playlist:
Noise Rachet - Crush (mandy moore cover - is good if u can get past the first 20 seconds)
Further seems forever - bye bye bye (nsync cover)
The startling line - Im real (j.lo cover)
Snuff - I think we're alone now
[[the first 3 songs in the playlist are from the Punk Goes Pop cd.]]

"Crush"

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i feel
I wish everyone would disappear
Everytime you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

Does anyone remeber their first serious REAL crush. Im not talking about the Kindergarten childish ones. Or the ones we had in primary school. Im talking about the real thing, when you can't eat, you can't sleep because when you try to sleep your thinking about your crush. When you sit in classes, your distracted because your thinking about what your crush said to you the night before in that 6 hour long conversation you had. You over analyse things, you think about that second time you saw him - when you really saw him - when you thought to yourself "Hey, this time it could actually happen".
The song lyrics above remind me of that. of the last time I seriously had a crush on someone. Actually, it was my first real crush. I had a few afterwards, and im not naming names cos its embarrassing - cos those ppl may actually read this blog. And im not gonna bring up the past. But i do. lol. i regret the past. because my past is filled with 'what ifs' and that just brings me down and i lose focus of the now.

anyway. im gonna see Kill Bill this afternoon in the city. can't wait. Im looking forward to some beheading/ bloodshed/ maiming/ decapitation. i'll write more later.

this blog is incredibly superfical. I write total shit in this blog. I've been wanting to be more opinionated here...but im lacking in opinions.

I see i have 23 comments for one of my blogs. And i see that not one of those blogs contains any decent comments. I'd like to say YOU ALL SUCK. well most of u suck balls anyway - im not gonna say who. you know who you are. i take back what i originally said in an earlier post, from now on ONLY intelligent comments. You know i try to do something good for my site and you all totally trash it with stupid comments. but i should be thankful cos some ppl actually bothered. even if they wrote crap.

im stuck on a chorus. can't think of one to fit. Im getting close to working it out - but now im stuck.

Alot has happened in the last week and a bit. And alot of what has happened i wasn't there for. lol. I couldn't go to Al's party cos i came down sick that morning with some mysterious 24 hour bug that attacked my stomach - and oddly i blame my sister's cooking from the night b4 - so i missed that party and getting drukenly stupid with the others, but by the sounds of the party everyone had a great time and one massive orgy.

lisa had some problems during the week, i tried to help her our with that. And i learnt some things about ppl close to me that made me sick. But then i realised i didn't actually care. People can do what they want, that's fine. Just people need to start being responsible for their actions i think. I know we are all almost 20 or 21 and having a fucking good time getting drunk..but sometimes u gotta step back and think about what ur doing and the implications of it etc etc.
Sorry im getting all moral on you, didn't mean to. But i've had a wake up call, im not the same Ev that you all knew a week ago. NO. i've gained a deeper sense of my morals, of what i want. Essentially its still me underneath all this, but i think im less confused now. Mainly cos there is nothing left to confuse me.

anyway. i gtg. please write some comments, tell me what you think, or if u want to know something or bitch at me. All of it is welcome. just click the link comment at the bottom of this blog and away u go.

nite all. And merry christmas. *muahs*

im just tired. soo tired. and no one has written me a comment! GRRR. I know people read this. Are you scared? is that it? Is it scary to write down a line? a word? COME ON! don't be anti-social with me and TALK! let me hear your thoughts - your deepest darkest secrets - share with me your feelings on subjects ANYTHING. abuse me, do whatever as long as one of your bloody well leaves me a comment.

i was gonna write more stuff. but i can't be stuffed again. BUT if someone leaves me a comment then i shall reply here. so make it good!

ok. just testing. below this blog, after the line "posted by evesy @ blah time" is a little blue link that says 'comment' and a little number after it. I've been meaning to put some sort of comment system on this blog for awhile...and im just testing this out to see if anyone would actually bother writing me their thoughts or whatever on what i've got here. So give it a go, write crazy stuff and abuse me for the fun of it - i don't care just as long as someone uses it. someone other than me.

Im tired. my arms are sore. my feet are sore. my eyes are sleepy. My head is headachey. And people suck. I just read someone's blog and it made me wanna slap someone. And i read alot of blogs - cos other people's lives are just more interesting than my own. I decided the other day that i would write things in this blog which mean something more and something more profound than just what i did and didn't do today.

But whatever i say your all gonna judge me anyway. You will all criticise me for my bad spelling, my incorrect truths, indecisive-ness, for my ignorance and fucked up point of view. Why i do things, no matter how stupid, usually have some sort of reasoning behind it. Ok. thats not true and i knew it, but still wrote it. See i even try lying to myself somtimes. doesn't really work.

Tell me, who in this world knows what they want? What they really want. Not some half-baked idea of what they think would be nice or would like to have. Who has everything they want, is anyone truly happy? And how can someone live with their decisions - even the bad ones.
I wish i had some idea why i'm never happy, why i can't be happy. Why i have to turn everything into some dramatic tragedy.
I wish i had back what I lost. And i think im looking for that again, for a feeling. For all that time and energy i spent when i was younger being in love with idols. And now im not prepared, now im just making it up as i go and fucking it up every step of the way.
And i can't stand it. I hate myself more than anyone will know because of this, because i won't let myself fall into a trap, because i don't want to play the game but secretly want to.
I used to know what i wanted. I had it all figured out. I never really thought about relationships, boys were just something to look at. But maybe now i see that i want something more, i want someone. But right now isn't the time. I just disappointed myself with Jon, i just couldn't see him as something more than as a friend.
Everyone thinks im so fucking careless, indecisive, and fucking clueless to what i want. And yeah, maybe i am alittle. I do act like its all no big deal, and i can't believe im writing this all down, but really for me, it is a big deal or it will be some time in the future. I don't think about it much because i really don't want to, But i've always imagined myself finding the right person, but considering the traditional values of marriage etc, the idea of staying with the same person for my whole life is kinda daunting and sounds boring, but i guess if i find that someone i want to spend my life with then im sure i'll think differently about it.
Im not looking for That someone now though, im just looking for something. What that is i don't know yet, but i hope i'll know it when i find it.

i feel dizzy now. like im about to fall of this chair.

The best thing on days like this is a foot bath.
I wish i had one of those electrical ones, you know a spa for your feet. But for me, just sitting on the edge of the bathtub and sitting my feet in a few inches of water does the trick.
And ice cream is good too. I had some before - and ahhh bliss.
It's weird how on hot days i appreciate the little things, how good a foot bath feels, how refreshing ice cream can be.
But i also realised that public transport is the devil and who ever decided that those mini buses don't need proper air cond should be SHOT IN THE HEAD. fuck it was hotter in the bus than it was outside.
Right now all i wanna do is have a cold bath and wash my hair. so if you'll excuse me. ta ta

I must be invisible. No one can see me. Or no one cares to see me. or wants to. When i come online ppl must be like this "Oh...its ev. *sigh*"
I don't talk to everyone online...but a nice HI is good enough. BUt nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...i am invisible.

I went out last nite to lily's party - and klein was there, and lisa was there and Eamon was there. and i had a pretty good time. lisa got to sit on me, i got very very light headed, and mark's teeth got hurt. i think. mark also got lost on the way to my house hehe...like a little lost puppy. heheee.
ANYWAY - im in a pretty good mood today, i sat on the couch this morning watched DEAD MAN and the naked chief.

and im pretty hungry rite now actually.

i was gonna post but now i don't feel like it.

I just wrote a whole thing. AND NOW ITS GONE! ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!STUPID COMPUTER STUPID INTERNET THAT DECIDED NOT TO WORK!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

I'LL COME BACK LATER AND WRITE IT ALL AGAIN. I REALLY CANT BE BOTHERED RIGHT NOW ANYMORE. argh!

Im trying to sort out my feelings. And maybe thats wrong of me to do so right now. But i need to figure out how i really feel, why im feeling like this, and tonight is just a test for myself. Can i do it? Can i be what he wants? Can i be what i want? WHAT the fuck do i want? it would be nice if i wasn't so complicated. I don't know why i am. I think im just in a weird place, and i don't need ppl reminding me of what a past bf was like - because it just makes me regret and think i made a mistake and makes me wanna slap myself for not being smart back then. But i live with my mistakes. and no, i don't like steve or anything like that. BUT im gonna compare right - so steve compared to jon - so far steve gets the brownie points - but i know jon reads this and he will get offended - BUT fuck these are my thoughts, deal with it. BUT then again with JOn i like the not being bugged every day by a boyfriend - of course steve didn't really bug..he did afterawhile though. maybe i shouldn't be writing this here - i'll stop. i'll continue on my other page.

this blog mite get deleted cos of its content - SO for a good few hours it'll be online - and tomorrow i mite post something i actually wrote b4 all that junk up there - but for other reasons i won't be posting today.

