When i'm in a shite mood - i just put on some music and its just lifts me up and i'm in a fantastic mood for the rest of the day. A funky tune, a profound lyric - a good song can just make me forget about my life, make me forget about whats been troubling me. And make me feel like i can do anything to the right music.
Its kinda like this 'higher' spiritual music experience. So thats what i'll call it for now. But music has always done this to me, always reminded me of who i am, what my aspirations are..or were in some instances. Its inspiring. And damn well makes me want to get down and boogie.
here are some of my latest aquisitions:
Miles Away - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Me Against the Music - Britney feat. Madonna
A little less talk, more action (extended mix) - Tim Delux
Wasted - Cam Farrar
Tangled - Maroon 5
Bigger Than my Body - John Mayer
Troubled - Pink
Light your ass on fire - Busta Rhymes ft. Pharrell
Re-offender - Travis
Monday, October 13, 2003
Sunday, October 12, 2003
Low - Kelly Clarkson
Everybody's talking
But they don?t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don't want the sympathy
Its cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
Buy why'd you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
No I don't need your number
There's nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be sane
My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can't say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so
So
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cause what you did was low
I really really like this song. And somehow in my current state it fits. I think i made progress today, i finally came to terms with some stuff that i've been dealing with of late, and i've realise that saying i don't care about things and people is a crock of shit. I care all too much, and thats my problem. I worry, I cry over things that keep me awake at night. I can't sleep when something is on my mind, when something troubles me, when someone hurts me or offends me. I don't understand some people, and I guess i never will. I want to accept people for who they are, and i forget about the shit they've done, but how can u be friends with someone who isn't even a friend back. How can you care about a friend when they don't even have the decentcy to call you or write u an e-mail or let you know something, or trust you..or even tell you that they don't want to be friends with you.
Now, i'm not perfect. Trust me, i'll be the first to admit it. I hate my flaws, my imperfections everything about myself i want to change - i want to change myself my personality, everything, but i'm still learning things and the hard way. I throw myself into the deep end and try to swim. My whole life i've been stuck in situations, difficult situations that i couldn't escape only try to make the best of, my life isn't some comfy holiday, its hard - but i'm learning to appreciate it. And i appreciate every single person in my life, everyone i've ever known has affected me in some way. And i'm glad to say i've even learnt from my mistakes, and from other people - because i've seen how they treat people and i don't want to be like that.
I've done this stupid ranty shit so many times on my blog. I have to keep reassuring myself, that i'm not bad, that i'm not totally hopeless, that one day it will all be worth it. lol.
I wrote a short story last week, its about a boring married couple, who one day crack and try to break their routine lives. I kinda like it, but i needs work.
Anyway..i have a research report to begin.
Playlist:
Buried Myself Alive - The Used
Cute without the E - Taking Back Sunday
Asking Too Much - Ani Difranco
Beautiful - Me'shell Ndegeocello
Everybody's talking
But they don?t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don't want the sympathy
Its cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
Buy why'd you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
No I don't need your number
There's nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be sane
My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can't say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so
So
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cause what you did was low
I really really like this song. And somehow in my current state it fits. I think i made progress today, i finally came to terms with some stuff that i've been dealing with of late, and i've realise that saying i don't care about things and people is a crock of shit. I care all too much, and thats my problem. I worry, I cry over things that keep me awake at night. I can't sleep when something is on my mind, when something troubles me, when someone hurts me or offends me. I don't understand some people, and I guess i never will. I want to accept people for who they are, and i forget about the shit they've done, but how can u be friends with someone who isn't even a friend back. How can you care about a friend when they don't even have the decentcy to call you or write u an e-mail or let you know something, or trust you..or even tell you that they don't want to be friends with you.
Now, i'm not perfect. Trust me, i'll be the first to admit it. I hate my flaws, my imperfections everything about myself i want to change - i want to change myself my personality, everything, but i'm still learning things and the hard way. I throw myself into the deep end and try to swim. My whole life i've been stuck in situations, difficult situations that i couldn't escape only try to make the best of, my life isn't some comfy holiday, its hard - but i'm learning to appreciate it. And i appreciate every single person in my life, everyone i've ever known has affected me in some way. And i'm glad to say i've even learnt from my mistakes, and from other people - because i've seen how they treat people and i don't want to be like that.
I've done this stupid ranty shit so many times on my blog. I have to keep reassuring myself, that i'm not bad, that i'm not totally hopeless, that one day it will all be worth it. lol.
I wrote a short story last week, its about a boring married couple, who one day crack and try to break their routine lives. I kinda like it, but i needs work.
Anyway..i have a research report to begin.
Playlist:
Buried Myself Alive - The Used
Cute without the E - Taking Back Sunday
Asking Too Much - Ani Difranco
Beautiful - Me'shell Ndegeocello
Friday, October 10, 2003
i Really hate computers that suck. Especially uni computers that have shite keyboards that are really loud when u type and the arrow keys are screwed and you to push them really hard and sometimes twice for them to fricken work!!!
BUT lets look at my stars for today:
OK..lets not. NOpe it works..finally.
Aries Mar 21 - Apr 20
Fri October 10, 2003
An occasional cataclysm is part of the existential mix. As an Aries, you are pressured to be both sensitive and responsibly worldly at the same time. Your tendency for explosion is revealed in all its blazing glory today. To stay creative and balanced, you must dance.
