Hehe..this is fun....writing every so often..in fact..i think i'm obsessing with this blog. But at least it gives me something to do.
Well EXAM NO. 1 is over and done with. No more english study now...i'm on to drama for wednesday..so itz all good.
Knowing me i'll prolly be more nervous and freaked about the drama exam.

I think i need a counter on this page...but i dunno where i'd put it....

OK KIDS..if u read this...and like it or have comments...find the guestbook on my webpage [www.geocities.com/evesygal]
And sign my guestbook...leave me a comment..ya know. Just so i know..itz not just me i'm writing for.

I like writing, Because maybe it's the only time i can be truly honest with myself.
Once my pen hits the page, every word that comes out is me. The pen is an extension of myself, it becomes my thoughts and feelings.
And i love the look of ink...black wet ink still sitting on a page, waiting to soak into the thin paper layers.
I think i just like the idea of my pen, bleeding ink, bleeding words onto paper...something that can be treasured and last forever till someone finds the words scribbled across it. Words have sentimental value, i'd like to think mine are worth something.

I am an idiot.

Firstly....JMC academy sends me a letter telling me to arrange an appointment time for an interview.

Then i decide over the phone without putting any serious thought into my decision, that i didn't want to do the contemporary music course anymore, just the music business.
I totally chickened out! Just cos i didn't want to do an audition! and i'm afarid to call them back and say i do want to..but i got scared at the thought of performing. I totally suck!
I mean..i could have a career..I mean, i know i'm not the greatest singer - but at least i'd have a shot at doing something with my voice, and now i've just screwed it over. I mean, i guess i can always do the course later on - but i think i'm regretting my 10 second decision and it is now kicking me in the ass. Did i just seem to forget that...performing - is something i want to do - I remember watching people performing and thinking to myself "That's what i want to be doing!" And i've just let another opportunity go.
Geez..well i have an exam to study for.

And that's it...I'M CHANGING THE NAME OF THIS STOOPID BLOG!

I'm thinking of changing the name of this blogger. I mean. Spill is just boring...ok..maybe Spiller would be cool.
Actually i'm thinking of calling it "I'm not a chicken" but hmm...i mean, i just need some thing a little more me..not that i'm a chicken...itz just one of those quotes that will never go away.

Video stores are annoying. They over price over night videos..and what's up with those three day video loans? i mean..wtf.
And i'm waiting for civic video to call me when that damn Cabaret video comes in. And it should have been returned yesterday! I mean! Some ppl are just annoying when they don't return videos on time..i mean other people want to borrow them! They never think about other people...they think, oh i'll just keep it one more night/ or I'll just forget to return it. Hello! video fines! they are there to remind me people to return videos on time. duh. I mean who wants to pay an extra 7 bucks next time you borrow a video.
And you would think video stores would have multipul copies of certain videos not just those annoying crap videos. Like they'll have a million copies of Babe, but only one copy of Rear window*hitchcock film i studied in yr 10*. Ok, Babe wasn't THAT good.
And why would they stop making copies of the film Cabaret? I mean! It's a fricken Goldmine...schools study the film...students don't want to have to wait on a reserved copy list till the goddamn film become avaliable. I mean half the people at school own pirate copies of the film. Fuck copy right if u can no longer buy the film.

ok. I'm done ranting.

Cya later kids.