This morning I was greeted to th sweet sounds of 1970's Funk on Syn fm. and it was sooo damn good. And now im craving more! but rite now i lovveeeeee missy E's pass the dutch - makes me wanna boogie.
Im trying to write a cover letter and fix up my resume for a new job i want to go for. But for some reason i doubt i'll get the job, but i might as well try you know. No harm in that, just another rejection letter.
OOh i have my results for the last semester of uni! It seems i have passed yet again. My marks could have been better - but yayness its over. Next year will be better, im doing funkier subjects, animation and radio will be soooooo damn cool. I don't get why they put all the good subjects in first semester though - cos second semester is just so...shite. My only options were digital media cultures and two other odd subjects. I can't see how im gonna do film critism, i know i can be opinionated, but can i be detailed in my dislikes of a film? big words are not a part of my vocab either...well not my everyday vocab anyway. and my spelling had worsened, as you can tell just by reading this blog.
Im gonna go do something interesting, like watch neighbours...or eat chocolate.

byesss.

playlist:
Missy E - pass the dutch
P.diddy etc - Show me your soul
Cowboy Be Bop OST - Tank!
Third eye blind - Misfits


I am soo very tired. And i can't type well rite now, cos its dark and i can't see my keyboard. damn black keyboards - should be fucking glo-in the-dark.
Anyway, so how was everyone's weekend? Mine was interesting.
Went to amber lounge. then went to spy lounge and danced. And was there till 5 something..my feet are still a little sore. My big toe is itchy - which is weird and it feels fairly numb. Im reading a book called "the ice storm" which was made into a film a few years ago...a really good film actually directed by Ang Lee.
There are some good shows on tv tonite - monday nite is the best nite on tv me thinks. Sbs has some new sketch show on which rocks my socks off..and south park is still v. enetratiing
And im just talking shit now. So i'll go sleeep.

playlist:
sugababes - hole in the head
blue + stevie W and angtie stone - signed, sealed, delivered.
NFG - head on collision
mxpx - everything sucks (all i ever needed was to eat popcorn with you)
Michelle Branch - breathe
black eyed peas - shut up
bodyjar - glossy books
Cat power - Cross bones style
Eve6 - think twice


so it turns out that i have ONE little spot on my tonsils. ONE. But its ok now, cos im on drugs now. So by tomorrow or monday i should be totally clear. But im feeeling really good tonite, like i wanna boogie. But those of u who know me, know that out of all my habits - singing everywhere is one of my worst. Usually i try to limit it to singing in ppl's cars - but when im home and say for instance, when im in front of the comp with my playlist running - im probably singing along. BUT cos im sick - im trying not to sing cos im having trouble talking at the moe so singing would make it so much worse.
Also another bad habit is talking to myself when im on the comp lol. My mom just came in here b4 and asked who i was talking too..I didn't even think i was talking that time!

You know everytime im on the net and i read someone's blog, im always inspired to write in my own but then i run out of things to say. i duno why. i think i used to write alot more back in the days when i didn't think anyone read this. And i don't think anyone actually does read it, but those few who do...thank u :)

I got an e-mail today from my old music teacher from back at MLC. Mr. Gardiner. He still has my e-mail addy...so he sent me info on a music lable cd launch thats on the 9th of dec. Its for electronic music and stuff...im not gonna go of course, cos that would be weird, but it sounds interesting.


I just got d/c by my mum. she used the phone WHEN she KNEW i was on the internet...grrr. meanie.
anyway gtg.

playlist:
joy enriquez - tell me how you feel
filter - take a picture

im off to the doctor's today! to have a check up, to check out my throat. woo.
So i'd better have breakfast, cos i won't be home till afternoon....cos im leaving in 30 minutes.
My jeans smell like smoke. ewww. i haven't decided if im going out tonite or not..rach wants me to come...but i have no cash..If i go i don't drink..i'll just try and be hyper without the alc.

went out yesterday with lisa and mark street. We went to studly park and fed ducks...lisa had one trained lol, and we sat on a pipe..looked at the boat house.

if you would like to bitch at me please SIGN MY GUESTBOOK ON THIS SITE www.geocities.com/evesygal - cos i was there the other day and i have no new entries! so give me some love or hate...just wanna know what u think

OK. first off. While i am insanely happy...i am also alittle weirder out already. I'd like to thank Justin for his e-mail - BUT please don't scare me with the Mr & Mrs Tu stuff...cos that just makes me wanna scream...i really don't like it...and i hated it when Will used to tease me about becoming ms. maunder....don't freak me out just yet. I don't like expectations...cos in the end whatever happens happens. And im not gonna get ahead of myself just yet. lol.

Also i'd like to say to JON - thanks for the icq msg, you told me not to take the last line seriously...BUT when ever u say not to take u seriously - I think u need to be taken seriously. Whatever happens in the end..you are worth my time....never think your not. I will give this relationship a try..but even if it doesn't work out u know i'll always love u as a friend - and as a friend you are always worth my time. I value friendship over many things, and some things will never change. I'll give u a better explaination later ok?

Anyway...I'VE MADE THE LEGO CASTLE! WOOt. i shall have pictures soon once i bother to upload them on the comp. I thought it would be cool to make a little web lego comic or sumthing though with it...cos...it would be a waste to take down the castle just yet.

I remember stormy weather
The way the sky looks when its cold
And you were with me
Content with walking
so unaware of the world

Please don;t drive me home tonight
cos i don't wanna feel alone
please don't drive me home tonight
cos i don't wanna go

Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out who you were

I took your picture
While you were sleeping
And then I paced around the room
If I had known then
That these things happen
Would they have happened with you?

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who you are

And if you turned around to see me and I was gone
You should have looked outside your window
'Cause the sun was coming up
The sun was coming up

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who we are
who we are


Michelle BRanch - Tuesday Morning -

i need to write this. my other blog just has three lines. Maybe i should go into detail.
I know later on when i calm down, and when my thoughts settle...this will all make more sense.
I feel so excited about this, im scared too. I don't want to run away again, cos it could be the biggest damn mistake of my life, and i regret too much already.
But this is the next step I guess, and i think im ready to take it. I dunno if i deserve it, but fuck that.

I wasn't looking for this, i was hoping that it would happen eventually. Maybe not this soon, but this is good. Sooner than i expected. I've been happy lately, but i can't explain how i feel it would be impossible. Because there cannot be one word that sums up every little thing i'm feeling. i feel like im at the top of the world. For real. But im scared too...because this could just come crashing down, i could make all this just fall and fail. But i can't let myself do that before i've even given this relationship a chance.

Tonight has been sooo weird. So good though. I never imagined it would end this way, it would end with me feeling like i want to jump around and scream.
I dunno if things are making sense yet....not for me...probably not for those of u reading either. lol. my head is spinning. literally. if im not careful my head will explode..

and im hungry and tired now.

OK, i'll get to the long awaited point of this blog. I am well i guess u could say...no longer single. Which is weird..cos i remember telling my nail girl that i was currently happy being single...whoops. that has to be a lie - cos i'm fucking over the moon about not being single now.

A few things were revealed tonight, and its safe to say that Jon Tu and I (Ev Ham) (lol) are together after one long phone call of giggles and incomprehensible sentences.


and now i am going to bed. And I know I will get no sleep tonight....




p.s - my last post are lyrics i wrote awhile back. u could prolly guess what their about..but some of it confuses me...cos i don't remember it all or what was going thru my head at the time. But i really like it .

15-10-03 – Cruel -
I think of how easy it would be
To leave you lying
Alone with the guilt and blood on your hands

I wanted to leave you broken
Make you feel as sick as I do now
I hated you then and the sight of you makes me ill

Every single moment we spent together
I hate the memories I have of you
I was so bored with you and your like

I let you go because I didn’t like you
You were dismissed because I didn’t need you
I left you because of what you said
And of what you didn’t say

It was cruel of me to do it
But I wanted to make you feel
All my sadness,
Every single scar you left
I was so sick of feeling hurt
And I blame you for it.

Playlist:
Daft Punk - digital love
R.Kelly - Thoia Thong
Maroon 5 - Harder to breathe
Planet Funk - The Switch

Hey all.
Today has been hot! hot as. nice but hot. And its making me sleepy this weather.
On Wednesday I handed in my last essay for the year, it was exactly one week late...but at least its done. And i've enroled on the net soooo all i have to do is wait for the results on the net and wait for my enrolement form which i may not get till january...i dunno. Anyway, so i'm relaxing at home. Not going out this week, i shall next week. Im just catching up on sleep, playing some PS2 (kingdom hearts kicks booty) and i'm just downloading some music to send to my sister at MM.
She'll be back on the 1st of december...arghhh. which means i have to clean my room, cos it is...mess. total chaos. there are clothes everywhere...i haven't made my bed properly in a month...My logic is, why make my bed when i'm only gonna sleep in it and mess it up again in a couple of hours anyway! But yes, i am lazy. I'll clean my room tomorrow...yep. tomorrow.

Im planning on seeing KILL BILL and Matrix next week. Cos if i don't see it like now, i'll never see it and then i'll be all bummed and annoyed with myself. So i must go see. And i'll prolly go out next week, see what morgs is doing...U know, I've seen her TWICE in less than a week. I saw her last week at the bus stop at shoppo and i saw her again (but in her baker's delight uniform...pleats in shorts?) at the bus stop at shoppo on wednesday. Keep running into her there...we've agreed that we'll both go out one nite with shazz...go and boogie and such.

ahh. i really don't think my mum should complain about my room though...my brother just moved all his stuff back home and there are bags everywhere! gotta set up his computer later and play my game of sim city...hehe.

Meanwhile, u should all go anc check out the U.S site for FFX-2. it's in english, which means it makes sense...unlike the jap site which totallt confused the hell outta me...too many buttons. http://www.square-enix-usa.com/games/FFX-2/

And steve sent me an addy for a FFX-2 "which character are you" type quiz....he got Yuna...LOL...hehe
Myself on the other hand..


