LET GO - Avril Lavigne
Track One: Losing Grip

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

[chorus]
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

[chorus]

Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere

I've decided to go with the theme of Avril Lavigne's debut album - which is fantastic. It would be unfair to compare Avril with Michelle Branch, but the two young performers are destined for big things in the future. It feels good to be excited about a new music artist, theres still too much crap in the charts at the moment and being able to hear something new is refreshing.
I don't really have anything interesting to mention at the moment, i just felt like doing a lil blog for those few people who read this. And I keep forgetting that some people actually do read it. Well..lets see...
JON - STOP READING THIS - it will do ur head in..And u can't be that bored!
To Rach - damn girl, where'd you go? give me a call NOW.
JUSTIN - if u just read that, tell rach that a phone call once in awhile would be nice :)
Lisa - HI :) (see, no long scary paragraphs for you to read).

muahaha..and the purpose of that was? Hmm..i dunno..just felt like it *shrugs*.

Relationships. Thats the main topic of conversation at the moment. I don't know why but some people make such a big deal out of it.
Well the question here is - if it is a big deal, why are people so caught up in it at the moment? And I would be the wrong person to answer that, mainly because if I didn't give so much as a shit about it, I probably wouldn't be writing about it here.
We all know that I'm single, not that I mind but other people make a deal about it(peer pressure). Like try and set me up with other people - and guys of course flirt. And because i have nothing to talk about, i shall talk about today's flirting encounter with a friend of mine, and please note: I didn't flirt at all. It was all him. I just sat and said "uh huh" alot.
Since I'm at Uni, i have met a few new people, I met most of them through Jon, btw. So I'm doing nothing sitting pretty in the ISA. And pne of jon's friends has decided he's gonna fail uni and not go to any lectures. So i'm just reading the newspaper - very interesting stuff these tv guides- anyhoo..he's talking shit and i'm like..yeah..yea...whatever. Not paying any attention.
So we start talking about shopping and clothes, and he thinks he's cool cos he's gonna buy a full length leather jacket (and to him 3000 is loose change) and he's chatting on about how impressed i'll be when I see him in the jacket with his newly aquired six pack.
I'm thinking to myself, 'ok..what is he getting at' and i finally get cluey about his flirting intentions when he moves to the seat next to me and contiues to talk about clothes. And we were talking about jeans..and he was doing the..touchy thing. I joked that he was feeling up my jeans - he was just..poking them. But i'm no..genius at flirting - but i know what it means when they start to make "contact" ..that sounded really tacky. But ya know..how when you like somone..you might..touch them on the knee. Friendly distance..that sort of thing.
Awhile earlier..this week i believe, Jon said to me that, this friend, was a bit on the friendly side. he was hinting. And I got pissed off with him..cos i was thinking, this guy is like a friend..no way. Ick...puke..all of the above.
Now i should have a point to this story, but i'm slowly getting to it. OK..in anthropology, we learnt about prejudice and discrimination. These terms are normally used in a racist context, but what about in an everyday - prejudice against people who can be catorgrized by looks and apperance. I dunno..maybe i'm bull shitting. But generally, guys say..No fat chicks. Now isn't this discriminating against girls who are comfortably over size 8? Maybe I do have a prefrence over what guys I do like. But i've realised...i'm starting to get narky at this friend who is flirting with me. Maybe cos i don't like the flirting. I get alot of un wanted attention- normally i just get weird strange people giving me a greasy, but when you arent attracted to a person..not necessailry because of apperance...but the person in general...how do polietly let the person know..your not interested in them "like that"? Now, apart from the fact - and i'l be honest - this friend..isnt at all what i go for...But i don't want him..or other ppl..to think the reasons i don't like him is because of his physical appearnce..cos its not.
But to be honest, i believe that in order for something to happen there has to be a spark of interest. You have to be able to click with them straight away. Everyone starts out as friends (Or ends as friends). Ya know what..fuck it. I should have to explain myself to anyone. Ignore this whole blog. It was a waste of time (time-waster) anyway.