Your lucky numbers are: 9,26
Your lucky colours are: orange,lemon
WOO. HEAR HEAR! I'm gonna boogie 2nite despite the fact that my dancing partnersfor the nite (morgan and aimee) both can't go out..grrr. BUT nevermind. I'm gonna boogie at my place. If anyone would like to join me, you are welcome to come and boogie2nite also.
Meanwhile i need some ideas for music...gansta music..and not that gansta rap stuff..i meaan like those films from the 80s or earlier, you know mob type ganstas..need some godfather soundtracks or maybe the 80's music from scar face...yeaaaah.
OK.here is a very good site for you all to visit about Japan, really interesting stuff. http://members.chello.at/theodor.lauppert/japan/index.htm - and i can't link it right nowon this stupid computer...so go and do a cut and past in anotha window.. But read the posts about Japanese school life, really interesting!
anyway. i have books to find. I have questionnaires to type up..woot.
cya
BUT lets look at my stars for today:
OK..lets not. NOpe it works..finally.
Aries Mar 21 - Apr 20
Fri October 10, 2003
An occasional cataclysm is part of the existential mix. As an Aries, you are pressured to be both sensitive and responsibly worldly at the same time. Your tendency for explosion is revealed in all its blazing glory today. To stay creative and balanced, you must dance.
Your lucky numbers are: 9,26
Your lucky colours are: orange,lemon
WOO. HEAR HEAR! I'm gonna boogie 2nite despite the fact that my dancing partnersfor the nite (morgan and aimee) both can't go out..grrr. BUT nevermind. I'm gonna boogie at my place. If anyone would like to join me, you are welcome to come and boogie2nite also.
Meanwhile i need some ideas for music...gansta music..and not that gansta rap stuff..i meaan like those films from the 80s or earlier, you know mob type ganstas..need some godfather soundtracks or maybe the 80's music from scar face...yeaaaah.
OK.here is a very good site for you all to visit about Japan, really interesting stuff. http://members.chello.at/theodor.lauppert/japan/index.htm - and i can't link it right nowon this stupid computer...so go and do a cut and past in anotha window.. But read the posts about Japanese school life, really interesting!
anyway. i have books to find. I have questionnaires to type up..woot.
cya
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
You have Been Ninjafied
Evelyn Hamlett, from this day forward you will be known as Sly Raver
woo. i've been visiting people's web pages today and i was at Ian's site only a moment ago.
Since i'm doing links to sites, here is a site i reccommend if ur into fan fiction of the hanson variety, but even if u dislike hanson, the fic is still very very good: he spoke softly
aND i've beeen thinking that this blog needs a damn guestbook or sumthing..i was gonna do a blog out thing awhile ago...but i forgot about it..so i'll fix something up soon. But it would make sense if ppl would just go to my webpage and tell me their comments..but obviously thats too difficult for most damn people. wwww.geocities.com/evesygal
yeaa and the layout is fucked but hey..i can't be stuffed. I'd really like to fix this up actually, im thinking maybe i should have used lycos and tripod (cos they have a whole section dedicated to blogging)for this blog..but when i started blogging there wasn't anything like that at the time for blogger users. makes me wish for some html talent...
lol. another site i visit every so often is www.sassybella.com - the chick that runs this site is friends with leanne..and i didn't realise that for awhile lol.
OK. events for this week.
1. My sister has left. woo
2. my bro has left. woo hoo
3. Uni this week. boo
4. I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW. wooo hooooo
I sent out a resume agess ago, like months and months ago for a new subway store opening up in bulleen. And i got a call from them yesterday asking me if i was still interested and that i could attend an interview tonite in bulleen. So i'm alittle nervous, I haven't had an interview in awhile, soo i dunno what to expect. i suppose i'll blog tomorrow or tonite again and tell ya all how it went..but i'm nervous...i've had waayy too much rejection and i don't get how all the stupid people in this world can find jobs..and i can't even get one? hmm. its a conspiracy.
anyway. i gotta get ready, i have to go to the pines and return some books and then go to my grandma's for a little visist and then later go to the interview.
*MUAH*
Evelyn Hamlett, from this day forward you will be known as Sly Raver
woo. i've been visiting people's web pages today and i was at Ian's site only a moment ago.
Since i'm doing links to sites, here is a site i reccommend if ur into fan fiction of the hanson variety, but even if u dislike hanson, the fic is still very very good: he spoke softly
aND i've beeen thinking that this blog needs a damn guestbook or sumthing..i was gonna do a blog out thing awhile ago...but i forgot about it..so i'll fix something up soon. But it would make sense if ppl would just go to my webpage and tell me their comments..but obviously thats too difficult for most damn people. wwww.geocities.com/evesygal
yeaa and the layout is fucked but hey..i can't be stuffed. I'd really like to fix this up actually, im thinking maybe i should have used lycos and tripod (cos they have a whole section dedicated to blogging)for this blog..but when i started blogging there wasn't anything like that at the time for blogger users. makes me wish for some html talent...
lol. another site i visit every so often is www.sassybella.com - the chick that runs this site is friends with leanne..and i didn't realise that for awhile lol.
OK. events for this week.
1. My sister has left. woo
2. my bro has left. woo hoo
3. Uni this week. boo
4. I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW. wooo hooooo
I sent out a resume agess ago, like months and months ago for a new subway store opening up in bulleen. And i got a call from them yesterday asking me if i was still interested and that i could attend an interview tonite in bulleen. So i'm alittle nervous, I haven't had an interview in awhile, soo i dunno what to expect. i suppose i'll blog tomorrow or tonite again and tell ya all how it went..but i'm nervous...i've had waayy too much rejection and i don't get how all the stupid people in this world can find jobs..and i can't even get one? hmm. its a conspiracy.
anyway. i gotta get ready, i have to go to the pines and return some books and then go to my grandma's for a little visist and then later go to the interview.
