Are you listening?

if only - hanson
in my head - Queens of the stone age
maybe - N.E.R.D
Killing me - L' Arc en ciel
Azoura - Shiina Ringo

I've been thinking alot. I've been feeling like crap because of some things a friend said. My relationship is different not because there isn't communication, not because we don't feel the need to talk about sex, sex and sex - just because i won't rush into something with someoneI've just met - doesn't make my relationship anything less than what it is now. It's fantastic now. I think distance does make the heart alittle fonder. I think i've come back from my two weeks refreshed - smarter - i know whats good for me now and what's not - I know where I want to be in 6 months time, I know that that nothing lasts forever, but it could if i wanted it to. If i wanted to stay in the one place, be lil old dependable me...but i can't do that. And I won't become what someone expects of me...i'm sick of assumptions and this and that. I'm sick of other people's ideals when i have my own to stick to. I'm happy where i am now...but forgive me for wanting more. I'm not satisfied anymore with just the ordinary life i've been living now. And I'm sick of people rubbing my face in it ...yeah right so you got to third base with a chick you've only known two months - you say your in love...fuck that. What is love? does anyone really know? I'm angry and pissed for the way a friend is making me feel inferior...like my relationship doesn't matter cos he's found a soul mate...while i'm taking things casually and slow. Im allowed to - i have my reasons...he can go fuck a tree...wait he's already doing that. Giving me shit when he's the shit giver. Fuck him. I don't care anymore. I'm over it. Back to being happy thank you.

I haven't unpacked yet. Im too tired...drove half way home..my legs hurt, my hands hurt. my toes hurt...and i'd rather curl up in bed and cry myself to sleep because i'm still not over anything. and i can't look at that damn puppy without thinking about the pet we lost.


i feel older today. I feel like im still somewhere else...like my body is here but my head is still in Goulburn. and maybe i want it that way. im glad to be back...maybe i'll feel better tomorrow...i need some sleep. I reallly need some sleep. I'll tell you about my day later.

Well you know...not much happening. Just ate food...all i seem to do is eat. I've had macca's three days in a row already and i don't wanna repeat that today. I've already decided that when i get back to melbourne, there are several important things i need to do.
I shall list them here for you to read:

- go to the dentist and cos i think some teeth need pulling!
- go to the beautician cos my eye brows need some shaping - but other than that they look okay.
- call myer and find out when my next shift is
- go to myer and find out why my discount card expired LAST WEEK!
- email jim and orgaise some studio time at swinny
- go out with lisa and have dinner somewhere...we made plans last night...
- go to jackie chan's restaurant @ donnie for yum chaaaaaa mmm...
- get cookie's b'day present (if im lucky i might be getting tickets off a friend for taste of chaos - if not then im fucked haha yeah yeah i bet i know what ur thinking "that would make a fucking beautiful present for cookian )

B4 i leave Goulburn i need to:
-get copies of my ads
- do the mid-dawn compliation(which i should be doing now)
- finish off my cup -o-soups.
- possibly do laundry
- order breakfast at the motel
- order dinner at the motel
- get as much room service as possible cos im not paying for it
- Panel on saturday for the outside broadcast
- Buy bottles of mount franklin water cos Goulburn water tastes like someone shat in it, then pissed in it,then spewed in it, then boiled it, then spat in it.

kanye west - jesus walks
daughterboy jao
don't phunk with my heart - BEP

mmm..maccas...hello kitty toys. awwwweeeesomeee..
i'm at the station still. 25 mins till the hot 20. yep, tonite will be my third night co-hosting. its fun you knowww...i guess cos i just sit there and giggle alot...but its easy. im not freaked out about doing it or anything. im gonna order dinner tonite from the lil restaurant at my motel. mmm..make the radio station PAY! lol. I'll be panelling for the OB on saturday - so i won't be back in melbourne till either saturday night or sunday day. hmm..well i'll try for saturday night you know...my dad is coming up here on the saturday arvo on his way home from thredbo and jindy so he'll be here around 1 or 2...which is good for him. i don't care as long as i get home this weekend sometime. I want to meet our new puppy...yes..my mum went impulse shopping the other day - and came home with a miniature schnauzer last thursday. Apparently its very cute and tiny - but i have to get home b4 my sister officially names it cardigan. hmm. yes she's crazy. AND my sister took my hanson ticket right...NOt even a message or a call saying thank you or telling me about the gig. All i know about it was that "it waz awsum" cos aubrey replied a day later to a message i sent to her. FUCK. anyway. i heard some hanson on barry bissel's countdown...yes barry is still around! lol picked it up off the satellite...which is where certain shows get streamed to stations in case the cds don't make it on time...but this station doesn't do barry, but i listned to a little of it when i was compiling the mid-dawn shift. almost 10 hours of music and sweepers and promos from 8-6am. yep and i threw in a few diff songs...like bloc party..and my chemical romance. They play better music on the night rotation than they do during the day!
haha! rossco was giving me shit on the radio about tonite! he thinks i have no idea about what im doing! how insulting...yet how true! lol...haha
anyway im feeling lonely..maybe i'll give YOU a call.