You're Paine! Fighting can solve anything and get
you you're way in life! nobody better cross
your path!


Which FFX-2 Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

So there ya have it folks.

OH! there is a doco on missy E on sbs tonite! so make sure ya'll watch it ;)

Yellow - coldplay

look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow
I came along
I wrote a song for you
and all the things you do
and it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
oh wh at a thing to have done
and it was all yellow


your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
you know I love you so
you know I love you so


I swam across
I jumped across for you
oh what a thing to do
'cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
oh what a thing to do
and it was all yellow


and your skin
oh yeah your skin and bones
turn into something beautiful
and you know
for you I bleed myself dry
for you I bleed myself dry


it's true
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine


look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do


GOOD MORNING everyone! actually i should be saying good evening..but fuck the formalities.
Well My studying is going OK. i know what i have to do..planned out my whole essay, it just might take me an extra day to write..fuck. Yeah, i probably could have had it done today, but for some reason i'm getting distracted really easily...like..oh there's my cat....stare for a good minute...huh...oh back to work.
I've been like that all day. and music is distracting even when its turned down really really low. BUT i have the windows media player no.9! yay..i discovered it today when i couldn't find the icon for windows media..and somehow the new version has installed its self...hmmm..maybe my brother had something to do with it.
Do you know he was watching his new porn dvd on this computer? THAT IS JUST SICK..cos....eww...this chair..i should swap chairs. Him and his strange friends were all having a porn video session last saturday morning in geelong..which i'm soo glad i missed.
Its soo funny cos he's so ashamed and embarressed around other girls with his porn birthday presents..he tried not to show the "gifts" to his chick friends at his party...lol...soo funny.

But anyway back to my windows media player..i am currently playing every single song on this computer thats in a My music folder...ehehe. well i'm skipping thru the johnny cash and elton john tracks of course - my dad has baddd music taste though..he really likes hick type music...its fucking strange the shit i hear him listeing to.

Anyway gtg the bill and the simpsons are on. later. ah but first alan needs my help...alas my work here is never done.

Songs i've been singing today:
Lara Fabian - I will love again
Limp Bizkit - Nookie
Christina Ag - Come on over
50 cent - thug love
702 - where my girls at
Hanson - This Time Around and Can't stop
Joey McIntyre - stay the same
j.lo - if you had my love

I can't find the shuffle button on my winamp! lol. its not on the skin and its kinda annoying. lol.
But i have a pretty good winamp skin..its a Utena skin, its bright orange, pretttty mad. My winamp 3 player has a rikku skin which i rather like also. and i have some flamey skin that rocks my socks..so my winamps kick booty.

Today was the longest day ever. You know i actually ate dinner at 6 pm. I had some microwaved stuff...which i think was a rip off cos its now 10:51pm and i'm still hungry.
I actually did work today, tomorrow i have to write it up and then hand it in on wednesday and then i have to start the next essay. A few days late won't matter much, so its ok. Anyway my tutor is overseas while we are all slaving away on essays...sooo by the time he gets back my essay will be waiting with the rest to be marked...so lateness shouldn't be an issue. i'm not making any sense, my head is getting alittle dizzy.

I've been a bad bad girl. I was planning on buying a video game this week, AFTER i did my essays, well after the geelong adventure, me and my brother were in the city wasting time before the bus was to arrive, and i decided i would show him the video game store in the city and then we would go to missing link..cos they've moved to a nice location on burke street. But we disagreed with their shop sign..go read it - cos there are alot better independent stores in melbourne..such as..my brother tells me Au-go-go. Just a little pretencious and full of themselves.

So anyway! we went to the store..had a look at the dvds...had a look at the new sims game...cos i was tempted to buy another sims expansion pack...THEN we looked at the PS2 games..they have the new buffy game and we were looking at dark angel, and all these other titles, too many to name.
Then we came to the platnium games..NOW i'm not a cheap ass - i paid full price for my beautiful copy of final fantasy x which was worth every cent, And two games that i've been wanting for awhile just happen to be platnium..so cheaper for me..which equals yayness.
So it was a toss up between Kingdom hearts and Rachet and Clank. Both equally fantastico games. AND i wasn;t gonna buy a game that day..but since i was there..and my bro would need something to do while i took over his room and the computer for the next few days, i thought WHAT THE HELL and we tossed a coin and it landed heads and we were supposed to buy rachet and clank. BUT last minute i changed my mind and got Kingdom hearts..and i must say i am very very very happy with my purchase. And my bro doesn't think its as stupid anymore...cos I MEAN it HAS CLOUD, and Aerith(voice by mandy moore lol) and it had wakka and tidus and yuffie and selphie! and Leon/squall! AND IT HAS TARZAN! how mad is that! and you can have tarzan in your party and he kicks booty! and i've always been a fan of Tarzan..maybe cos he looks so much like IKE! LOL..some of you would get that..But when the Tarzan film came out, I was with leanne..and we were like IKE IKE IKE! the whole time...ahh memories. But damn, the voice talent is pretty cool...when i heard Aerith speak i was thinking...that sounds like mandy moore - and it is! AND leon is david boreanaz....mmmm...and
BUt so far its a great game and to quote justin Timberlake "i'm lovin' it" .

BUt i should be doing my work. I should be. I did today though...so thats good. Lisa did my survey :) which is v. good. so now i can write lots of stuff about it. I'm report writing..so that'll be a nice welcome change from doing stupid usual essay format crap.

anyway, i'm off. NITE *MUAH*

i was gonna write a post. but i feel too sick to write anything. And i'm supposed to be writing an essay now...gah. i'm behind in all my work, and i have to go to my bro's 21st...which i really shouldn't go to, but i will cos i'm a nice person. and no one can come with me cos they all have work and stufff...i don't blame them..im so stressed about work..i dunno how i can have any fun on friday.

songs:
underneath - hanson (kinda my theme for the week)
good charlotte - emotionless
nivea- feat jagged edge + mystical - don't mess with my man (remix)
Yeah yeah yeahs - miles away

Underneath - Hanson

Waking up this morning thinking this can't be real
They say there's nothing love can't heal
Why don't you come on down so you can feel what I feel

Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we're here face to face
There is nothing gone but there's something wrong

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
That you make it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath

I don't know what to say, would some know where to begin
I'm feeling that it's you beneath my skin
Well, if there was a notion for this pain that I'm in

Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we're here face to face
There is nothing gone, but there's something wrong

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
That you make it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath
You'll find me underneath

If only you could feel what I dream
Maybe you hear what I mean
There is nothing gone but there's something...

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
You make it hard to breathe
Take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath
You'll find me underneath
Underneath

* * *

IT'S DONE! THE HAIR HAS BEEN CUT. lol. sorry, i know i'm making a big deal. i have pictures if anyone is interested? lol, i took pictures to send to my sister, cos she's away..and she's in a shit attitude at the moe, so she needs cheering up and pictures of me. naturally.

I am in a very good mood. the weather is great, i've been busy, and its been goot! I went out last night, which at first i was alittle worried about it, Shaz took me out to the 'Pool room' which is out in fern tree gully...far away. lol. I was expecting heaps of yobos and shit..there were a couple, but the night was pretty good. And i met shaz's friends and they are all very cool very nice people. But i had a few too many drinks last night, Shaz said he counted that i had about 6 drinks, and then started asking him not to give me anymore..and i still can't remember if i had both drinks...nevermind. lol, my memory is a little fuzzy, but i funnily enough i still remember everyone's names...lol. actually...no i do :)

But apart from all that from last night, i've been having a good day here. I made a cassette for Aub, i cleaned the house, and i've done stuff. And i've sat here in front of the computer for alittle too long looking at the sanity website and going through the pages and pages of animated dvds and videos...i'm up to page 29. But sanity is having a little sale, and a couple of anime films are on sale really cheap! BUT i will tell u all now, the uncut version of Ninja Scroll is coming out really really soon. But Sanity have wicked city, and vampire hunter and ghost in the shell cheap...sooo yay. But im looking forward to the uncut version of ninja scroll - which i've only seen once, and it really wasn't that graphic...the rape scene was kinda tame. But what really excites me is that sanity have Legend of the Overfiend on dvd. And i've been wanting to see that film, mostly because its mentioned in all my academic readings for my media topic.

I got into the animation class for cinema studies next year, woo! I'm really happy i got my first preferences for all my classes in cinema, but i can't actually remember what the codes on my form mean..and i don't exactly remember what the classes are...so i'll have to check that. I only hope that tomorrow when i get my media preference form back that i'm not too disappointed, because i dunno what i'll do if i don't get into radio production. there go all my plans..for a second time.

my mum got the matrix reloaded from the video store, so i'm gonna go watch, and eat something while i'm at it. hmmm...tim tams.

Mood: content
songs in my head: Third Eye Blind - Another Life

On the 14th of October it was Rach's birthday. She's 20 years old now. I wonder what she did, if she had a party, if she went out for dinner, anything.
But i'm not supposed to care, right?
Its hard to stop caring and to hate someone you've known for so long. But its even harder to come to terms with, when you realise that you never knew them at all.

