I have plans, and i have no plans to stay here any longer than i need to. I've been taking advice from people left and right - and everyone has an opinion. I tell people that im planning on leaving in a couple of months - i think they don't realise that i've been here for 3 months already busting my ass for people who don't give a shit. I know for a fact that no one will give u a pat on the back - No one will praise you or thank you for giving up 5 weeks of your life to cover their arses.

Everyone i've spoken to are like...Ohhhh should u really be doing that? They don't exactly agree with how i'm thinking. No one wants me to make a mistake, no one wants me to give up and leave. But then again, no one but me knows what i want. Alot of people understand how hard it is to be away from home - no one knows how much i miss home. I cried for the first month I was here. I cried every single day. morning and night. I cried on the phone to my family, i cried on the phone to my friends. i cried on the phone to cookie for so many nights. A few times a week here i find myself crying or teary eyed.

So whats better? stay in a town I hate, live 15 hours away from friends and family. You know, i don't know what I want. For a career, i have no idea what i want to do. BUT i do know where i want to be. I've never felt more at home than i have with cookie. and it sounds weird coming from me but i know that i want to be based in melbourne. no matter what, thats where i want to be and live. Maybe not forever - home is wherever cookie is, i think i'd be okay living almost anywhere as long as he was with me. BUT seriously - whatever happens next i know for a fact cookie and i will be together..and that makes the next few months seem alot less harder to deal with.