Crusty Dippin' Chunks

I'll tell you this kiddies - kfc tastes sooooooooooooo good. I've been asked to stay on at the station for saturday.i think its because they'll need some one to do all the dirty work for the outside broadcast. i'm gonna try amd score some free shit...might be a bit late getting a copy of the coldplay album but...damnut. Anyway im having a great time in Goulburn. This weekend i went up to Jindabyne which is past Cooma and about an hour away from Thredbo. It was reeeally nice - and great to see water...cos Goulburn has none. So yeah I met up with a few other Swinny kids, pete, michelle and dave (dave drove me up - he is increidibly nice - in fact one of the nicest most polite people i know). So that was fun, we got alittle smashed - cheap drinks and all that jazz. Cable tv is also good - watching alot of films. SO anyway the weekend was great - also met the old swinny boys who work at snow fm and 2XL - so that was great. they were telling us soooo much, i now know everything - but the bad thing about that nite was that they didn't shut up at all. Chris was just going on and on and on and on so much that i was like falling asleep. We ended up crashing in chell's hotel room - like three of us on her king size bed and pete on the couch. It wasn't until the next day that michelle realised that the couch folded out into a bed lol!

i've found that people in radio love to talk about themselves and give you advice - they LOVE it. don't have to have an ego - but when they find someone else who is radio inclined - like us swinny kids, they just go off. They love us - cos we'll fricken listen. and they lovvvvvvvvvvve that. Well im co-hosting the hot 20 tonite, exciting eh. in 20 mins! arghh!!! i'd better go and get stuff..i dunno lol. shouldn't be too hard, just gotta prepare in my head - ah well..cya kids.

In a studio

playlist:
Amerie - 1 Thing
john ledgend - used 2 love u
foo fighters - best of you


well here i am. its wednesday - so far its been good this trip to lil old goulburn. I'm having a great time - and its so nice getting messages from lisa and calls from cookie and james and everyone. I'm staying in this small hotel - the station is like a 30 minute walk from the hotel and i froze my ass off this morning. I kid you not - it was fucking freezing. But the town seems okay - and i have dodgy cable in my hotel room which makes up for the lack of entertainment in Goulburn. Seriously there is nothing to do in this one horse town - i dun even know if they have a horse here. They have a very large Marino Sheep though...me and dave saw that when we came into town..lol. i would have thought my email would be full by now...but it seems the junkmail filter is keeping most crap at bay...thankgoodness. i bet my yahoo mail is like up to 1000 junkmail messages..god that shit just keeps coming. So who saw Hanson on Rove? I did...lol it was funny...it was like OMG..HANSON IS IN A VAN!

anyway - if anyone wants that ticket to hanson i will give it to you for FREE! FOR FREE! its just one ticket - and seriously its a great offer considering you'll spend a night listening to decent music and being surrounded by chicks. HOT chicks. Girls who don't wear bras with their tank tops! Seriously...its the place to go this Sunday night if you wanna pick up. You'll be able to have ur pick from 16-25 year old ladies...

Anyway - the radio station up here is cool - everyone is awesome...and i mean AWESOME. also im learning heaps and its great chatting with Ross - cos he's from swinburn too so he knows what im all about and what i can do while blair the PD is like "i dunno what u can do" ..he's like only 22 and a PD! its craaazy. but yeah i'm enjoying it here...i might get KFC tonite...and destroy my body with its toxins. yeah sounds like a fricken plan. BTW this blog will be posted on my space also. can't be fucked writing two diff blogs...OKay well i'm gonna go do something productive for the next two hours and then leave. CYA kiddiessssss...*MUAH*

btw - we have like advanced copies of the coldplay record...how fucking cool is that..mind you all the copies are fucked- the cases are broken and shit. but ah well. and next week i might be co-hosting the hot 20 with Ross ...yay! how cool...im doing vox overs and making ads and shit..its great. Anyway. I mean it this time. Im gone *MUAH*