*MUAH*
Monday, October 06, 2003
"Tonight could I be lost forever...To drown my soul in sensory pleasure..."
- Natalie Imbruglia 'Beauty on Fire'
I have been awake since 4 something. I kid u not. I stayed up till 1.30 last nite watching some dodgy Hugh Grant film on tv that was on after 'ten things i hate about you' which isn't as witty a film as i first thought it was, (i guess back in year ten we all thought we were witty too) yet still highly entertaining :)
But back to me being awake so damn early, THE exciting day has come. My little sister, Aubs, has gone to MARSHMEAD! WOO. This means for two glorious months I have my bedroom to myself, not that i do anything in my actual bedroom other than sleep..But that is still a good thing. And my brother will be away at uni in geelong for the next couple of weeks, so it will be very very quiet around here. Just me, mum and dad for the next two months. SO it will either be a really good two months of quiet, or reallly really bad considering my dad is the worst person to live with. He knows how to piss us all off..and me and mum are alike in our tempers, i hate to say it but things could get prettty ugly.
Yesterday we had a farewell lunch for my sister, we went to Camberwell, to the chocolate box centre place..there is a little place there called Fortune Cookie - they have the dammmn best noodles there and its not that expensive at all..but my family has been going there for years and years.
SO ANYWAY, this morning, my sister had to wake up at like 4 something because she had to be at mlc by 6am. So mum wakes up at 4 waits till 4.30 to wake up aubrey, and thus wakes me up..so i was half asleep, half awake. Then at 5 something aubrey turns on all the lights in the bedroom turns on the radio - radio at 5 in the morning sucks - then she says goodbye to me..i mumbled something to her 'Go kick ass, kill and chicken, and eat cake' i dunno i was half asleep. But i couldn't fully go to sleep after that, and then before she left i got up and said good bye properly - cos i would be a rotten sister if i just slept thru my sister's leaving. lol.
So they left at 5.30 then i went back to sleep and woke up at 8.45 and found my cat sleeping next to me and hogging the pillow. damn cat.
I'm still sleepy.
playlist:
Letters to cleo - i want you to want me
Utada Hikaru - Distance
John Mayer - not myself
AFI - girl's not grey
Ani difranco - not a pretty girl
The Distillers - hate me
- Natalie Imbruglia 'Beauty on Fire'
I have been awake since 4 something. I kid u not. I stayed up till 1.30 last nite watching some dodgy Hugh Grant film on tv that was on after 'ten things i hate about you' which isn't as witty a film as i first thought it was, (i guess back in year ten we all thought we were witty too) yet still highly entertaining :)
But back to me being awake so damn early, THE exciting day has come. My little sister, Aubs, has gone to MARSHMEAD! WOO. This means for two glorious months I have my bedroom to myself, not that i do anything in my actual bedroom other than sleep..But that is still a good thing. And my brother will be away at uni in geelong for the next couple of weeks, so it will be very very quiet around here. Just me, mum and dad for the next two months. SO it will either be a really good two months of quiet, or reallly really bad considering my dad is the worst person to live with. He knows how to piss us all off..and me and mum are alike in our tempers, i hate to say it but things could get prettty ugly.
Yesterday we had a farewell lunch for my sister, we went to Camberwell, to the chocolate box centre place..there is a little place there called Fortune Cookie - they have the dammmn best noodles there and its not that expensive at all..but my family has been going there for years and years.
SO ANYWAY, this morning, my sister had to wake up at like 4 something because she had to be at mlc by 6am. So mum wakes up at 4 waits till 4.30 to wake up aubrey, and thus wakes me up..so i was half asleep, half awake. Then at 5 something aubrey turns on all the lights in the bedroom turns on the radio - radio at 5 in the morning sucks - then she says goodbye to me..i mumbled something to her 'Go kick ass, kill and chicken, and eat cake' i dunno i was half asleep. But i couldn't fully go to sleep after that, and then before she left i got up and said good bye properly - cos i would be a rotten sister if i just slept thru my sister's leaving. lol.
So they left at 5.30 then i went back to sleep and woke up at 8.45 and found my cat sleeping next to me and hogging the pillow. damn cat.
I'm still sleepy.
playlist:
Letters to cleo - i want you to want me
Utada Hikaru - Distance
John Mayer - not myself
AFI - girl's not grey
Ani difranco - not a pretty girl
The Distillers - hate me
Saturday, October 04, 2003
HAS everyone heard the glorious news? Square Enix - the software game company that has made such titles as Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts is making a sequel to FF VII! woo BUT it is not a game, it will be released on DVD as a CG movie. If anyone remembers the final fantasy movie, this won't be as stupid. Its called FFVII: Advent Children. hmm and there are pictures SO GO LOOK.
last thursday i went out. ooh. to club uk. and waited for maybe 5 minutes in line for goo and then went back to club uk. lol.
AND this week i have a horrible horrible cough. not a cold, a cough. An annoying nagging cough. So i've had coughing fits three nights in a row, and last nite i almost swallowed the cough lolly thing i was sucking - which was not plesant. But everyone keeps thinking i'm gonna be sickm- that in mid cough i'm gonna spurt out some vomit or sumthing to that affect.
