them. And I think if I acted on every crush I had on someone, then i'd end up nowhere without any real idea of what I'm looking for. I think I know what I want. It just gets mixed up - with my thoughts and ideas. Do I want something real? Something that lasts? or something superficial and nasty?
Nasty is such a nasty word. Do I want to go against the norm for myself? Should I chase or be chased? I think alot, about what it could be like with someone - but nothing ever comes of it. And I think that this is probably one of those times. but we'll see ;) who knows, i'm just going with the flow and wherever it takes me I guess i'l have to wait and see.

My birthday preprations are getting worse - I need to rethink and re-evaluate how much I actually want to spend on alcamhole. haha

There are some people in this world that are just not meant to get along. Ever.
And I think I found of those people that I will never ever get along with. And another thing I've realised is that I just don't care. Well my weekend has been busy, full of 21st birthdays (Nat's and Klein's) and i've been working at myer all weekend. Which has made it interesting. but i've been lacking a decent night's sleep. Oh well i'll catch up during the week ;)

Well yesterday was a very interesting day and I'll tell you why.

First off I made plans to go to St Kilda with lisa in the afternoon. There was a festival happening in the botanical gardens there and lots of world music and market type happenings. But before I could go to that I had to take my sister to my Grandma's house and help her out filming a 3 minute film. So I happened to drive that day, because my mum was too slow and if i was gonna go out later we had to get aubrey's stuff out of the way first. So driving to Bulleen started off well.

At first I was like "Oh fuck..i have to go through that bloody round about" those of you will know this roundabout as the one that has a HUGE green thing in the middle of it...and I honestly hate going through this roundabout. But oddly enough i get through fine - and i remember even asking my sister "was i in the right lane?" and she was like, "Yep, ur fine".

So things were dandy - i got over the hard part of our journey. BUt alas, don't count ur chickens until the hatch. As I was driving along the road towards the templestowe shops (there was a festival on there too) - i noticed a car up ahead that was waiting to turn onto the road. I didn't think anything of it - UNTIL the fricken woman at the wheel of that car decided to not give way to me! SO I break, she breaks and both cars just skim the sides of each other. It was kinda like a screetching sound...it reminded me of finger nails on a black board. So I quickly pull over. And I'm cursing absusive language..and i'm pulled over and I'm thinking "shit what do i do next" so my sister gets out of the car, cos it happened on her side of the car and she's checking out the damage while the fricken woman who didn't give way to me starts driving off! I WAS LIKE..OMG! and then she was gone...i didn't get her number plate or anything. So we drove to grandma's i called my parents - my dad went fricken crazy over the phone and my plans for the afternoon were ruined.

BUt my day was saved by lisa, mark and carlos - they picked me up and we went to the beach and then had chinese for dinner. It was great :) although next time i think we'll all think twice b4 throwing shells and rocks at seagulls. that kinda put us all into a sombre mood.

Today though i went to uni - spent three hours sitting and talking about advertising on radio. It was good! i'm loving my course so far. its just getting better every week i think. Okay.well dinner is ready and i'm starved. BA-HA-HI!

Hear it on the stereo:
TKO - Le Tigre
Gamble everything for love - Ben Lee

modeling @ justin's 21st

Justin thought that this picture needed to be here. lol..So I thought I'd share it. It's a pic of me and tom..I'm kinda..losing focus and he's doing the I'm-so-hot-and-i'm-an-asshole thing. He does that well. There's another picture of us doing that..well of tom doing that. Ahh the camera loves him. I found out that night that i've been blacklisted by his girlfriend though - which is odd..cos i always thought jo was a lovely person and to find out that i'm hated by her...didn't sit well with me that night. Its not like i'm a threat..oh no..i wouldn't want to go there with tom, especially not after i realised what an ASSHOLE he is all those years ago - that would be 3 years ago...i think. well it was a long time ago..most of which i've forgotten.
But yeah..so this was just one of many pics taken from justin's new website. if i can find the link i'll post it so you can all go have a looksie at his pictures..cos there are alot. And most of them are of justin's friend ian...lol..Justin commented on the lack of me in those pictures...well my legs and shoes appear in a few pics...you can tell..cos i stand funny, as lisa noticed the other nite :) Yeah

on friday nite we went to the greyhound hotel - lisa and mark s came along...we met james, bonnie and her friend cathy. We saw SYDONIA and they were awwwwwesome..especially that song 'pain and suffering' omg ammmmazing. the band that followed them were just...not as impressive as them..in fact they were a huge let down compared to sydonia..unfortunately...then there was this guy call zig zag and his freashow...which involved him setting his head on fire (thanks to lynx deoderant), eating a light bulb and walking on a bed of glass...in fact he was on the glass for awhile. it was crazy, shocking , and some of it was disturbing but no one could take their eyes off it...and everyone was in pjamas which was weird.