Well i'm gonna miss this. Our little conversations...its becoming a regular thing. I talk, you listen and never respond. You remind me of a dog...always obedient, always listening out - but never able to tell me how much you love (or hate) me back. But you know what - I'm leaving you. Yes, you. I'm leaving tomorrow morning at 5am and i won't be coming back till the 11th of June. Yes you'll be able to contact me still - email and mobile calls still apply. I'll just be away from you all for two weeks, on my own, trying to survive on what little money I have left after paying my phone bill and going crazy shopping. But here's a tip - Myer stocktake sale this Monday, they've already started marking down stock - get in now and you could grab some items b4 the sale officially starts ;) hahaha...everyone misses me at miss shop, you know why...cos i actually did work while i was there haha. Well Goulburn isn't that far away - i'll still be nearish...just a few hours away by car...tomorrow will be an interesting day I think. We'll see if Dave still likes me after spending 8 hours in a car with me. lol. If i can blog I'll keep you all posted with my radio doings up there...im just burning cds now and waiting for naruto movie to download..probably won't be done unless i leave the comp on. I could sleep in here tonite...its so nice and warm. OKAY i'd better get offline and get some sleep....see you when i get back!

songs:
utada hikaru - deep river
koda kumi - shake it (OHMYGAWD ...if you do one thing b4 u die, it should be watching this video)
kelly clarkson - behind hazel eyes

Okay i take back what i said. This my space stuff is pretty cool....well the my space music stuff is. I'm listening to anadivine now...its goot. Well yeah I'm at uni just doing some database research...getting alittle bored with it because im not coming up with much. I might start writing the essay soon - cos i won't have much time to do so tonite ya know. So yeah i've been pretty busy and im extremely tired. Im kinda hungry though...well not really. I have a slight headache and dizziness...well i should probably eat something. Haven't really eaten all day long. Yeah...ate last nite though lol. I was here at uni yesterday from 3pm till 1.30am! ARGHH!! yeah talk about crazy. I'm good now though..well not really, i'm behind in my work. I spoke with Jim and he's cool with me handing in everything on friday. I just have to do one more hour on RCS, do two phone calls one interview...4 stop sets, 4 speed breaks, put it all together in Audition and write a 1,500 word essay. its actually all due tomorrow, but friday is as a good a day as any to get it all done. yeah so this essay is breaking my balls. I'd better start reading stuff...so maybe thats what i'll do. get a coffee somewhere...sit in the chocolate cafe and do some reading. I need a highlighter...don't have one on me i don't think. I haven't used on at all this year- thats really weird because all i used to do was do readings and highlight notes...this mouse is driving me crazy. I don't really wanna go to band practise tonite - but i should cos i won't be there for the next two weeks. I know where im staying in Goulburn now...in a central motorlodge...woot. basically i think its like a motel..or something. So thats my two weeks of fun. woot. i dun think i'll be coming back down for the hanson gig in melb...79 was alot for a ticket..but i might just ebay it or sell it to someone...or if im desperate give it away! i'd rather ebay it...i mean..row q isn't too bad....and someone else is selling tickets for the stalls...really mine is in a pretty good position...damnit i want to go - but ah well..next time if there is another next time with Hanson..their so damn annoying with their unpredicitability. ahhh well...i would say damn i wanted to go and buy a band tee shirt..but i've worn the hanson shirt twice..and i got weird looks both times...Hey it can't be as bad as the Kid who was wearing an old skool hanson shirt at Atreyu...that was ODD. someone is humming in here..lol its cute.

anyway. i've been listening to other radio stations..my essay is on nova so i figured i'd get a taste for other nova stations in Oz. And you know what, there is a difference in the sound...from the bands, to the promos, the announcers etc...so its actually quite interesting hearing essentially the same station but in diff parts of Australia.