I finally saw "Pirates of the Caribean: The curse of the Black Pearl" today - AND it kicked booty. More films should have cool sword fights were the heros of the film balance on beams and get hit over the head with large objects. I was very impressed with Johnny Depp as i knew i would be, and orlando bloom was soo pretty to watch. AND i finally figured where that chick is from! she was in bend it like beckham. DUH! But i very much enjoyed it, especially the pirates which were so much cooler than that Elizabeth and Will character..but the ending was a little stupid.
i MEAN that commander Norrignton who i've nick named 'stick-up-my-ass-stupid- head' and his line at the end about Will looking after his swords and that he should do the same with things in his life..I mean what ever happened to the fight to the death? A fight over the girl would have been exciting. Predictable, but damn those honourable and honest characters! BUt the sword fights were cool. lol, and i was impressed with the special FXs. the skeletal pirates were pretty cool. The movement of them was fairly realistic and it just added this great fantastical element to the film. But it was very amusing and very enetertaining. OUT of ten i would give it 8.
Evelyn's Top five songs for the week:
1 Mya - My love is like...whoa
2 Timberland etc. - Cop that disc
3 Utada Hikaru - With or without you
4 Koda Kumi - 1000 words (English version)
5 Stacie Orrico - More to life
MOVIes to watch:
Save the last dance
A tale of two cities - 1958 version
Life is beautiful
What's eating Gilbert Grape?
Psycho
Do the right thing
TV:
THE BILL
Australian Idol
Alias
Survivor
Jamie's Kitchen
and some strange show that was on late last nite called PJ's i think? hmm...can't remember better check the guide.
BYEEE
last thursday i went out. ooh. to club uk. and waited for maybe 5 minutes in line for goo and then went back to club uk. lol.
AND this week i have a horrible horrible cough. not a cold, a cough. An annoying nagging cough. So i've had coughing fits three nights in a row, and last nite i almost swallowed the cough lolly thing i was sucking - which was not plesant. But everyone keeps thinking i'm gonna be sickm- that in mid cough i'm gonna spurt out some vomit or sumthing to that affect.
I finally saw "Pirates of the Caribean: The curse of the Black Pearl" today - AND it kicked booty. More films should have cool sword fights were the heros of the film balance on beams and get hit over the head with large objects. I was very impressed with Johnny Depp as i knew i would be, and orlando bloom was soo pretty to watch. AND i finally figured where that chick is from! she was in bend it like beckham. DUH! But i very much enjoyed it, especially the pirates which were so much cooler than that Elizabeth and Will character..but the ending was a little stupid.
i MEAN that commander Norrignton who i've nick named 'stick-up-my-ass-stupid- head' and his line at the end about Will looking after his swords and that he should do the same with things in his life..I mean what ever happened to the fight to the death? A fight over the girl would have been exciting. Predictable, but damn those honourable and honest characters! BUt the sword fights were cool. lol, and i was impressed with the special FXs. the skeletal pirates were pretty cool. The movement of them was fairly realistic and it just added this great fantastical element to the film. But it was very amusing and very enetertaining. OUT of ten i would give it 8.
Evelyn's Top five songs for the week:
1 Mya - My love is like...whoa
2 Timberland etc. - Cop that disc
3 Utada Hikaru - With or without you
4 Koda Kumi - 1000 words (English version)
5 Stacie Orrico - More to life
MOVIes to watch:
Save the last dance
A tale of two cities - 1958 version
Life is beautiful
What's eating Gilbert Grape?
Psycho
Do the right thing
TV:
THE BILL
Australian Idol
Alias
Survivor
Jamie's Kitchen
and some strange show that was on late last nite called PJ's i think? hmm...can't remember better check the guide.
BYEEE
Thursday, October 02, 2003
You are "Uso Mitaina, I Love You!" Your
personality is very spunky and to the point.
Some people might mistake this for anger, but
in reality you just know what you want, and
don't take crap lightly. This is one of my fave
Hikki songs, go you!'
What Utada Hikaru Song are you?
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personality is very spunky and to the point.
Some people might mistake this for anger, but
in reality you just know what you want, and
don't take crap lightly. This is one of my fave
Hikki songs, go you!'
What Utada Hikaru Song are you?
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Monday, September 29, 2003
I can't believe i haven't written anything about Australian Idol on this blog. Considering every sunday and monday is spent watching the damn show you would think that i would have made some stupid opinionated comment about the show. BUT i'll give you my top 5 australian idols, Levi, Cosima, Paulini, Guy, shannon, and Rob. If i voted, those would be the ppl i would vote for, i voted last week, but i won't this week. Levi is hot though, even if he doesn't win this i'm sure a rec company will pick him up, cos he is damn good, and so pretty to look at :)
SURVIVOR IN PEARL ISLANDS is on tonight! WOOO. how excitment. And Alias tonite will be good, you must all watch! AND that new queer eye for the straight guy show is on, the make-over one. Which is good, cos that means I get to watch two queer shows in one night, woo. But damn counter programming, And i think young and dangerous 6 is on tonite, but i'm not sure, but thats damn cool.
mtv video awards were on last nite, missy E won a few which was v.cool.
Playlist:
Beyonce feat. sean paul - baby boy
Timberland feat missy Elliot and magoo - Cop this disc
Dido- whiteflag
Mya - my love is like...whoa
Koda Kumi - 1000 words (english version)
SURVIVOR IN PEARL ISLANDS is on tonight! WOOO. how excitment. And Alias tonite will be good, you must all watch! AND that new queer eye for the straight guy show is on, the make-over one. Which is good, cos that means I get to watch two queer shows in one night, woo. But damn counter programming, And i think young and dangerous 6 is on tonite, but i'm not sure, but thats damn cool.
mtv video awards were on last nite, missy E won a few which was v.cool.
