playlist:
Noise Rachet - Crush (mandy moore cover - is good if u can get past the first 20 seconds)
Further seems forever - bye bye bye (nsync cover)
The startling line - Im real (j.lo cover)
Snuff - I think we're alone now
[[the first 3 songs in the playlist are from the Punk Goes Pop cd.]]

"Crush"

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i feel
I wish everyone would disappear
Everytime you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

Does anyone remeber their first serious REAL crush. Im not talking about the Kindergarten childish ones. Or the ones we had in primary school. Im talking about the real thing, when you can't eat, you can't sleep because when you try to sleep your thinking about your crush. When you sit in classes, your distracted because your thinking about what your crush said to you the night before in that 6 hour long conversation you had. You over analyse things, you think about that second time you saw him - when you really saw him - when you thought to yourself "Hey, this time it could actually happen".
The song lyrics above remind me of that. of the last time I seriously had a crush on someone. Actually, it was my first real crush. I had a few afterwards, and im not naming names cos its embarrassing - cos those ppl may actually read this blog. And im not gonna bring up the past. But i do. lol. i regret the past. because my past is filled with 'what ifs' and that just brings me down and i lose focus of the now.

anyway. im gonna see Kill Bill this afternoon in the city. can't wait. Im looking forward to some beheading/ bloodshed/ maiming/ decapitation. i'll write more later.