Well I'm gonna be at 2GN & Eagle FM up in Goulburn- i'll have my phone with me of course..and hopefully some internet access to keep me sane lol. you won't be able to listen online though..the haven't quite got that going yet - but i'll try to record some stuff while im up there.
anyway...cyaaa kiddies later

another song to add to evelyn's favourite songs of all time list:

lenny kravitz - again

Well i can sleep easy tonight. All is well in my world and nothing you could say to me now will bring me down. I will never listen to another stupid group of people again - because they obviously don't know what their talking about. Nothing is black and white...lol. Lots of graay..or grey. That's something i'm learning, that nothing is so clear-cut or simple. Especially when feelings come into it. I'm gonna fix the way I think. My 'I'm still single"mentality has to go. Completely go. I like Cookie alot...and i don't think I can stress that enough. I'm sure alot of you are probably thinking, "Ev, we saw u the other night. you were frisker than a cat in heat"but i don't think if any of you understood any of what happened the other night, you would see that I had a bit to drink, I was having alittle fun - no one was safe from my antics and something I did out of a joke, out of fun ended up making everyone have a go at me - yeah yeah, pick on ev...the drunken girl - thats the way, fuck with my head some more kids. Okay, so it was a once off..but when i kissed bertie did everyone GO OMG ur cheating? No...that kind of thing is considered entertainment! So my P.O.V is alittle different, because honestly i think if i was gonna do the dirty disrespectful thing to cookie, i would have not done it in front of a room full of people, nor would i have picked klein. BUT none of that matters now. IN fact after this blog, I'm never gonna mention it again. Because i had forgotten it the other day, cos it didn't matter - and im gonna forget it now - cos it doesn't matter. I know how i feel - and i've been honest. and honestly, thats that. I'm sure cookie now will have to deal with the other truth about me now..lol i bet he's at james's house saying to him "dude...is she really a-" then I'm james will gives the full expose on the not so secret non-exisitant sex life of ev. Honestly - you people make me worry...but thanks nat. I feel better now its out in the open - and what u call an argument, I call a simple disagreement. But u know what - im young and this relationship stuff isn't exactly my forte, so every mistake i'll learn from, you just got to let me learn..okay. advice and telling me off is all good and well - but u know what i don't think i'll be kissing another girl so soon after this ;)

anywwway...cookie's coming over tomoz...he's visiting the sick (me) - bringing Napoleon Dynamite with him..i shall critque the film and then tell u all wether is worth your 7.50 at video ezy...

sing me to sleep:
9th wonder + BBC feat aaliyah - nightriders rmx
L' Arc en Ciel - jojoushi (what can i say...that Hyde is not only hot but has the most wonderful voices i've ever heard come from the mouth of a japanese artists - kicks SMAP's asses a million times over, plus the PV is magnificent! Ah i'm in loveee and i want moreeee vids..)
Koda Kumi - Cutie Honey (i cannot wait to see this movie. it'll be like pink barbie meets sailor moon on speed)

the new utada remixes have been put on the net - and they are awwwesome! i just wish they'd release her U.S stuff here! it's unfair if u can get it in the UK and from Germany, but damnit...she could do so well here with those remixes. IDJ sucks because of their lack of promoting artists - they'd rather see one of their artists sink out of the charts than pay money on advertising and publicity. Honestly, they did the same thing to Hanson back in the day and now their doing the same thing to Utada! arghh!!! so fustrating!!!!

anyway if u want to check out the Exodus remixes - go to www.utada-online.net/forums and check out the vault. Might only be avaliable to members...and the mp3s will only be up for a while...copyright reasons and all...damnit if i had a credit card i'd be buying these cds...

meanwhile my week has been crap. I've been sick, had no sleep. I'm stressed about uni work - can't do anything while im home sick..I'm feeling alot better today so im gonna do all the paper work and figure out who i should interview for my radio show...and im gonna see if i can pop into uni later or i'll just go in tomorrow and record some ads or something...put some music on selector or something...im sure the editing studios won't be too booked out, most ppl do their stuff during the week and not on weekends like me..so. it should be cool. I'll have to speak with Jim though...i'm supposed to record some vox over stuff - but its alittle hard without a voice!
BUt im on anti-bioticsss now, so hopefully i'll be almost better by monday. Might go in early then eh. Ahh Rulide...once again you swoop in and save the day! damnit..i have to cancel my biotherm facial! arghhh!! damn damn damn. I was looking forward to that..ahh well..

hit me baby one more time:
Bloc Party - Banquet (Phones Disco Edit)
Spoon - I turn my Camera on
Utada - Exodus (JJ Flores Double J extended remix & JJ Flores Dub #2)
Kelly Osbourne - One word - she's gone all 80's electro pop on us!

Ohhhh...

