i think i've hit a new low - crying at work for like the tenth million time. Usually its Jules who can make me break down in tears at work. Im seriously, not this emotional. I've never been an emotional person like this - everyone has their moments but this is getting ridiculous. Im just tired of the pressure, of not living up to others expectations. Im still learning, i'm still making mistakes, no one is perfect and i am far from it. I had hoped that i would have grown out of this by now, that the homesickness would have stopped, that I would have settled. I still don't consider this my home at all. I know im not ready to move on, but i'd rather be anywhere but here right now. I think there are some things i enjoy alot, and some things that i hate. And im figuring out what i hate pretty damn quickly. I think i might focus on going in a different direction, or at least figure out what i want to do.