Its a really nice day today. I'm getting my hair cut tonite, woo. I've had long hair for long enough, its time for it to go! Kinda makes me wish i was going out tonight. The last time i actually cut my hair was back in April. lol, and its now October..you know how they say you should cut your hair every 6-8 weeks to avoid split ends? yeah..well i basically ignore that. my hair is all ends :)
Actually now that i remember, the last time i cut my hair..i went to Street's cocktail party - *sigh* those were the good old days. lol. i'm feeling alot older now, i think responsibility has finally slapped me on the ass. I want to start making it on my own now, because i think i'm finally ready to do that.

Lisa sent me an e-mail, and there is a picture of a kitten in a beer glass...reminds me of the bonsai kittens site. lol.

Its almost 9am. This is the second last week of uni..woo.
I think i should probably go and do some work...i've been trying to do work all week, lol, but i haven't been too productive. Yesterday i finally got round to opening word and then i wrote down a biblography listing of all the books i took out of the lib. So from 10:30am ish till 8pm ish what exactly did i do all day? well apart from chatting to people all day, i updated my website, again. I read other people's blogs and then wondered why they don't update often enough. I went to some old websites, wondered why they didn't update anymore, then i visited a few other sites, and downloaded a whole stack of mp3s..and i still have more to download....urghh..this downloading is soo draining...who knew u could get tired from doing nothing?

ha. horrid. thats a funny word. Say it in a sentence like "OH how horrid" and with an english accent. haha. You know when your not really hungry, but u go and have a snack and then afterwards your like, "mmm. i want more" i feel like that right now. I have lots of work to do..but i really can't be bothered doing it..cos i would rather write bullshit in this blog than be actually doing something productive.
I updated my website the other day, tuesday i think. the front page looks cool and the index looks shite. I should probably move away from geocities, cos makes me go "arghhh" and maybe i should get more creative...maybe its time for frames? LOL. i have no html knowledge whatso ever...but i like fucking with pictures in photoshop..i only know a few basic things, but its fun...anyway.
The anime pictures i used for my website were of Revolutionary Girl Utena...go here http://www.ohtori.nu/ this site has heaps of info and pics and is damn pretty to look at.


"Not A Pretty Girl" - ani difranco
I am not a pretty girl
that is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distess
and I don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

I am not an angry girl
but it seems like I've got everyone fooled
every time I say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling

and I am sorry
I am not a maiden fair
and I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere

and generally my generation
wouldn't be caught dead working for the man
and generally I agree with them
trouble is you gotta have youself an alternate plan
and I have earned my disillusionment
I have been working all of my life
and I am a patriot
I have been fighting the good fight
and what if there are no damsels in distress
what if I knew that and I called your bluff?
don't you think every kitten figures out how to get down
whether or not you ever show up

I am not a pretty girl
I don't want to be a pretty girl
no I want to be more than a pretty girl

DJ EV. that doesn't sounds too cool. Maybe because i should never become a DJ - because my name is too horrid and too evil to be allowed next to the title of DJ.
My bro is having his 21st b'day party on the 31st of October - all my friends are invited to come along (i don't expect any of my friend to actually go)- BUT its in geelong. LOL. how the fuck are people gonna get there...i dun even know how i'll get there...But its gansta themed - and my bro has basically asked me to do some compliation cds for him - just some funky stuff, and tracks from soundtracks. I can't believe that my brother would actually leave me in charge of music for his fucking party - he is sooo stubborn, ignorant, and biased when it comes to music. If i tell him a band is good..he'll say its shit just because - THEN a month later a friend of his will tell him about the same band and then its fucking awesome. and thats just stoopid. I was downloading The Distillers the other nite..and he was like "WHY the fuck are u downloading them! YOU don't like them! You listen to fucking pop" And he hates it when i like some band he does. But he is slowly discovering DC...which is nice...cos now when ppl see his DC logo on his phone he can also say he likes the band.

OK. I'M very excited at the moment, because yesterday i got my very own dvd copy of Hanson Live at the Fillmore! wooooooo. I watched it today..and yayness! my dad got me the dvd from ebay...cos i kept nagging him for it - lol now im gonna work on getting the acoustic EP. woo. yeaah i know. i'm all teeny cos i still like hanson..but fuck u. their music makes me happy.

omg..i just found a site....a site i haven't seen in agess..it moved! stupid ppl..wait. stupid people.
anyway. i gotta gooo. australian idol will be on soon. HOW DARE THE STUPID VOTING PUBLIC OF AUSTRALIA NOT VOTE FOR LEVI. that was disgusting last nite. Paulini and Levi were up with Shannon in the bottom three. Rob should have been up there instead of Paulini..that was soooo bad. And Levi gets booted out - soooo unfair. I voted for Levi..so neh.

boogie list:
Jungle Boogie - Kool and the Gang
Across 110th Street - Bobby Womack
Let's stay together - Al Green
Son of a Preacher Man - Dusty Springfield
As time goes by - Louis Armstrong

When i'm in a shite mood - i just put on some music and its just lifts me up and i'm in a fantastic mood for the rest of the day. A funky tune, a profound lyric - a good song can just make me forget about my life, make me forget about whats been troubling me. And make me feel like i can do anything to the right music.
Its kinda like this 'higher' spiritual music experience. So thats what i'll call it for now. But music has always done this to me, always reminded me of who i am, what my aspirations are..or were in some instances. Its inspiring. And damn well makes me want to get down and boogie.

here are some of my latest aquisitions:
Miles Away - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Me Against the Music - Britney feat. Madonna
A little less talk, more action (extended mix) - Tim Delux
Wasted - Cam Farrar
Tangled - Maroon 5
Bigger Than my Body - John Mayer
Troubled - Pink
Light your ass on fire - Busta Rhymes ft. Pharrell
Re-offender - Travis

Low - Kelly Clarkson

Everybody's talking
But they don?t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don't want the sympathy
Its cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
Buy why'd you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low

No I don't need your number
There's nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be sane
My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)

I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can't say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so
So

Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cause what you did was low

I really really like this song. And somehow in my current state it fits. I think i made progress today, i finally came to terms with some stuff that i've been dealing with of late, and i've realise that saying i don't care about things and people is a crock of shit. I care all too much, and thats my problem. I worry, I cry over things that keep me awake at night. I can't sleep when something is on my mind, when something troubles me, when someone hurts me or offends me. I don't understand some people, and I guess i never will. I want to accept people for who they are, and i forget about the shit they've done, but how can u be friends with someone who isn't even a friend back. How can you care about a friend when they don't even have the decentcy to call you or write u an e-mail or let you know something, or trust you..or even tell you that they don't want to be friends with you.
Now, i'm not perfect. Trust me, i'll be the first to admit it. I hate my flaws, my imperfections everything about myself i want to change - i want to change myself my personality, everything, but i'm still learning things and the hard way. I throw myself into the deep end and try to swim. My whole life i've been stuck in situations, difficult situations that i couldn't escape only try to make the best of, my life isn't some comfy holiday, its hard - but i'm learning to appreciate it. And i appreciate every single person in my life, everyone i've ever known has affected me in some way. And i'm glad to say i've even learnt from my mistakes, and from other people - because i've seen how they treat people and i don't want to be like that.

I've done this stupid ranty shit so many times on my blog. I have to keep reassuring myself, that i'm not bad, that i'm not totally hopeless, that one day it will all be worth it. lol.

I wrote a short story last week, its about a boring married couple, who one day crack and try to break their routine lives. I kinda like it, but i needs work.

Anyway..i have a research report to begin.

Playlist:
Buried Myself Alive - The Used
Cute without the E - Taking Back Sunday
Asking Too Much - Ani Difranco
Beautiful - Me'shell Ndegeocello

i Really hate computers that suck. Especially uni computers that have shite keyboards that are really loud when u type and the arrow keys are screwed and you to push them really hard and sometimes twice for them to fricken work!!!
BUT lets look at my stars for today:
OK..lets not. NOpe it works..finally.
Aries Mar 21 - Apr 20
Fri October 10, 2003
An occasional cataclysm is part of the existential mix. As an Aries, you are pressured to be both sensitive and responsibly worldly at the same time. Your tendency for explosion is revealed in all its blazing glory today. To stay creative and balanced, you must dance.

Your lucky numbers are: 9,26
Your lucky colours are: orange,lemon

WOO. HEAR HEAR! I'm gonna boogie 2nite despite the fact that my dancing partnersfor the nite (morgan and aimee) both can't go out..grrr. BUT nevermind. I'm gonna boogie at my place. If anyone would like to join me, you are welcome to come and boogie2nite also.
Meanwhile i need some ideas for music...gansta music..and not that gansta rap stuff..i meaan like those films from the 80s or earlier, you know mob type ganstas..need some godfather soundtracks or maybe the 80's music from scar face...yeaaaah.

OK.here is a very good site for you all to visit about Japan, really interesting stuff. http://members.chello.at/theodor.lauppert/japan/index.htm - and i can't link it right nowon this stupid computer...so go and do a cut and past in anotha window.. But read the posts about Japanese school life, really interesting!

anyway. i have books to find. I have questionnaires to type up..woot.
cya

You have Been Ninjafied

Evelyn Hamlett, from this day forward you will be known as Sly Raver

woo. i've been visiting people's web pages today and i was at Ian's site only a moment ago.

