i need to write this. my other blog just has three lines. Maybe i should go into detail.
I know later on when i calm down, and when my thoughts settle...this will all make more sense.
I feel so excited about this, im scared too. I don't want to run away again, cos it could be the biggest damn mistake of my life, and i regret too much already.
But this is the next step I guess, and i think im ready to take it. I dunno if i deserve it, but fuck that.

I wasn't looking for this, i was hoping that it would happen eventually. Maybe not this soon, but this is good. Sooner than i expected. I've been happy lately, but i can't explain how i feel it would be impossible. Because there cannot be one word that sums up every little thing i'm feeling. i feel like im at the top of the world. For real. But im scared too...because this could just come crashing down, i could make all this just fall and fail. But i can't let myself do that before i've even given this relationship a chance.

Tonight has been sooo weird. So good though. I never imagined it would end this way, it would end with me feeling like i want to jump around and scream.
I dunno if things are making sense yet....not for me...probably not for those of u reading either. lol. my head is spinning. literally. if im not careful my head will explode..

and im hungry and tired now.

OK, i'll get to the long awaited point of this blog. I am well i guess u could say...no longer single. Which is weird..cos i remember telling my nail girl that i was currently happy being single...whoops. that has to be a lie - cos i'm fucking over the moon about not being single now.

A few things were revealed tonight, and its safe to say that Jon Tu and I (Ev Ham) (lol) are together after one long phone call of giggles and incomprehensible sentences.


and now i am going to bed. And I know I will get no sleep tonight....




p.s - my last post are lyrics i wrote awhile back. u could prolly guess what their about..but some of it confuses me...cos i don't remember it all or what was going thru my head at the time. But i really like it .