1 Thing - Amerie (remix w/ eve)
Wait - Ying Yang Twins
Ciara - Oh
brooke valentine - girlfight
okay - Nivea and lil jon + youngbloodz
john ledgend - used to love you
hate it or love it - the game
fat joe feat nelly - get poppin' (sounds stupid.)

Howie Day gives me the shivers......go listen to "Collide"NOW

I've had a weird day. Work was short - busy but good...until the end. I don't like it when people are telling me off in a non-telling me off way. What i mean by this is that a girl in the department was basically giving me attitude about the way I packed on the clothes onto the racks so much that it makes it hard to get the clothes off. I just told her I did it on purpose, i didn't mention because i didn't give a shit, and that next time i wouldn't do it. Seriously..this girl doesn't really like me...and i know this cos she doesn't talk to me ever - 'like ever. She thinks she's smarteeer cos she's like a few years older...Look i don't even know her...hardly work with her, but i know that i dislike her. So far i get on with most people at myer that i've worked with...there's another person i dun really like but i won't get into that...cos she's nice but just...i guess not who i get on with. Im so glad im working in personal care tomorrow....thank the lord...im back to my roots...woot. I need some more lip gloss in my life. I'd rather sell moisturiser and make up than sell crappy clothes that are annoyingly complicated with their key codes and apns and style codes and crap crap crap crap ...so i haven't been in the best of moods today..
A phone call from cookie earlier helped, and a few msn convos were amusing...except tristan..Fuck he'll get his GBA when he gets it...im over him bitching about it. I doný eveeen want it..he can have it. i have a nintendo ds...so much more awesome...haha..nah the gba is cool....sorri tristan. didn't mean to diss. its okay. don't cry...

I am thinking its a sign

that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images

and when we kiss their perfectedly aligned

I have to spectulate

that god himself did make us into corresponding shapes

like puzzle pieces from the clay

And true, it may seem like a stretch,

but Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled

Head when you're away when I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road for

Several weeks of shows and when you scan

The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great

Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say

But everything looks perfect from far away,

'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your

Machine but the persistent beat it sounded

Thin upon listening

And that frankly will not fly. You will hear

The shrillest highs and lowest lows with

The windows down when this is guiding you home

Such great heights - The Postal Service

listen:
spoon - I turn my camera on
BLOC PARTY - Banquet - Phones Disco Edit
her space holiday - my girlfriend's boyfriend



Isn't it funny how last nights O.C only played the new Beck Guero album..alittle TKO by Le Tigre and the evil lesbian girl has a Postal Service poster in her room? her awesomeness factor just went up by 5 points...except now its gonna go down 6 cos she wants to kick ryan's ass for hanging with marissa...talk about over-doing it with the jealously. Hey that always stops me from liking someone...when their crazed girlfriend brings over her posse just to kick ur ass...hmm..i think she'd better rethink that one b4 we all hate her...whoops too late. Anyway i rather enjoyed the O.C last night..and i have to say the only reason i'm watching Big bro 5 is because of this twin thing. I find it more interesting than the people in the house. in fact last night as i was watching the girls try to get all sexy with the pole dancing i remember thinking how bloody stupid this was. anyway big bro always gets better once you get rid of the dickheads...

ahhh...today i worked. and tomorrow i'll go to uni...have a mini-disc all prepared for the tutorial. I've gone alittle crazy with the sms's to cookie i think....in fact i've been sending him heaps of messages..and the nice boy that he is replies to everyone of them! lol...except maybe i need to give it a break, too many sms can get annoying...i must be annoying him. Anyway...its a wednesday today..and no band practice...so i guess since im not seeing cookie..the txt messages will just have to make up for it...I feel like being a bit riske towards him..i dunno, doing something alittle craaazy & naughty, but i dunno...might scare him.

