Ohhhh...

1 Thing - Amerie (remix w/ eve)
Wait - Ying Yang Twins
Ciara - Oh
brooke valentine - girlfight
okay - Nivea and lil jon + youngbloodz
john ledgend - used to love you
hate it or love it - the game
fat joe feat nelly - get poppin' (sounds stupid.)

Howie Day gives me the shivers......go listen to "Collide"NOW

I've had a weird day. Work was short - busy but good...until the end. I don't like it when people are telling me off in a non-telling me off way. What i mean by this is that a girl in the department was basically giving me attitude about the way I packed on the clothes onto the racks so much that it makes it hard to get the clothes off. I just told her I did it on purpose, i didn't mention because i didn't give a shit, and that next time i wouldn't do it. Seriously..this girl doesn't really like me...and i know this cos she doesn't talk to me ever - 'like ever. She thinks she's smarteeer cos she's like a few years older...Look i don't even know her...hardly work with her, but i know that i dislike her. So far i get on with most people at myer that i've worked with...there's another person i dun really like but i won't get into that...cos she's nice but just...i guess not who i get on with. Im so glad im working in personal care tomorrow....thank the lord...im back to my roots...woot. I need some more lip gloss in my life. I'd rather sell moisturiser and make up than sell crappy clothes that are annoyingly complicated with their key codes and apns and style codes and crap crap crap crap ...so i haven't been in the best of moods today..
A phone call from cookie earlier helped, and a few msn convos were amusing...except tristan..Fuck he'll get his GBA when he gets it...im over him bitching about it. I doný eveeen want it..he can have it. i have a nintendo ds...so much more awesome...haha..nah the gba is cool....sorri tristan. didn't mean to diss. its okay. don't cry...

I am thinking its a sign

that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images

and when we kiss their perfectedly aligned

I have to spectulate

that god himself did make us into corresponding shapes

like puzzle pieces from the clay

And true, it may seem like a stretch,

but Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled

Head when you're away when I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road for

Several weeks of shows and when you scan

The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great

Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say

But everything looks perfect from far away,

'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your

Machine but the persistent beat it sounded

Thin upon listening

And that frankly will not fly. You will hear

The shrillest highs and lowest lows with

The windows down when this is guiding you home

Such great heights - The Postal Service

listen:
spoon - I turn my camera on
BLOC PARTY - Banquet - Phones Disco Edit
her space holiday - my girlfriend's boyfriend



Isn't it funny how last nights O.C only played the new Beck Guero album..alittle TKO by Le Tigre and the evil lesbian girl has a Postal Service poster in her room? her awesomeness factor just went up by 5 points...except now its gonna go down 6 cos she wants to kick ryan's ass for hanging with marissa...talk about over-doing it with the jealously. Hey that always stops me from liking someone...when their crazed girlfriend brings over her posse just to kick ur ass...hmm..i think she'd better rethink that one b4 we all hate her...whoops too late. Anyway i rather enjoyed the O.C last night..and i have to say the only reason i'm watching Big bro 5 is because of this twin thing. I find it more interesting than the people in the house. in fact last night as i was watching the girls try to get all sexy with the pole dancing i remember thinking how bloody stupid this was. anyway big bro always gets better once you get rid of the dickheads...

ahhh...today i worked. and tomorrow i'll go to uni...have a mini-disc all prepared for the tutorial. I've gone alittle crazy with the sms's to cookie i think....in fact i've been sending him heaps of messages..and the nice boy that he is replies to everyone of them! lol...except maybe i need to give it a break, too many sms can get annoying...i must be annoying him. Anyway...its a wednesday today..and no band practice...so i guess since im not seeing cookie..the txt messages will just have to make up for it...I feel like being a bit riske towards him..i dunno, doing something alittle craaazy & naughty, but i dunno...might scare him.

It's weird, and im gonna share this on here because i can't be stuffed using THE OTHER blog. lol. but honestly i don't think i've ever liked someoned this much...and it doesn't scare me - but what does scare me now, is that I am worried about wether or not he really likes me. Which is weird because Of course he likes me...because if he didn't he wouldn't go out with me at all. But considering Cookie and are still kinda getting to know each other...sharing life stories and what not...i guess i'd want to know if he's feeling what I am. I don't know why i got all paranoid the other night, i don't know why i think these evil thoughts. Is this my way of trying to bring it all down? Oh no, i'm doing it again. Im sabotaging the relationship without even realising it...again! I must be one of those people who can never let themselves just be happy in a relationship. I'm even using that word now, i'm calling it a relationship. I've made it official, and i've now got a my space page, and written next to status it says "in a relationship".
Still kinda scares me, relationships mean things are serious and committed...im not saying i'm not committed...i mean it was kinda fucked up the other night when Ben drunkenly told me that if i ever screwed cookie over i'd be in deep fucking trouble...then i had to ask weakly, "when you say screwed, what exacly do you mean?"not that i'd cheat on cookie, hell no..im not as sluttaay as u biatches think i am - and i wouldn't classify that drunken kiss with Bertie at my b'day as cheating - but seriously one of the reasons i tried to get cookie off my mind was because i was worried that yeah i'd fuck it up somehow...knowing me and my fucked up ness - and then yeah ben and james and deniz would all be like "YOU EVIL SIN SPAWN - get out of the band now before we cut of your head and place it on a spike for all to see and scream at it, EVIL BITCH WHORE FROM HELL"...or something like that...ohh why can't tortures be like the ones in hentai? lol...i'd rather be pleasured to death than malled by a bear or decapitated by a large heavy, slicing object. Yes I'm fucked. but aren't we all? ...well it'll make me feel better knowing we all are.

I know I have problems when I hit the home button on my net browser and instead of ninemsn I get hansonfiction.com

I've been waiting for some answers:
nancythompson - mind,less
from autumn to ashes - the after dinner payback
atreyu - right side of the bed

This will be quick..i gotta get to work by one so i only have a few minutes here. But I felt like a blog so i'll blog dammit. went to a bogan party on friday, sooo boring. shoulda stayed home but I wanted to see cookie. the only reason i went out was cos of cookie. hmm...been having a lot of thoughts lately, I think i need to stress less. paranoia is not good.
Also can i please remind the kind readers of this blog - at the moment i think two people read it and the rest just write stupid shit in my shoutbox - im gonna compile a list of blog links and such soon...been meaning to do that for some time. should start soon while im not as busy...have lots of work to do soon.

anyway cya.