WELL

this has been a long time coming. My private place on the net is still here. I'm kinda glad, it's like a little homecoming for me. Blogger has always been the place to get the skinny on me - and i guess im just returning to my roots now. myspace gives me the shits and facebook is full of text and stupid stuff i can't keep up with. I just want to write. not anything fancy. just want to get all these words and thoughts that are stuck in my head out. And im guessing that most of my friends no longer check this, so maybe its finally a "true" space for me. Ah well, i've never tried to be anything but myself on here.

so back to my diary blog - its like im letting the world back in again. Exposing myself once more to you..whoever you may be.

It's almost christmas. I've been working as a dvd co-ordinator since march now. I'm no longer in with the radio crowd. I've just drifted away from that career path and thrown myself into retail once more. I enjoy my work. I love working with different people and I love a challenge. I miss music more. I miss being creative in pro-tools and production and that. I kinda really love it when i get a chance to do a display at work. I get all arts and craftsy again - but all i have to work with is yellow cardboard, black textas and red ink. ahh - i still make one hell of a heroes display. in fact one of my Tinkerbell display came second recently in a contest. I won a disney prize back full of winnie the pooh soft toys. I'm gonna share it with my disney merchandiser - she's great and did most of the work...i've still got a massive tinkerbell hanging thing at work next to my desk. I have to say though - i've made some good friends at my new workplace (10 months new). Courtney is an amazing person to work with - she runs a tight ship. I never thought i'd find an ally in her when i first met her. I thought she was older - not that she looks it - but she was just so serious! I felt like a fraud. I was so scared and lost when i started. It took me a few weeks to find my feet. I'm still discovering things about the place. The shop is so old that there are hidden bathrooms, bordered up staircases and leaky cellings.

I realise now that i haven't disclosed a whole heap of information about where i work. Um, i just don't want weridos annoying me i guess. I just work in the dvd dept for a hi-fi store. thats the gist of it.

I've recently discovered that I am a lazy work-a-holic. I've mentioned this on facebook - but what i mean is that essentially im a lazy person. I am at my best when i am doing nothing. I'm more than happy to stay home all day long and do nothing but waste time reading, watching tv and dvds and playing my rpgs. I enjoy work - there are days when i don't want to go. But there are alot of days when I really want to go to work and accomplish something.

Twilight is my new obsession. Don't read past blogs - cos then you'll know what an obsessive personality i have...but twilight has re-ignited a passion in me that I thought i'd lost. I find myself wanting to write again, to re-tell stories that had been in my head over 7 years ago...and not just fan fiction. I think its more my love for a romance and adventure. Sounds very mills & boon but i promise its not. Maybe what i need to do is take a creative writing course, might help me re-learn grammer and spelling and how to write a correct sentence that doesn't sound like shit. lol

paramore - i caught myself


i might get to work early tomorrow and get a head start with some GH world tour. nothing like a bit of guitar hero in the morning.

i think i've run out of things to say. till next time.