hear me out: Al green - let's stay together
chingy - jackpot
basement jaxx - jus one kiss
timbaland & magoo - up jumps the boogie (feat. aaliyah and missy elliot)

ON the 7th of March was the day my dog died. Thinking about it now - it was so surreal then. We made a decision which ended the life of our beloved pet. Everytime I look outside I keep thinking she'll be there...but she's not. When I walked up the steps to the house, I waited to hear her barking at me - but i heard nothing. I saw the back gate wide open and the first thought that jumped into my head was "She'll escape!" then I remembered that it didn't matter anymore. Its starting to sink in now...I'm waiting for it to get easier. I have to remind myself that it was our decision - and we have to live with it. But I don't want to...I just wish it was all so different. It could have turned out better for her.

I try to keep myself busy...but its hard. I'm reminded of it all the time - especially when i'm at home. Its all my mum talks about to me - its like she's trying to justify her decision to her self and to me...She had second thoughts, but its too late now. There was never a guarantee that it would work out..when so many things went wrong. She was only 7 years old. I'm making it worse for myself now by writing here. But the thing I have to understand is why. Why her? why did she have all the problems? But there are no answers, only theories and assumptions. One thing everyone keeps thinking is 'This shouldn't have happened'. Maybe I'd be better off now if i didn't watch...if i had missed the whole event like my sister did - "Where's Briggetta?" she said as the vet drove down our drive way with our dog lying in the trunk of his car. "Where do you think?" I spat at her through my tears - "She's gone". I was pissed. It was an important thing and she wasn't there to say goodbye. But aubrey doesn't reall care about the pets that much...she does, but only when it suits her. But that's how she is. Its better though I must admit...talking to people about this. Lisa and Tremain have been a big help to me through this...they both listened to my sobbing over the phone..they didn't have to, but they did. And James has been understanding...he let me skip bandpractise (not like i need his permission). And that shot of makers mark that i had...helped in a weird burning/warm way. I feel like calling one of them now...like...hearing someone else's voice will calm me...comfort i guess is what i'm looking for.

Anyway. I just got a call from mark S...me, lis and him are going to see a movieeee....my headache is almost gone...and i've just cried..Again. great...now i'm gonna have a red face. I'd better pretty myself up now.

I don't think I can sleep tonight. I don't know if I want to - especially if it means that I have to wake up tomorrow knowing that Briggetta is not there. I sit wondering if what we did was right? If it was so humane then why do I feel so bad? Why do I feel guilty for it?
I felt like maybe we could have given her more time - but she had so much time and it was breaking us all to see her like that. Telling myself that it was the right thing to do - that maybe we could have stopped it, that we could still have her. And now I sit here wishing it could all be different - wishing that I didn't have to watch her fall into her forced sleep. I can cry all I want, but it won't change things. I can wish all I want, but whats done is done. We can't go back and change things, and now we've lost something close to us and it just feels empty and wrong without her.



"Little angel you gotta learn to fly, get up, earn your wings tonight -


Little angel just look in my eyes, get up and earn your wings tonight..."

Utada Hikaru - Kremlin Dusk

All along I was searching for my lenore
In the words of Mr Edgar Allan Poe
Now I'm sober and nevermore
Will the raven come to bother me at home
Calling you
Calling you home
You
Calling you
Calling you home

By the door you said you had to go
Couldn't help me any anymore
This I saw coming long before
So I kept on staring out the window
Calling you,
Calling you home...
You,
Calling you,
Calling you home...

I am a natural entertainer
Aren't we all holding pieces of dying ember?
I'm just trying to remember who I can call,
Who can I call?
Home,
Calling you,
Calling you...

I brought a secret propoganda
Aren't we all hiding pieces of broken ember?
I'm just trying to remember who I can call,
Who can I call?

Born in a world of opposite attraction
Is it or is it a natural deflection?
Torn by the arms in opposite directions
And is it or is it a modern mis- reaction?

Born in a world of opposite attraction
Is it or is it a natural deflection?
Torn by the arms in opposite directions
And is it or is it a modern mis- reaction?