Playlist:
Beyonce feat. sean paul - baby boy
Timberland feat missy Elliot and magoo - Cop this disc
Dido- whiteflag
Mya - my love is like...whoa
Koda Kumi - 1000 words (english version)
Saturday, September 27, 2003
I've realised its stupid having two blogs. because what am i afraid of to post here that i'm not afraid of to post in my other one. I guess because i know some people read this one. And no one reads the other, and damn well they shouldn't. that other blog details other things, if i'm having a hard time I write in it, like i did after i broke up with steve, but that's really about it.
Its like i'm ashamed of my feelings, feelings i don't even understand myself. I had a bad day on thursday, i don't know if u can tell from the last blog, but i was not in a good mood. That morning i had a hissy fit in the car at my dad..fuck he's annoying. so i was in a bad mood for the rest of the day after that. But it just progressed into something else, all i wanted to do was cry, every moment i was alone, my eyes just welled up. I just felt so upset with everything, so hopeless. I guess it was stupid, but thats how i felt. I felt so heavy, i guess with emotions, that day had been strange. The film we watched in cinema was so emotional, fantastic, but it was just so much to take in.
I've finished all my work now for uni, so i'm v.happy. That stupid essay for cinema i handed in on friday, friday was a good day, my mum took me to uni and then we went to arnolds and to the pines and shit. Still don't know wtf to get my bro for his b'day.
we wanna get him an ipod. but i dunno...he's such a fusssy annoying lil shit to buy for. honestly, if we get him anything he'll go "Ohhh but i wanteeed something BETTER". stupid. As my mother always says, never look a gift horse in the mouth.
Its like i'm ashamed of my feelings, feelings i don't even understand myself. I had a bad day on thursday, i don't know if u can tell from the last blog, but i was not in a good mood. That morning i had a hissy fit in the car at my dad..fuck he's annoying. so i was in a bad mood for the rest of the day after that. But it just progressed into something else, all i wanted to do was cry, every moment i was alone, my eyes just welled up. I just felt so upset with everything, so hopeless. I guess it was stupid, but thats how i felt. I felt so heavy, i guess with emotions, that day had been strange. The film we watched in cinema was so emotional, fantastic, but it was just so much to take in.
I've finished all my work now for uni, so i'm v.happy. That stupid essay for cinema i handed in on friday, friday was a good day, my mum took me to uni and then we went to arnolds and to the pines and shit. Still don't know wtf to get my bro for his b'day.
we wanna get him an ipod. but i dunno...he's such a fusssy annoying lil shit to buy for. honestly, if we get him anything he'll go "Ohhh but i wanteeed something BETTER". stupid. As my mother always says, never look a gift horse in the mouth.
Thursday, September 25, 2003
life is always ruined by a member of the opposite sex.
I was reading mark's last blog, and it struck a chord with me. While his first para was about his movie-esq like moment, his second reminded me of something i'd only gone through 30 minutes ago.
Its weird how you can be surrounded by people and still be alone. Still have that sense of or idea that you want to be with someone, any one at all just so it'll all stop. Mark's problem is a little different to mine i guess, but i understand where he's coming from. I watched the film 'the hours' yesterday, and the idea of what is happiness, the beginning of happiness IS happiness, it doesn't begin, it is that moment. Im thinking about the themes of that film now, which now makes me think about my happiness, or lack of happiness. When was I ever truly happy? You can fake happiness, its easy. Every body is does it. "happiness is a warm gun" -who said that? i can't remember. So if that was someone's definition of happiness, then what should mine be?
I had an interesting discussion today about life, and the little things that we dwell on. One day all these problems that i'm facing now will seem trivial and irrelevant. I'll probably laugh at them. And at others facing what I did once, lol, i laugh at other people's misfortunes and i'm sure someone is laughing at mine.
Angst is a strange thing. We need it to feel numb, we need it to remind us that life sucks, that everything around us is wrong, that we are wrong. reminds me of consumerism. (more like advertising actually). But that's stupid. Because life isn't boring, or stupid or wrong. Life is what it is, and today when i was sitting inside at pings, by the window reading, the sun shined in and everything for a moment seemed better than ok. if only for a moment.
So right now i'm gonna leave. and walk to my next class. because i have to keep going, because eventually, everything won't be so bad.
(and on a bitchy note: THIS KEYBOARD SUCKS. fuck latrobe can't afford a new keyboard that works? fuck!)
I was reading mark's last blog, and it struck a chord with me. While his first para was about his movie-esq like moment, his second reminded me of something i'd only gone through 30 minutes ago.
Its weird how you can be surrounded by people and still be alone. Still have that sense of or idea that you want to be with someone, any one at all just so it'll all stop. Mark's problem is a little different to mine i guess, but i understand where he's coming from. I watched the film 'the hours' yesterday, and the idea of what is happiness, the beginning of happiness IS happiness, it doesn't begin, it is that moment. Im thinking about the themes of that film now, which now makes me think about my happiness, or lack of happiness. When was I ever truly happy? You can fake happiness, its easy. Every body is does it. "happiness is a warm gun" -who said that? i can't remember. So if that was someone's definition of happiness, then what should mine be?
I had an interesting discussion today about life, and the little things that we dwell on. One day all these problems that i'm facing now will seem trivial and irrelevant. I'll probably laugh at them. And at others facing what I did once, lol, i laugh at other people's misfortunes and i'm sure someone is laughing at mine.