Since i'm doing links to sites, here is a site i reccommend if ur into fan fiction of the hanson variety, but even if u dislike hanson, the fic is still very very good: he spoke softly

aND i've beeen thinking that this blog needs a damn guestbook or sumthing..i was gonna do a blog out thing awhile ago...but i forgot about it..so i'll fix something up soon. But it would make sense if ppl would just go to my webpage and tell me their comments..but obviously thats too difficult for most damn people. wwww.geocities.com/evesygal
yeaa and the layout is fucked but hey..i can't be stuffed. I'd really like to fix this up actually, im thinking maybe i should have used lycos and tripod (cos they have a whole section dedicated to blogging)for this blog..but when i started blogging there wasn't anything like that at the time for blogger users. makes me wish for some html talent...

lol. another site i visit every so often is www.sassybella.com - the chick that runs this site is friends with leanne..and i didn't realise that for awhile lol.

OK. events for this week.
1. My sister has left. woo
2. my bro has left. woo hoo
3. Uni this week. boo
4. I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW. wooo hooooo

I sent out a resume agess ago, like months and months ago for a new subway store opening up in bulleen. And i got a call from them yesterday asking me if i was still interested and that i could attend an interview tonite in bulleen. So i'm alittle nervous, I haven't had an interview in awhile, soo i dunno what to expect. i suppose i'll blog tomorrow or tonite again and tell ya all how it went..but i'm nervous...i've had waayy too much rejection and i don't get how all the stupid people in this world can find jobs..and i can't even get one? hmm. its a conspiracy.

anyway. i gotta get ready, i have to go to the pines and return some books and then go to my grandma's for a little visist and then later go to the interview.
*MUAH*

"Tonight could I be lost forever...To drown my soul in sensory pleasure..."
- Natalie Imbruglia 'Beauty on Fire'

I have been awake since 4 something. I kid u not. I stayed up till 1.30 last nite watching some dodgy Hugh Grant film on tv that was on after 'ten things i hate about you' which isn't as witty a film as i first thought it was, (i guess back in year ten we all thought we were witty too) yet still highly entertaining :)
But back to me being awake so damn early, THE exciting day has come. My little sister, Aubs, has gone to MARSHMEAD! WOO. This means for two glorious months I have my bedroom to myself, not that i do anything in my actual bedroom other than sleep..But that is still a good thing. And my brother will be away at uni in geelong for the next couple of weeks, so it will be very very quiet around here. Just me, mum and dad for the next two months. SO it will either be a really good two months of quiet, or reallly really bad considering my dad is the worst person to live with. He knows how to piss us all off..and me and mum are alike in our tempers, i hate to say it but things could get prettty ugly.
Yesterday we had a farewell lunch for my sister, we went to Camberwell, to the chocolate box centre place..there is a little place there called Fortune Cookie - they have the dammmn best noodles there and its not that expensive at all..but my family has been going there for years and years.
SO ANYWAY, this morning, my sister had to wake up at like 4 something because she had to be at mlc by 6am. So mum wakes up at 4 waits till 4.30 to wake up aubrey, and thus wakes me up..so i was half asleep, half awake. Then at 5 something aubrey turns on all the lights in the bedroom turns on the radio - radio at 5 in the morning sucks - then she says goodbye to me..i mumbled something to her 'Go kick ass, kill and chicken, and eat cake' i dunno i was half asleep. But i couldn't fully go to sleep after that, and then before she left i got up and said good bye properly - cos i would be a rotten sister if i just slept thru my sister's leaving. lol.
So they left at 5.30 then i went back to sleep and woke up at 8.45 and found my cat sleeping next to me and hogging the pillow. damn cat.
I'm still sleepy.

playlist:
Letters to cleo - i want you to want me
Utada Hikaru - Distance
John Mayer - not myself
AFI - girl's not grey
Ani difranco - not a pretty girl
The Distillers - hate me

HAS everyone heard the glorious news? Square Enix - the software game company that has made such titles as Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts is making a sequel to FF VII! woo BUT it is not a game, it will be released on DVD as a CG movie. If anyone remembers the final fantasy movie, this won't be as stupid. Its called FFVII: Advent Children. hmm and there are pictures SO GO LOOK.

last thursday i went out. ooh. to club uk. and waited for maybe 5 minutes in line for goo and then went back to club uk. lol.
AND this week i have a horrible horrible cough. not a cold, a cough. An annoying nagging cough. So i've had coughing fits three nights in a row, and last nite i almost swallowed the cough lolly thing i was sucking - which was not plesant. But everyone keeps thinking i'm gonna be sickm- that in mid cough i'm gonna spurt out some vomit or sumthing to that affect.

I finally saw "Pirates of the Caribean: The curse of the Black Pearl" today - AND it kicked booty. More films should have cool sword fights were the heros of the film balance on beams and get hit over the head with large objects. I was very impressed with Johnny Depp as i knew i would be, and orlando bloom was soo pretty to watch. AND i finally figured where that chick is from! she was in bend it like beckham. DUH! But i very much enjoyed it, especially the pirates which were so much cooler than that Elizabeth and Will character..but the ending was a little stupid.
i MEAN that commander Norrignton who i've nick named 'stick-up-my-ass-stupid- head' and his line at the end about Will looking after his swords and that he should do the same with things in his life..I mean what ever happened to the fight to the death? A fight over the girl would have been exciting. Predictable, but damn those honourable and honest characters! BUt the sword fights were cool. lol, and i was impressed with the special FXs. the skeletal pirates were pretty cool. The movement of them was fairly realistic and it just added this great fantastical element to the film. But it was very amusing and very enetertaining. OUT of ten i would give it 8.

Evelyn's Top five songs for the week:
1 Mya - My love is like...whoa
2 Timberland etc. - Cop that disc
3 Utada Hikaru - With or without you
4 Koda Kumi - 1000 words (English version)
5 Stacie Orrico - More to life

MOVIes to watch:
Save the last dance
A tale of two cities - 1958 version
Life is beautiful
What's eating Gilbert Grape?
Psycho
Do the right thing

TV:
THE BILL
Australian Idol
Alias
Survivor
Jamie's Kitchen
and some strange show that was on late last nite called PJ's i think? hmm...can't remember better check the guide.

BYEEE

You are "Uso Mitaina, I Love You!" Your
personality is very spunky and to the point.
Some people might mistake this for anger, but
in reality you just know what you want, and
don't take crap lightly. This is one of my fave
Hikki songs, go you!'


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I can't believe i haven't written anything about Australian Idol on this blog. Considering every sunday and monday is spent watching the damn show you would think that i would have made some stupid opinionated comment about the show. BUT i'll give you my top 5 australian idols, Levi, Cosima, Paulini, Guy, shannon, and Rob. If i voted, those would be the ppl i would vote for, i voted last week, but i won't this week. Levi is hot though, even if he doesn't win this i'm sure a rec company will pick him up, cos he is damn good, and so pretty to look at :)
SURVIVOR IN PEARL ISLANDS is on tonight! WOOO. how excitment. And Alias tonite will be good, you must all watch! AND that new queer eye for the straight guy show is on, the make-over one. Which is good, cos that means I get to watch two queer shows in one night, woo. But damn counter programming, And i think young and dangerous 6 is on tonite, but i'm not sure, but thats damn cool.
mtv video awards were on last nite, missy E won a few which was v.cool.

Playlist:
Beyonce feat. sean paul - baby boy
Timberland feat missy Elliot and magoo - Cop this disc
Dido- whiteflag
Mya - my love is like...whoa
Koda Kumi - 1000 words (english version)

I've realised its stupid having two blogs. because what am i afraid of to post here that i'm not afraid of to post in my other one. I guess because i know some people read this one. And no one reads the other, and damn well they shouldn't. that other blog details other things, if i'm having a hard time I write in it, like i did after i broke up with steve, but that's really about it.
Its like i'm ashamed of my feelings, feelings i don't even understand myself. I had a bad day on thursday, i don't know if u can tell from the last blog, but i was not in a good mood. That morning i had a hissy fit in the car at my dad..fuck he's annoying. so i was in a bad mood for the rest of the day after that. But it just progressed into something else, all i wanted to do was cry, every moment i was alone, my eyes just welled up. I just felt so upset with everything, so hopeless. I guess it was stupid, but thats how i felt. I felt so heavy, i guess with emotions, that day had been strange. The film we watched in cinema was so emotional, fantastic, but it was just so much to take in.
I've finished all my work now for uni, so i'm v.happy. That stupid essay for cinema i handed in on friday, friday was a good day, my mum took me to uni and then we went to arnolds and to the pines and shit. Still don't know wtf to get my bro for his b'day.
we wanna get him an ipod. but i dunno...he's such a fusssy annoying lil shit to buy for. honestly, if we get him anything he'll go "Ohhh but i wanteeed something BETTER". stupid. As my mother always says, never look a gift horse in the mouth.

life is always ruined by a member of the opposite sex.
I was reading mark's last blog, and it struck a chord with me. While his first para was about his movie-esq like moment, his second reminded me of something i'd only gone through 30 minutes ago.
Its weird how you can be surrounded by people and still be alone. Still have that sense of or idea that you want to be with someone, any one at all just so it'll all stop. Mark's problem is a little different to mine i guess, but i understand where he's coming from. I watched the film 'the hours' yesterday, and the idea of what is happiness, the beginning of happiness IS happiness, it doesn't begin, it is that moment. Im thinking about the themes of that film now, which now makes me think about my happiness, or lack of happiness. When was I ever truly happy? You can fake happiness, its easy. Every body is does it. "happiness is a warm gun" -who said that? i can't remember. So if that was someone's definition of happiness, then what should mine be?
I had an interesting discussion today about life, and the little things that we dwell on. One day all these problems that i'm facing now will seem trivial and irrelevant. I'll probably laugh at them. And at others facing what I did once, lol, i laugh at other people's misfortunes and i'm sure someone is laughing at mine.
Angst is a strange thing. We need it to feel numb, we need it to remind us that life sucks, that everything around us is wrong, that we are wrong. reminds me of consumerism. (more like advertising actually). But that's stupid. Because life isn't boring, or stupid or wrong. Life is what it is, and today when i was sitting inside at pings, by the window reading, the sun shined in and everything for a moment seemed better than ok. if only for a moment.

