"Your alive"
- "I am, are you?"
"Sadly, yes."



playlist:
DASHBOARD - so beautiful
Pete Murray - So beautiful
Michelle branch - all you wanted
The tea party - the messenger
Evanescence - bring me to life + going under


I need to write something here. I've been having conversations all afternoon. I can't help some people with my get over it advice it seems. Plus just saying that to someone makes me sound like an un-caring bitch which isn't me...not all of the time anyway. Im not a very good bitch though - i think i need some lessons. But i can't help everyone...and i don't know what to say all the time. I can't make someone believe in something thats not there, i can't make someone feel better about themselves. Because often they are looking for something that i can't give them, that i've found impossible to give to anyone.
I only try to be supportive, but is that even enough? I want to help, i wish i could cure someone's angst, someone's disbelief, someone's incurable hatred of themselves.
It must get so bad for someone to want to be killed, to want to be hit...to want to feel pain..anything other than nothing...than being numb.
And im no good to helping people who need it the most, because trying to relate sometimes is too hard, because i don't understand enough. I can't be the one to pick up the pieces and tape them back together...because even if thats all they need someone to pick them up. But there is only so much u can do, over the phone, on the internet...

like i said. If i could i'd send you to Canada.