Is it like this?
(Born in a world of opposite attraction)
Is it always the same?
When a heartache begins,
(Torn by the arms in opposite directions)
Is it like this?

Do you like this?
(Born in a world of opposite attraction)
Is it always the same?
Will you come back again?
(Torn by the arms in opposite directions)
Do you like this?

Is it always the same?
And will you come back again?
Do you like this?
Oh, do you like this?

Is it like this?
(Born in a world of opposite attraction)
Is it always the same?
(Is it or is it a natural deflection?)
(Torn by the arms in opposite directions)
If he changes my number,
(And is it or is it a modern mis- reaction?)
Will you tell me?

Is it like this?
Is it always the same?
When a heartache begins,
Is it like this?

If you like this,
Will you remember my name?
Will you come play it again,
If you like this?
Oh, do you like this?

I wanna take you up to my room - but you always have to be too soon:
travelling - utada hikaru
ska sucks - Propagandhi
across 110th street - Bobby Womack
long time woman - Pam Grier




I'm not in a good mood anymore. Maybe cos i'm tired...and pissed off with certain people. I shouldn't go out tonite - i should stay home and sleep. cos thats what i want to do right now, sleep for a very very long time.
I purchased a copy of Final Fantasy 9 today...it was at eb doncaster..and i swear that game was waiting for me. I was on the other side of the store and i just so happened to look up at the PS1 games and there it was...I rushed over to it and grabbed it off the shelf and i bought it there and then. Brand new, 49.95. i've been wanting that game for ages and everytime i seem to get close to it - it disappears. poof! and now..poof! it was there. so now im broke again..cos by the time i pay my phone bill there will be nothing left of my bank account....yay.


well im gonna go bitch some more about my brother to other people now...
cya

I think i shall survive this year afterall ;)

I had second thoughts yesterday. I was sitting in the tiny radio studio at Swinburn with 13 others and I thought to myself "What am I doing here? Why was I chosen out of so many others to be in this course?"

Honestly I don't need to do this commerical radio course - I could just find a job else where doing something - I have one BA under my belt, why do I need to do complete another course and throw myself into the deep end once again. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I don't want to do this course - I do. I'm excited about learning more stuff - but I'm scared about being on my own again at uni and being friendless. My first year of uni wasn't spent alone, but I had a hard time coping without those who were closest to me. I know that if Jon hadn't been so nice to me I probably wouldn't have made it out of first year alive. And now i'm at a new uni and I don't know anyone and yeah I'm scared. I'm starting all over again and it's going to be hard. I'm out of my depth too - almost everyone else in the course has had way more experience than me...I mean what do I know? nothing compared to them right? BUt i'm here to learn..and get a job which is why normal people go to university.


But I'm not normal.


In fact I'm not sure if I can be classified as anything other than human. Even that word betrays our imperfections. To err is to be human or something like that right?
Well i have my second class tonight at 6pm till 9! how crazy is that! I've never had night classes before. woot anyway it should be fun squishing into the radio studio again...hmm that's where i'll be for a whole year...oh goody. good thing i don't mind small spaces.

And I think I'm starting to scare myself:
frontin' - Pharrell
damaged - TLC
right side of the bed - Atreyu
Ohio is for lovers - Hawthorn Heights
drug like - Action Action

I just found out the news about Naruto - it's been Licenced over seas, which is bad news for the fansubber addicts like me - but this news can be taken either way. Its good and band. BAD because many bit torrents will stop supplying it and it won't be subbed by as many groups now. BUt its good because it means naruto will be on TV! but bad cos it'll be in english. BUt maybe now some of the video games will come out and stuff...but it'll be in english..and terribly dubbed. Okay i'm sure VIZ and ShoPro will take good care of the series, but the series will probably get hacked up so that annoying lil brats can watch it on their morning tv shows...bloody american television - they need to learn that animation is not just for kids anymore...but i think their slowly learning that. There have been some bad mistakes made to some great anime series - lets just hope Naruto doesn't lose its orginality or it insane coolness and japaneseness - i wouldn't want this awesome anime to get lost in the translation.

BUt for now i think i'll download episode 122 and read more:
anime news network
anime suki forum


I am lonely for tonight, baby come on and hold me tight:
Colours - utada hikaru
kelly clarkson (now i think of it, its kinda a hick name) - since you've been gone
lil birdy - tonights the night
AND that new basement jaxx song...can't remember whats it called.