So right now i'm gonna leave. and walk to my next class. because i have to keep going, because eventually, everything won't be so bad.

(and on a bitchy note: THIS KEYBOARD SUCKS. fuck latrobe can't afford a new keyboard that works? fuck!)

I'm not sure of what I'm feeling now. One minute its hatred, the next its sadness and lonliness all mixed up, and earlier today i was agressive and dirty, and i was jealous, and only a few moments ago I was peaceful.
Go listen to some new Hanson Acoustic. I bet u all think i'm a fucking teeny bopper, but i promise you its anything but that. music always calms me down, yet it also reminds me of my current single status, i find there is a song for almost every one of my moods.
But if u want an example of the most perfect chorus in a song go download Penny and Me by hanson, and just listen, its fantastic..i luvvv it.
Shit australian idol is on! oooohhhh.
I have an idea for the novel me and theo are planning on writing. My idea could get dirty ;)
Judging by what i wrote today, it could take a nasty dirty turn. despite my, not wanting to actually write an erotic novel. ooooh...how naughty of me. lol. All my years of fan fic writing and reading will finally come to use. woo.
anyway. i've been busy with essays. yes, in one of my last posts i mentioned an essay I had to write well..uh...funnily enough the essay was due the day before i wrote that post, and uhh..i handed it in today. finally. I also handed in the cinema 1000 word essay on jacques tourneur. So its all done. now i got to start on my cinema take home test, which will be difficult, cos i don't understand the questions so well, and i have a whole heap of reading to do this week. Wednesday i'm spending the day in the lib, and i'm gonna read this huge book on History of Hollywood Cinema, its gonna take me awhile, and i have two more films to watch, welll maybe one...depends on the question. It shouldn't be too hard, but because i haven't actually done any of the readings for the subject this semester..i'm fucked :)

anyway, i'd better geeet offf.

playlist:
Sum 41 - Over my head
Sugababes - hole in my head
Kelly Clarkson - Low
Hanson - Misery

9th September 2003 News on msn.com

Settlement reached over Aaliyah's death


The parents of rhythm and blues singer and actress Aaliyah have reached an undisclosed settlement in a negligence lawsuit over her death in a 2001 plane crash, family attorneys said.

A chartered Cessna 402B carrying Aaliyah and eight others crashed shortly after takeoff on a flight from Marsh Harbour in the Bahamas to the Miami suburb of Opa-locka. Investigators believed the plane was 315 kg overloaded.

Attorneys for Aaliyah's parents, Diane and Michael Haughton, have filed a notice in federal court to say the case has been settled with an agreement to keep details confidential.

The parents sued plane operator Blackhawk International Airways Corp, owners Skystream Inc and Gilbert Chacon and flight broker Atlantic Flight Group. Blackhawk did not have permission from the Bahamas for commercial flights.

Aaliyah, a million-selling singer turned movie star in Romeo Must Die and Queen of the Damned, was 22 when she died.

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/Entertainment/story_51596.asp

I found this article this morning, while taking a break from my essay. Its been two years since the plane crash, and finally they've settled it. I just hope aaliyah's family can now rest and move on now.

heeey all.
i really shouldn't be online rite now. me have an essay to start and finish. Who knew writing a literature review could be sooo damn hard. I still have like 6 books to read, then i can write the damn essay, its not even that long. I'll be soo thankful once this week is over, I have another essay due on friday, but i guess i could always hand it in on the Next monday...i wonder if they count weekends as days late also? hmmm...
i'm trying to watch some atomfilms. but streaming video has never liked me, but i've bee downloading some stuff and looking for some new music. Getting bored with all this old shit, but the one song I really want i can't find on Kazaa. its' soo weird, Dido's white flag...i need a copy of that song, and every time i search for it its not there. but i really like the video clip for that song too, you should all check it out - watch rage, cos they play it.
I've had a busy weekend, and so far my week has been good. I went to uni yesterday and it was cool, i didn't feel like i was wasting my time, the weather was good, and i suppose i was happy because i spent awhile with lisa and her funky friends, and their pretty nice people. i still feel weird though, i mean, i can't seem to really make friends in my own classes. I know people, you know, u say hi to them, sometimes u have discussion with them, but no real friends you know. I like Jon's friends, but i think they don't know how to act or talk to me, and i never really speak alot with them. But their still all very nice people. it's kinda strange how i make friends through friends, there has never really been anyone i know that i haven't met through a friend. anyway, i shall leave you now with a small sample of my current playlist (the one thats in my head)

playlist:
Pete Murray - Feeler
Thicke - Brand New Jones
Utada Hikaru - Automatic (mtv unplugged)
Jet - Are you gonna be my girl?
Third Eye Blind - Forget myself

I have had no sleep. i had some. like maybe three hours and a half. i feel like the walking dead. I have finally finished the first essay of the semester, the gender and spectatorship essay which was about...gender and spectatorship, funnily enough. The essay, which i only started writing on Sunday night, was finally finished this morning at about 1:30..and then after that i stayed online and chatted with Tristan and Steve. Steve finally finished his game of final fantasy X..he had to share the "experience" with me..lol.
The essay is finished..alittle over due (due last monday) and maybe i can finally get some sleep - but i have that wonderful lit review to write that is due next monday...soo no sleep for me, again tonite. I have to stay back late for fucking media again...grr..i could skip it, its oh so tempting. I have to watch the film cat people...i have to do that this week. Cos after i write the Lit review, i then have to write a 1000 word essay on jacques tourneur, a director who directed really great films with really shite titles. So I will be soooo glad once all these damn essays are over. AND then i shall sleep. i'd better go now, i have to hand in the essay and borrow another book, and the re-borrow the six books i already have out.
*sigh* damn uni. i don't remember being this busy last year..and i had like one extra class last year..fuck. anyway. cya.

playlist:
dido - white flag
bowling for soup - punk 101
Linkin park - numb
matchbox 20 - bright lights
utada hikaru - For You

I am worth $1,501,042.00
thats pretty good. lol. maybe one day i'll find someone willing to pay that much for me ;)

www.humanforsale.com

This week has beeeen pretty sweet so far! Yesterday I went out with Morgs and Aimee - who has recently returned to melbourne. So it was like a reunion almost. lol, but it was good. I feel like we're all still the same, just older, more outgoing and happier i guess. Today I actually turned up for class, i've been sooo lazy lately. But we watched "Strange days" which is a cool film, i recommend it. I also saw JON today. i haven't seen jon in awhile - and i love hanging out with JOn. i especially love it when he offers to give me a ride home :) lol, but i've missed chatting with him. We picked up a friend of his from high school..and jon totally went from la la la to heeheee hee. like a giggly school boy. if school boys giggle. he was kinda like an evil pixie.
ANyway - i've been going crazy the past few days because this book i needed for my media literature review was out at the lib, and then i checked today and they had it! SO yay! now i have the book i'm ok, but im starting to feel a little stressed, this weekend i have to write an essay! i have so much reading to do also, and tomorrow morning i have to get a copy of this week's cinema reading and i have to write an essay due in two weeks...arghhh...allll so annoying. I hate uni work, i really do. i SPEND so much money on photocopying, and essays are just stupid. I'd rather be doing anything else than writing essays, i really really hate them...because they are stupid. i can't stress that enough - ESSAYS ARE STUPID.
Anyway, earlier my sis alerted me to the fact that the alec from darkangel was in tonite's episode of dawson's creek. he was like chatting up jen...grrr. he's too good for her, but his hair was weird. cute but. So while i'm watching his performance, lisa calls and is like - alec is on dawsons. hehe..it was a funny moment.

songs in my head
DC - so beautiful
MB - its you
JT - you always say goodnight
GF- strict machine

i'm about to sneez. ok. maybe not. its gone now. the sneez has gone.
I have eaten sooo much today, here is a list of exactly what I have snacked on during today:
1 muffin
1 bowl of soup
4 pieces of toast for the soup
1 hershy's cookies and cream chocolate bar
1/3 of a box of large hot chips with chicken salt
1 bowl of stirfry & noodles.
1 tiny chocolate
And i have drunk lots of water and had half a glass of orange juice(only because there wasn't enough for a full glass).
Some dickwad left like the smallest amount of orange juice in the fridge. I mean, what the fuck is the point of doing that? So others can have some? is that sharing? i think fucking not since there's hardly any left to share so you mite as well drink the whole bloody lot! honestly, some people really piss me off. i bet my sister did that, she does that with lemonade too - i go to the fridge to have some and find there is only enough drink left to slightly cover the bottom of the glass.
Anyway today i went for a walk to my local vid store - and i picked up a few dvds and vids: The rules of attraction, just married, casablanca and jackie brown - i couldn't see bambi.
Just married was amusing, but it was fairly predictable. The rules of attraction was very very good in my opinion. I mean if u don't like the film and script or whatever you gotta love the cinema photograhpy and that cool split scene trick. But i really enjoyed the film because it wasn't your stupid usual teen college type film - it wasn't as predictable, but i liked it alot. I have yet to view the other two films, and when i do i'll make my appropriate/or inappropriate comments then.
OH i got the michelle branch cd and the christina Ag cd...so i'm fairly content now.
I visited my friend Tristan on monday - i skipped my one hour lecture to visit him and play Halo - which was pretty cool. I admit now i wish i had an xbox so i could play that game - that and the buffy game would be sweet.