It's weird, and im gonna share this on here because i can't be stuffed using THE OTHER blog. lol. but honestly i don't think i've ever liked someoned this much...and it doesn't scare me - but what does scare me now, is that I am worried about wether or not he really likes me. Which is weird because Of course he likes me...because if he didn't he wouldn't go out with me at all. But considering Cookie and are still kinda getting to know each other...sharing life stories and what not...i guess i'd want to know if he's feeling what I am. I don't know why i got all paranoid the other night, i don't know why i think these evil thoughts. Is this my way of trying to bring it all down? Oh no, i'm doing it again. Im sabotaging the relationship without even realising it...again! I must be one of those people who can never let themselves just be happy in a relationship. I'm even using that word now, i'm calling it a relationship. I've made it official, and i've now got a my space page, and written next to status it says "in a relationship".
Still kinda scares me, relationships mean things are serious and committed...im not saying i'm not committed...i mean it was kinda fucked up the other night when Ben drunkenly told me that if i ever screwed cookie over i'd be in deep fucking trouble...then i had to ask weakly, "when you say screwed, what exacly do you mean?"not that i'd cheat on cookie, hell no..im not as sluttaay as u biatches think i am - and i wouldn't classify that drunken kiss with Bertie at my b'day as cheating - but seriously one of the reasons i tried to get cookie off my mind was because i was worried that yeah i'd fuck it up somehow...knowing me and my fucked up ness - and then yeah ben and james and deniz would all be like "YOU EVIL SIN SPAWN - get out of the band now before we cut of your head and place it on a spike for all to see and scream at it, EVIL BITCH WHORE FROM HELL"...or something like that...ohh why can't tortures be like the ones in hentai? lol...i'd rather be pleasured to death than malled by a bear or decapitated by a large heavy, slicing object. Yes I'm fucked. but aren't we all? ...well it'll make me feel better knowing we all are.

I know I have problems when I hit the home button on my net browser and instead of ninemsn I get hansonfiction.com

I've been waiting for some answers:
nancythompson - mind,less
from autumn to ashes - the after dinner payback
atreyu - right side of the bed

This will be quick..i gotta get to work by one so i only have a few minutes here. But I felt like a blog so i'll blog dammit. went to a bogan party on friday, sooo boring. shoulda stayed home but I wanted to see cookie. the only reason i went out was cos of cookie. hmm...been having a lot of thoughts lately, I think i need to stress less. paranoia is not good.
Also can i please remind the kind readers of this blog - at the moment i think two people read it and the rest just write stupid shit in my shoutbox - im gonna compile a list of blog links and such soon...been meaning to do that for some time. should start soon while im not as busy...have lots of work to do soon.

anyway cya.

THIS BLOG IS NOT ABOUT YOU




Atreyu was awesome. the whole night was fucking awesome. I was really disappointed about the merch...no girl sizes..the xtra small was what we'd i'd call FUCKING HUGE. pisses me off. and there were no badges! so i came away empty handed...but its okay. cos i didn't really have the money to spend on band tee-shirts. So afterwards we didn't go to next..just went home..cookian drove me. hehe. i said i'd go out tonite to some party thing at matt's house..but i think i'll just spend a night at home...u know..doing stuff.


ANYWAY here is some fantastic news - There is a Wong Kar-Wai retrospective at Fed Square's ACMI CINEMAS and it'll be fucking awesome. Wong Kar-Wai has directed some of the most amazing HK films ever. I mean that...i'm not just saying he's fantastic...his films evoke emotion, memory, and his films go from beautiful to gritty and the camera work of Christopher Doyle is always an interesting and integral part of the films. In the mood for love - is one of the most beautifully shot films, and Maggie Cheung is the most beautiful HK actress...seriously see the film just for her cos she is amazingly beautiful. But also Fallen Angels is a great film...i have the dvd - its awesome. Chungking express is amusing and sad but hopeful - and should go down in history for the best pick up line "Do you like pineapples?" lol...see the film and you'll know what i mean. Also there is like a discussion panel and all this other stuff happening...like his music videos and short films also showing...if you've seen DJ Shadow's Six Days video then you'll get a small idea of what his stuff is like...that is one of my favourite music videos btw ;)

anyway im gonna eat lunch..gotta get moving soon to go to uni.

I just can't seem to keep away from the computers eh? lol. haha...
http://www.myspace.com/nancythompsonband - go hereee and hear some rock-socking music! woot. btw, that line sounded better in my head than on here...hmm.
Okay should i talk about my previous post (scroll down first and reeead it if u like) or shall i talk about ATREYU which is on TONITE. woootttt.. craaaziness...dunno how the fuck im getting there...night take a train or just go with lisa somehow...hmm..anyway, im just alittle bored now. I should go get something to eat or something...cos class is on at 2pm. My tutorial which i thought i was late for - turns out was running late itself. So rushing around didn't accomplish anything so hmm. But it was a good tutorial...im learning and i need to think differently about the way i say things on radio. I cannor say "Now" or "Coming up" because it sounds like crap. And i need to relax, slow down and work on my breathing. If I relax everything else should just fall into place I hope...just need to get go of what inhabitions i have already i guess...its easy to hear that i'm not relaxed in front of the mic yet..but it'll come with time i guess...alot of time. No one is ever perfect their first time...and im still learning. I also need to be less negative...think positive. positive. positive.

so how bout that O.C huh? Seth and Summer back together...Lindsay has left Ryan...aww..poor Ryan...and Marissa learns that moving out isn't that fun cos she no longer has maids that will clean up after her. She really is one spoilt brat...ahh life is hard in the O.C...