Angst is a strange thing. We need it to feel numb, we need it to remind us that life sucks, that everything around us is wrong, that we are wrong. reminds me of consumerism. (more like advertising actually). But that's stupid. Because life isn't boring, or stupid or wrong. Life is what it is, and today when i was sitting inside at pings, by the window reading, the sun shined in and everything for a moment seemed better than ok. if only for a moment.
So right now i'm gonna leave. and walk to my next class. because i have to keep going, because eventually, everything won't be so bad.
(and on a bitchy note: THIS KEYBOARD SUCKS. fuck latrobe can't afford a new keyboard that works? fuck!)
Monday, September 15, 2003
I'm not sure of what I'm feeling now. One minute its hatred, the next its sadness and lonliness all mixed up, and earlier today i was agressive and dirty, and i was jealous, and only a few moments ago I was peaceful.
Go listen to some new Hanson Acoustic. I bet u all think i'm a fucking teeny bopper, but i promise you its anything but that. music always calms me down, yet it also reminds me of my current single status, i find there is a song for almost every one of my moods.
But if u want an example of the most perfect chorus in a song go download Penny and Me by hanson, and just listen, its fantastic..i luvvv it.
Shit australian idol is on! oooohhhh.
I have an idea for the novel me and theo are planning on writing. My idea could get dirty ;)
Judging by what i wrote today, it could take a nasty dirty turn. despite my, not wanting to actually write an erotic novel. ooooh...how naughty of me. lol. All my years of fan fic writing and reading will finally come to use. woo.
anyway. i've been busy with essays. yes, in one of my last posts i mentioned an essay I had to write well..uh...funnily enough the essay was due the day before i wrote that post, and uhh..i handed it in today. finally. I also handed in the cinema 1000 word essay on jacques tourneur. So its all done. now i got to start on my cinema take home test, which will be difficult, cos i don't understand the questions so well, and i have a whole heap of reading to do this week. Wednesday i'm spending the day in the lib, and i'm gonna read this huge book on History of Hollywood Cinema, its gonna take me awhile, and i have two more films to watch, welll maybe one...depends on the question. It shouldn't be too hard, but because i haven't actually done any of the readings for the subject this semester..i'm fucked :)
anyway, i'd better geeet offf.
playlist:
Sum 41 - Over my head
Sugababes - hole in my head
Kelly Clarkson - Low
Hanson - Misery
Go listen to some new Hanson Acoustic. I bet u all think i'm a fucking teeny bopper, but i promise you its anything but that. music always calms me down, yet it also reminds me of my current single status, i find there is a song for almost every one of my moods.
But if u want an example of the most perfect chorus in a song go download Penny and Me by hanson, and just listen, its fantastic..i luvvv it.
Shit australian idol is on! oooohhhh.
I have an idea for the novel me and theo are planning on writing. My idea could get dirty ;)
Judging by what i wrote today, it could take a nasty dirty turn. despite my, not wanting to actually write an erotic novel. ooooh...how naughty of me. lol. All my years of fan fic writing and reading will finally come to use. woo.
anyway. i've been busy with essays. yes, in one of my last posts i mentioned an essay I had to write well..uh...funnily enough the essay was due the day before i wrote that post, and uhh..i handed it in today. finally. I also handed in the cinema 1000 word essay on jacques tourneur. So its all done. now i got to start on my cinema take home test, which will be difficult, cos i don't understand the questions so well, and i have a whole heap of reading to do this week. Wednesday i'm spending the day in the lib, and i'm gonna read this huge book on History of Hollywood Cinema, its gonna take me awhile, and i have two more films to watch, welll maybe one...depends on the question. It shouldn't be too hard, but because i haven't actually done any of the readings for the subject this semester..i'm fucked :)
anyway, i'd better geeet offf.
playlist:
Sum 41 - Over my head
Sugababes - hole in my head
Kelly Clarkson - Low
Hanson - Misery
Thursday, September 11, 2003
9th September 2003 News on msn.com
Settlement reached over Aaliyah's death
The parents of rhythm and blues singer and actress Aaliyah have reached an undisclosed settlement in a negligence lawsuit over her death in a 2001 plane crash, family attorneys said.
A chartered Cessna 402B carrying Aaliyah and eight others crashed shortly after takeoff on a flight from Marsh Harbour in the Bahamas to the Miami suburb of Opa-locka. Investigators believed the plane was 315 kg overloaded.
Attorneys for Aaliyah's parents, Diane and Michael Haughton, have filed a notice in federal court to say the case has been settled with an agreement to keep details confidential.
The parents sued plane operator Blackhawk International Airways Corp, owners Skystream Inc and Gilbert Chacon and flight broker Atlantic Flight Group. Blackhawk did not have permission from the Bahamas for commercial flights.
Aaliyah, a million-selling singer turned movie star in Romeo Must Die and Queen of the Damned, was 22 when she died.
http://news.ninemsn.com.au/Entertainment/story_51596.asp
I found this article this morning, while taking a break from my essay. Its been two years since the plane crash, and finally they've settled it. I just hope aaliyah's family can now rest and move on now.
Settlement reached over Aaliyah's death
The parents of rhythm and blues singer and actress Aaliyah have reached an undisclosed settlement in a negligence lawsuit over her death in a 2001 plane crash, family attorneys said.
A chartered Cessna 402B carrying Aaliyah and eight others crashed shortly after takeoff on a flight from Marsh Harbour in the Bahamas to the Miami suburb of Opa-locka. Investigators believed the plane was 315 kg overloaded.