Our vcr has stoofed up. For some reason it dislikes video head cleaners, likes some tapes and hates my tape which has perfect blue taped on it from last saturday nite - which i wasn't allowed to watch cos my stupid sister wanted to watch romeo must die -but she fell asleep half way thru the film, and i fell asleep during the last ten minutes of it. Well saturday nites are never that good for me...i can stay awake late on a week night, but weekends just don't agree with me and the staying up. I do enjoy watching rage though on a friday or saturday nite - thats were i saw that sickly infectious song "star treking" i mean i hate star trek cos i think its stupid - but that damn song just gets me singing along.


Listen:
Michelle Branch - Tuesday Morning
Goldfrapp - strict machine & twist (did u all seem them on rove? hehe)
Hanson - down
mary j. blige - love at first sight
dashboard confessional - knock em dead
faye wong - eyes on me

MICHELLE BRANCH IS AMAZING! she totally rocked my socks off last night...and rocked my hearing - so after the gig i was temporaryily deaf. and my voice got lost amongst the whole crowd yesterday too. It was a very very very good performance...but the only thing i'm really bummed about from last nite is that i spent my only 20 bucks on expensiveism drinks when i could have purchased myself a copy of the album. After the gig michelle was signing stuff, me and lis hung around only for a bit and then left. I didn't realise how tired i was last night till i finally sat down..and standing for like two hours-or more in the same spot kinda hurt my knee alot. BUT it was worth it. all of it was worth it. totally. if i could i would fly to sydney and see michelle again - she was that good! and she played alot of songs from the new album...and couple of ppl in the crowd yelled out for songs like "sweet misery" and "paper pieces" but her little acoustic set of songs was very good - she played 'game of love' and my personal acoustic favourite 'desperately'. lol..it was very good.

anyway. i need to get some lecture notes before i go to uni today. buh bye.

Here I am, take me
It’s easier to give in
Some people mistake me
They only hear what they want to hear
If you’re losing sleep
Forgive me
I just can’t keep pretending
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be

There’s a prism by the window
It lets the light leak in
I wish you would let me
You feel the water but do you swim?
And it’s only me empty-handed
With a childish grin and a camera

I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be

La da da da

I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be

‘Cause I’m packing my bags
And I won’t be back

- empty handed - michelle branch

I didn't go to manifest. I wanted to. but my head decided to fuck up and give me lots and lots of head aches all day..or just one big head ache that lasted alllll day. Anyway. i have been watching plenty of tv lately. so far Im half way through series 3 of black adder - and i sooo love every episode so far. I have so many other buffy episodes to watch, a video of hornblower and one ab fab video to start this week. And its the last episode of Buffy this tuesday night!!!! i'm so excited, because i can't wait to see what happens, while it may be the end of a great cult teen series, buffy will live on forever..in the form of dvds.
Meanwhile how addictive is Australian Idol. There have only been like four episodes of the damn show and already every one is hooked! It will be exciting to see how it all turns out. But it is a very good replacement for big brother.

playlist:
bowling for soup - girl all the bad guys want (i wrote this one on the blog awhile ago, but i love it)
Christian Ag - Impossible
Boomkat - what U do 2 me
Thicke- When I get you alone
Lumidee - never leave you

It seems the world is becoming more and more fucked up.
The recent bombings in Jakarta seem more threatening now that the "smiling assasin" Amrozi, is to receive the death penalty. UK victims of the bali bombing are scared that this could make a martry out of Amrozi and more bombings could follow. Prime minister John Howard has said that Australia is at risk from terrorist groups, but other countries are at greater risk compared to us. So this is all getting a bit weird, I mean, Amrozi is being dealt with by Indonesian local law, most people are happy that he is getting the death sentence - but what about those others involved with the bali bombings? What about those people who bombed the Marriott Hotel in Jakarta? Why is one man being punished for the deeds of several? His involvement in the bali bombing seems very important, but to be honestly opinionated he seems like a bit of a smug wanka - someone else smarter must have planned and developed the attack. So why don't they locate the person who iniated the plans for the bombing? why not arrest the person who recruited people to be involved with a terrorist organisation?
The death of one man will not solve these problems. In fact it could make it alot worse, more bombings could occur in indonesia, Australia could find itself a target - even if it does seem unlikely to the rest of us - but the threat of increasing terrorist attacks or "risks" does seem to be looming over our heads.
I'm almost wishing they'd get it all over with, bomb every fucking western country and see how far that'll get them. i bet once they realise that there is no where else to bomb, that they won't quite get the desired results their looking for.

After watching bowling for Columbine on the weekend I've decided that America is one fucked up country. Fear is what leds to gun ownership, fear is what is fed to Americans night after night. IN Australia since the Monash University shooting last year - new guidelines state "semi-automatic pistols with a barrel length under 120mm, and revolvers or single-shot handguns with a barrel length less than 100mm will be banned"(ninemsn.com).
So every time Australia has a tragedy, eg. Port Arthur Massacre and the Monash shooting, the government tightens the gun laws - while in America even after Columbine guns laws are still lax. Americans feel the right to protect their families and country - yeah its nice to be patriotic but not idiotic. I like to think that we live in a civilized country - or world - one that is modern and logical. If every country was like america and had access to guns and ammo that is so freely avaliable, then the rest of the world would be just as fucked up and just as scared of everyone else. Or everyone would become tofu farmers and make home made bombs and use guns like their a right and we'd all be fucking hicks and red necks. Thankfully most people in the world - and even in america, are smart and realise that guns are a problem. But things like that have taken a back seat to terrorism - which i agree is an important issue to tackle. But now the whole world is living in fear of being a country that is at risk.

OK. EVELYN'S SHOPPING LIST:
1. Fuck me bands - THEY ARE EVERYWHERE. fluro fucking pink and orange ones.
- Portman's cost 3.95 for ten.
- Sportsgirl cost 4.95 for ten. (have heaps of colours though)
- The little cart in the middle of the shopping mall - 20 cents each (but no more black and only ugly colours)
2. Fishnet gloves!
- Sportsgirl costs 12.95 - Only in Pink though. So i mite buy two pairs...and dye on pair black. That would be cool.

and i saw heaps of other cute shit..but i can't remember what it all was.

I was out with lisa today at shoppo..wonderful shoppo. We looked around...we were in Kmart for awhile...lisa wants to plant some flower bulbs, and i learned that kmart has this cool barcode zapper thing which tells u the price of things.
FUCK its cold in here. I'm in my room today, and its freezinggg. I'm sooo hyper today, i need to keep moving around and stuff.
I need to get off this. ahhh. soo cold. byes

for every action there is a reaction. Cause and affect. Life is like one endless narrative. Causality I believe its called, when you get into the chain of events and the linking causes. Its like a system almost, well thats how it makes sense to me. Its like whatever bad you do to a person comes back three fold. Like that time at Marshmead when I cursed Nikki three ticks. instead i got three evil ticks and she got none. And I'm talking about the insect, ticks are those horrible little things with legs that bury their heads under your skin, I still have marks from where I had them removed.
Anyway, i'm alittle sad today. i was last night, But i'll be ok. But i'm not that worried about myself, because I know i'll deal, i'm like that. I move on pretty quickly, except that crush on taylor hanson that started in year 7 didn't end till way into 2000.
I'm listening to B2K "Girlfriend" thats an odd choice of song for me to be listening to right now. Earlier I was listening to Michelle Branch, I think thats alot more appropriate for my mood. But slap me if i start listening to fiona apple. I was listening to Nelly Furtado, Vanessa Carlton, Lene Marlin, and Pj Harvey yesterday.
lol. Last night I fell asleep on the couch while watching the news, and I woke up in the middle of a Blossom repeat, lol. I fell asleep reading and writing too - i was watching the news at the same time you see. I remember that news report about the musician in queensland who had his fingers hacked off. That was pretty brutal, the poor guy may never be able to play the saxaphone again. I remember I once read a Hanson fanfiction about Taylor, and he had his vocal chords surgically removed by some angry ppl. That was a really interesting read - but I was thinking last night, i would die not being able to sing or speak. But then I thought there are worse things, like not being able to hear - if I couldn't hear music I think it would be alot worse.

Playlist:
Boa: Amazing Kiss
Dashboard Confessional: So beautiful
Mis-Teeq - Can't get it back
Rikki - Suteki da ne (final fantasy x theme song - orchestral version)
Goldfrapp - Black Cherry
New found glory - head on collision

Yo. I'm at uni again. its almost 9am. I have nothing to write because I've already written it all somewhere else. but its all in my head, i just don't want to write it all here for you all to see. But I was struggling inside before with a decision that needed to be made. And I'll be the brave one and make it happen. I've never been good with starting things and ending them. Like an essay, its so hard to make the first 250 words come out, and then they just start flowing as your mind starting spurting all these words and sentences and meanings. Most of it makes sense, but not all of it. And if your not clear on your intention then it just doesn't work. Then comes the conclusion, and you re-write your beginning. And if you were clear and concise it'll work and be a good essay, but if its scrambled, sensless and all over the place, then your not going to get a good result. I want to clear and full of direction and purpose. And research makes a good essay, but you can't research some things. Like life. There is no guide to life, on how to be successful in your career and love life. There are self help books, but there are never any real true answers for you, because you need to experience them all yourself. ahh..even my words confuse.
anyway I am 41% pick-upable according to the spark test. Thats not too bad. lol.