I FEEL weird when i look at cookie's myspace....and i see the simpson quotes..cos thats all he blogs...and then the status which says in a relationship. Now i wouldn't go as far to call it that..and probably for lack of a better term in myspace is why its there. Relationships sound so serious honestly...scareees the shit outta me and makes me wanna be sick. Its more of a thing...but that sounds too casual. You know what - I don't think I can define it. I'll just let it be.

listen:
basement jaxx - rendez vouz
atreyu - right side of the bed
the radio head cd tremain made for meee
lil birdy - excited

Well this week has been full of angry conversations, lies, and stupid attempts to try and undermine each other. In fact I get blamed everytime someone else opens their big mouth - but i don't help the situation by passing little information on. anyway its all sorted now I hope. Just some ridculous business about who said what, who believes what, and wtf? So its time to start minding our own fucking business...but everyone will have an opinion anyway so fuck that. My opinion? Well frankly, your not gonna hear it on here..cos that would mean that i'd have to write the whole story down and i have one minute to get to my tutorial so no, thats not gonna happen now. I think people have skewed ideas about what gossip is - and i think telling someone something they SHOULDN'T know or need to know can be classified as betraying confidence and essentially gossiping. But gossip is more of a bitchy thing honestly, its closer to backstabbing that anything else. And i've done little backstabbing lately...i like to think of it as an open discussion. Say what you feel and leave it at that. If you have a problem with someone you're gonna want to talk about it - and you shouldn't have to hide what you feel honestly. Anyway i'm late now. cya

I'll be your mirror

nancythompson - Mind,less
tokyo Jihen - dynamite
coldplay - speed of sound
the mars volta - drunkenship of Lanterns


...my stomach hurts from coughing so much. No i am not well enough yet...if i speak i'll cough and right now i dun wanna do that. I was so badddd last nite..i ruined a potentially good evening by coughing up a few lungs - and i though i only had one set. Meanwhile I worked today in jewellery...NEVER AGAIN.

the Naruto movie is out on bit torrent - after only two days after the raw was posted...ahh thankgoodness for the speediness of Dattebayo - the subtitling group that i download all my eps from now...i'll start downlooading later..its 700mbs so i'll have to burn it to cd right away...even though my new comp can handle it now...oh my this screen is 19 inches and looks riduculous...i think my eye sight will get worse now because of it...and why have a computer screen thats bigger than ur head? in fact..this screen dwarfs me totally. its huge. but we have a remote for the comp now...im sooo happy..no more getting up to change or fastforward dvds and eps...Oh no..i have a remote now that does all the work for me! woot.

I put together the cd stand tremain and carlos bought me for my b'day...i've started filling it withs cds..just need to figure out a good spot to put it now...

fuck im tired...http://home.iprimus.com.au/jbos/music/04mind-less.mp3 i shouldn't post this..but i have...hehehee....its awesomeee....go get some nancythompson into ur life ;)

meanwhile...i mite watch some vids...anchorman is calling me...

also..autumn to ashes kicks ass..and atreyu makesss me wanna bleed..i loveeeee it.

i'm in love with your strict machine:
goldfrapp - strict machine
johnny lang - give me up again
utada - wonder bout
gwen stefani - hollerback girl



Oh my its been a strange weekend. I'd just like to start by thanking everyone who turned up to my b'day on Friday. It was awesome because everyone who I wanted to be there turned up. And I really did fill up that room eh? lol. Well the party was a big success and thanks all of you wonderful ppl for turning up :)
I'm currently not feeling 100% right now..so this is gonna be a very short blog. I'm gonna just rug up and curl into a little ball somewhere...haven't much energy..yet i still have a big appetite for today lol..i've been eating all day.

Well also some news for ya all - mr. taylor hanson and his wife natalie are parents once again - they've just had a baby girl in the last few days...her name is penelope :) how cuteee...he can sing penny & me to her...awww...