Do you know what I feel? Do you know how I feel?
Well if you were me, if you were in my position - if you gave up one of the best things in your life - you'd feel like I do right now. You'd feel like you just had the wind knocked out of you. You'd feel like you had just been slapped in the face. You've been replaced. She's better than you. But you always knew that you didn't have the talent to be great at it. But you wanted it anyway. You jumped at the first opportunity. You scrambled at it - you didn't think. You never think. Your pathetic. And now you want it back? And now your jealous, but you always knew you would be. You always knew you'd have a hard time accepting and dealing with the idea. Change is not something you respond to well - especially if it was forced. So there goes your chance. You closed your eyes for a moment, you got caught up in the career you thought you wanted. You forgot your dreams and your aspirations. And so here you are, hating every moment of it wishing you could go back to the way things used to be. Silly girl. Everything has changed. Your a fool to think you could walk back in. But you know that, you know it all too well. And you know that you would have been driven crazy by it all. But you hate what you have, but don't we always want what we can't have.