Attorneys for Aaliyah's parents, Diane and Michael Haughton, have filed a notice in federal court to say the case has been settled with an agreement to keep details confidential.
The parents sued plane operator Blackhawk International Airways Corp, owners Skystream Inc and Gilbert Chacon and flight broker Atlantic Flight Group. Blackhawk did not have permission from the Bahamas for commercial flights.
Aaliyah, a million-selling singer turned movie star in Romeo Must Die and Queen of the Damned, was 22 when she died.
http://news.ninemsn.com.au/Entertainment/story_51596.asp
I found this article this morning, while taking a break from my essay. Its been two years since the plane crash, and finally they've settled it. I just hope aaliyah's family can now rest and move on now.
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
heeey all.
i really shouldn't be online rite now. me have an essay to start and finish. Who knew writing a literature review could be sooo damn hard. I still have like 6 books to read, then i can write the damn essay, its not even that long. I'll be soo thankful once this week is over, I have another essay due on friday, but i guess i could always hand it in on the Next monday...i wonder if they count weekends as days late also? hmmm...
i'm trying to watch some atomfilms. but streaming video has never liked me, but i've bee downloading some stuff and looking for some new music. Getting bored with all this old shit, but the one song I really want i can't find on Kazaa. its' soo weird, Dido's white flag...i need a copy of that song, and every time i search for it its not there. but i really like the video clip for that song too, you should all check it out - watch rage, cos they play it.
I've had a busy weekend, and so far my week has been good. I went to uni yesterday and it was cool, i didn't feel like i was wasting my time, the weather was good, and i suppose i was happy because i spent awhile with lisa and her funky friends, and their pretty nice people. i still feel weird though, i mean, i can't seem to really make friends in my own classes. I know people, you know, u say hi to them, sometimes u have discussion with them, but no real friends you know. I like Jon's friends, but i think they don't know how to act or talk to me, and i never really speak alot with them. But their still all very nice people. it's kinda strange how i make friends through friends, there has never really been anyone i know that i haven't met through a friend. anyway, i shall leave you now with a small sample of my current playlist (the one thats in my head)
playlist:
Pete Murray - Feeler
Thicke - Brand New Jones
Utada Hikaru - Automatic (mtv unplugged)
Jet - Are you gonna be my girl?
Third Eye Blind - Forget myself
i really shouldn't be online rite now. me have an essay to start and finish. Who knew writing a literature review could be sooo damn hard. I still have like 6 books to read, then i can write the damn essay, its not even that long. I'll be soo thankful once this week is over, I have another essay due on friday, but i guess i could always hand it in on the Next monday...i wonder if they count weekends as days late also? hmmm...
i'm trying to watch some atomfilms. but streaming video has never liked me, but i've bee downloading some stuff and looking for some new music. Getting bored with all this old shit, but the one song I really want i can't find on Kazaa. its' soo weird, Dido's white flag...i need a copy of that song, and every time i search for it its not there. but i really like the video clip for that song too, you should all check it out - watch rage, cos they play it.
I've had a busy weekend, and so far my week has been good. I went to uni yesterday and it was cool, i didn't feel like i was wasting my time, the weather was good, and i suppose i was happy because i spent awhile with lisa and her funky friends, and their pretty nice people. i still feel weird though, i mean, i can't seem to really make friends in my own classes. I know people, you know, u say hi to them, sometimes u have discussion with them, but no real friends you know. I like Jon's friends, but i think they don't know how to act or talk to me, and i never really speak alot with them. But their still all very nice people. it's kinda strange how i make friends through friends, there has never really been anyone i know that i haven't met through a friend. anyway, i shall leave you now with a small sample of my current playlist (the one thats in my head)
playlist:
Pete Murray - Feeler
Thicke - Brand New Jones
Utada Hikaru - Automatic (mtv unplugged)
Jet - Are you gonna be my girl?
Third Eye Blind - Forget myself
Thursday, September 04, 2003
I have had no sleep. i had some. like maybe three hours and a half. i feel like the walking dead. I have finally finished the first essay of the semester, the gender and spectatorship essay which was about...gender and spectatorship, funnily enough. The essay, which i only started writing on Sunday night, was finally finished this morning at about 1:30..and then after that i stayed online and chatted with Tristan and Steve. Steve finally finished his game of final fantasy X..he had to share the "experience" with me..lol.
The essay is finished..alittle over due (due last monday) and maybe i can finally get some sleep - but i have that wonderful lit review to write that is due next monday...soo no sleep for me, again tonite. I have to stay back late for fucking media again...grr..i could skip it, its oh so tempting. I have to watch the film cat people...i have to do that this week. Cos after i write the Lit review, i then have to write a 1000 word essay on jacques tourneur, a director who directed really great films with really shite titles. So I will be soooo glad once all these damn essays are over. AND then i shall sleep. i'd better go now, i have to hand in the essay and borrow another book, and the re-borrow the six books i already have out.
*sigh* damn uni. i don't remember being this busy last year..and i had like one extra class last year..fuck. anyway. cya.
playlist:
dido - white flag
bowling for soup - punk 101
Linkin park - numb
matchbox 20 - bright lights
utada hikaru - For You
The essay is finished..alittle over due (due last monday) and maybe i can finally get some sleep - but i have that wonderful lit review to write that is due next monday...soo no sleep for me, again tonite. I have to stay back late for fucking media again...grr..i could skip it, its oh so tempting. I have to watch the film cat people...i have to do that this week. Cos after i write the Lit review, i then have to write a 1000 word essay on jacques tourneur, a director who directed really great films with really shite titles. So I will be soooo glad once all these damn essays are over. AND then i shall sleep. i'd better go now, i have to hand in the essay and borrow another book, and the re-borrow the six books i already have out.