I'll tell you all the decision I made by next week.

hello all. Back at uni again. not much is happening, just waiting for my first class of the day to begin. I have a 25 minute wait so I thought I would waste it in here in the lib.
This morning I came to uni had a coffee - therapy has good cheap coffee i've discovered - and its really really hot. I burnt my tongue lol. :P And I finall saw the lecturer and got the tutorial I wanted for Thursday's media class. yay. I love it when things go my way. and when I get exactly what I want.
So i'm just checking my e-mails now, i got invited to a 21st - woohoo. its for this really cool guy Reddy - he's hot and asian...mmm. I probably shouldn't have written that. LOL. thats the kind of stuff that'll get me in trouble. Maybe I should go to that, i could meet some new ppl...and I haven't been really social for awhile now - so maybe its time to get out more.
Michelle branch is touring here on the 13th of August - and I have to go to it. Considering my parents money is my money my dad is usually pretty happy for me to go to gigs and concerts and pay for them, but $48.20 is how much the ticket will cost - but thats a small price to pay to see one of my favorite artists. I don't think i'll be able to save the money or anything in time for the gig though...

Anyway, On tuesday, on my way back from uni I was at doncaster shopping town...so i went up to electronic boutique to ask if I was getting my final fantasy 6 game anytime soon. Since I had ordered the game in May - they finally did something about getting me the game. There are only five copies of this game in the EB stores across australia, so they got on the phone and after calling three stores they found me a copy and I should have it by next friday. FINALLY. see if i had waited and not bothered to ask about the game, i probably would still be waiting a few more months for it. I didn't want to be demanding, but i had a 20 dollar deposit on that game and I still didn't have it.

wishlist:
ticket to michell branch's show and the Hotel Paper album
FFx-2 (i'll buy the jap version if i have to)
Aaliyah poster
Sailormoon poster


Download list:
Basement Jaxx - Jus 1 kiss (you won't believe the trouble I have d/l this song)
Dashboard confessional - a mark, a mission, a scar (new album)
Bowling for soup - punk 101
Sean Paul - get busy (aiii)

Tonite's TV Viewing:
Kath and Kim
Tlc
Will and Grace
FatCow Hotel
Angel

I'm in such a good mood today. Maybe because my throat doesn't hurt. Maybe because i stole a chocolate bar from my dad (he's trying to lose weight so i'm helping out). Maybe because lisa called me today.
I just made a quiz, but i decided it was stupid so i'm not sending it out to anyone. My net is slow today, thanks to Kazaa - grr. But the download list is unbelievable. Its huge..all these mp3s we want downloaded, its gonna take months on this internet.
MEanwhile i'm finding i'm feeling alittle hungry again, that chocolate bar just didn't cut it - of course i could always steal the hershy's crunchy chocolate bars.....NO i'm must resist the naughty evil temptation.
Anyway, my uni timetable seems pretty ok at the moment except for thursdays, and because i don't want to come into uni on tuesdays on wednesdays i've decided I must get the Thursday media tutorial at 4pm - so i won't finish till 6pm on thursdays..nasty.

Tomorrow I mite be going to the city for lunch at Santes with lisa and co. which will be sooo good cos i will finally get out of the house and do something on my last day of holidays! And we mite go see Terminator 3...yay! I was watching T2 last night, the director's cut, very cool. One of the best god damn blockbuster action films ever made. Plus it was made by the mastermind behind Dark Angel, James Cameron. Fucking genius. Shame about dark angel though. but dark angel series two has been released on dvd here..so YAYness.

last nite we had singapore take away - practically like chinese food, but with bigger noodles. lol. i'm feeling like eating that right now, i was told there were some left overs. I hate left overs, i just think there's no point leaving food un eaten in yoru fridge. That and if you have too many left overs you use all ur tupperware containers and it just clutters the fridge.

On a musical note, Hanson (scroll down to the next para if you want to skip this) have finally come out into the open and performed on jay leno. And "my god look at Zac" was the first thing that came to mind when i viewed this clip from hansonhotel.com. Its not a big deal, but i thought i had to mention it - to prove that they haven't died yet and are still kicking on with their little guitars and shaker things. I just wish i could seem them on their acoustic tour and get myself a copy of their EP.

Michelle branch's album recieved only two and a half stars in the herald sun's hit lift out on thursday. I was disappointed considering how good the songs all are on her new album. But i guess i would have to agree that her sound is very pop and pleasing for radio.

Playlist:
Eve 6 - On the roof again (once you get past the crappy intro its not bad)
Howie Day - Morning After
Sean Paul - Get busy
Michelle Branch - Desperately (album version not live version i orignally had)
Eagle Eye Cherry - Falling in love again (this is worth the download)


Watch:
Dirty Dozen
T2
FFX-2 Opening sequence

I'm so bored right now. I was bored yesterday too, and the day before that and the day before that too. I was so bored yesterday that while on my searching for my missing kitting needles I found my sisters old glass bottle painting kit and i did some painting. So I now have a pretty badly decorated bottle sitting on my desk. But at least I wasn't bored for 20 minutes out of yesterday. I've also finished two books - Dune Messiah and Queen of the damned (i downloaded the pdf. file of it and read the ending of it last nite). So yesterday was almost a productive day, but I still haven't found my knitting needles.
I've tried writing, but that doesn't seem to last long. TV is boring, radio is boring, my PS2 is boring, my small collection of DVD's
bore me, playing computer games for longer than 10 minutes bores me. I could be playing the sims right now but it takes too long to get into the game so fuck it. Maybe i will go looking for those knitting needles again...

Movies to watch:
Sugar and Spice (Cheerleaders that rob banks - amusing)
Crackerjack (dvd commentary is cool)
Movies not to watch:
Sample people (Crap. Australian movies just lost all their credibility after this bad egg)
Striptease (crap)

Playlist:
GoldFrapp - Train
Basement Jaxx - Jus 1 kiss
Benny Benassi - Satisfaction
B2k - Girlfriend
The dandy warhols - You were the last high
Michelle Branch - Hotel Paper
Kelly Osbourne - Right Here
The Juliana Theory - To the tune of 5000 Screaming

I'm listening to jpop at the moment. and I'm downloading the scenes from FFX-2 of yuna singing 'real emotion'. yay.
OK. update for now, i'm sick - very sick. My flu/sinus sickness has turned worse, i now have icky tonsils. Yes thats right folks i have tonsilitis (excuse the poor spelling). And it sucks. I have like one week of holidays left and i'm stuck inside nursing a killer of a sore throat. But at least i'm on pills so hopefully it'll all clear up soon in the next few days, cos i would suck going back to uni still sick. I mean i hate uni (reminds me of high school those damn tutorials) and going to uni sick is not fun, i recall a day last year when i turned up to a tutorial and i was feverish and dying and fucking pain. That was two hours of hell i shall not forget. and i suffered silently too, when i should have asked the tutor to leave early - but oh well, i endured.
Well since my holidays have been boring as hell lately (but i reckon hell would be more interesting) i don't have much to say in my bloggie.

At the moment i am currently reading two books. Dune Messiah and Ninteen-eighty four - which so far has proved an interesting read. The television show 'Big brother' is loosely based on this book, i'm sure the book is better than the show though. Meanwhile tonite is the second last eviction of Big brother - which shall be entertaining to watch and see which contestant will be evicted. I personally think its between Patrick and Chrissy. But Patrick is the next to go honestly, but it all depends on what the audience votes for and audiences are stupid. i am an audience member but i'm not always actively particpating with the show and my opinions are different to the majority - I mean they voted Jamie out instead of Vincent! That was wrong, so very very wrong.

Playlist:
Gerling - Get Activated
The Dandy Warhols - We used to be friends
Goldfrapp - Strict Machine
Planet Funk - Who said (stuck in the U.K)
Michelle Branch - Breathe

Why is it HMV - has to put giant big black round stickers all over CD covers. Its like they see a CD case and they have to block the cover completely with a sticker. And what is up with charging $4.99 for a CD? Why don't they just say $5 and be done with it. The buyer isn't fooled into thinking that they've just save 1 cent - How can they since in Australia there is no such thing as a 1 cent or 2 cent coin anymore. But seriously, i remember the old HMV stickers, the $4.95 ones i used to pull off my single cases, they came off with hardly any mess and then they changed type of stickers - the backing was alot stickier and was a bitch to take off - *see exibit A - my Janet jackson feat. missy E single case* They ruined my CD case, and now its horrible looking at the cover of it - its so ugly with that huge sticker residue mess in the right hand corner. So after that i completely stopped trying to take the stickers off, knowing that if i tried i would have a whole lot of ugly CD cases. And this new single i purchased just today has this huge mutha of a sticker price tag on it - and i'm so not even going to attempt it. But its horrible, cos the sticker almost covers Michelle Branch's head - and HMV that is NOT COOL.
Meanwhile, the CD is fantastic. sounds beautiful in my CD player but shit in my computer.