*sigh* damn uni. i don't remember being this busy last year..and i had like one extra class last year..fuck. anyway. cya.
playlist:
dido - white flag
bowling for soup - punk 101
Linkin park - numb
matchbox 20 - bright lights
utada hikaru - For You
Friday, August 29, 2003
Thursday, August 28, 2003
This week has beeeen pretty sweet so far! Yesterday I went out with Morgs and Aimee - who has recently returned to melbourne. So it was like a reunion almost. lol, but it was good. I feel like we're all still the same, just older, more outgoing and happier i guess. Today I actually turned up for class, i've been sooo lazy lately. But we watched "Strange days" which is a cool film, i recommend it. I also saw JON today. i haven't seen jon in awhile - and i love hanging out with JOn. i especially love it when he offers to give me a ride home :) lol, but i've missed chatting with him. We picked up a friend of his from high school..and jon totally went from la la la to heeheee hee. like a giggly school boy. if school boys giggle. he was kinda like an evil pixie.
ANyway - i've been going crazy the past few days because this book i needed for my media literature review was out at the lib, and then i checked today and they had it! SO yay! now i have the book i'm ok, but im starting to feel a little stressed, this weekend i have to write an essay! i have so much reading to do also, and tomorrow morning i have to get a copy of this week's cinema reading and i have to write an essay due in two weeks...arghhh...allll so annoying. I hate uni work, i really do. i SPEND so much money on photocopying, and essays are just stupid. I'd rather be doing anything else than writing essays, i really really hate them...because they are stupid. i can't stress that enough - ESSAYS ARE STUPID.
Anyway, earlier my sis alerted me to the fact that the alec from darkangel was in tonite's episode of dawson's creek. he was like chatting up jen...grrr. he's too good for her, but his hair was weird. cute but. So while i'm watching his performance, lisa calls and is like - alec is on dawsons. hehe..it was a funny moment.
songs in my head
DC - so beautiful
MB - its you
JT - you always say goodnight
GF- strict machine
ANyway - i've been going crazy the past few days because this book i needed for my media literature review was out at the lib, and then i checked today and they had it! SO yay! now i have the book i'm ok, but im starting to feel a little stressed, this weekend i have to write an essay! i have so much reading to do also, and tomorrow morning i have to get a copy of this week's cinema reading and i have to write an essay due in two weeks...arghhh...allll so annoying. I hate uni work, i really do. i SPEND so much money on photocopying, and essays are just stupid. I'd rather be doing anything else than writing essays, i really really hate them...because they are stupid. i can't stress that enough - ESSAYS ARE STUPID.
Anyway, earlier my sis alerted me to the fact that the alec from darkangel was in tonite's episode of dawson's creek. he was like chatting up jen...grrr. he's too good for her, but his hair was weird. cute but. So while i'm watching his performance, lisa calls and is like - alec is on dawsons. hehe..it was a funny moment.
songs in my head
DC - so beautiful
MB - its you
JT - you always say goodnight
GF- strict machine
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
i'm about to sneez. ok. maybe not. its gone now. the sneez has gone.
I have eaten sooo much today, here is a list of exactly what I have snacked on during today:
1 muffin
1 bowl of soup
4 pieces of toast for the soup
1 hershy's cookies and cream chocolate bar
1/3 of a box of large hot chips with chicken salt
1 bowl of stirfry & noodles.
1 tiny chocolate
And i have drunk lots of water and had half a glass of orange juice(only because there wasn't enough for a full glass).
Some dickwad left like the smallest amount of orange juice in the fridge. I mean, what the fuck is the point of doing that? So others can have some? is that sharing? i think fucking not since there's hardly any left to share so you mite as well drink the whole bloody lot! honestly, some people really piss me off. i bet my sister did that, she does that with lemonade too - i go to the fridge to have some and find there is only enough drink left to slightly cover the bottom of the glass.
Anyway today i went for a walk to my local vid store - and i picked up a few dvds and vids: The rules of attraction, just married, casablanca and jackie brown - i couldn't see bambi.
Just married was amusing, but it was fairly predictable. The rules of attraction was very very good in my opinion. I mean if u don't like the film and script or whatever you gotta love the cinema photograhpy and that cool split scene trick. But i really enjoyed the film because it wasn't your stupid usual teen college type film - it wasn't as predictable, but i liked it alot. I have yet to view the other two films, and when i do i'll make my appropriate/or inappropriate comments then.
OH i got the michelle branch cd and the christina Ag cd...so i'm fairly content now.
I visited my friend Tristan on monday - i skipped my one hour lecture to visit him and play Halo - which was pretty cool. I admit now i wish i had an xbox so i could play that game - that and the buffy game would be sweet.
Our vcr has stoofed up. For some reason it dislikes video head cleaners, likes some tapes and hates my tape which has perfect blue taped on it from last saturday nite - which i wasn't allowed to watch cos my stupid sister wanted to watch romeo must die -but she fell asleep half way thru the film, and i fell asleep during the last ten minutes of it. Well saturday nites are never that good for me...i can stay awake late on a week night, but weekends just don't agree with me and the staying up. I do enjoy watching rage though on a friday or saturday nite - thats were i saw that sickly infectious song "star treking" i mean i hate star trek cos i think its stupid - but that damn song just gets me singing along.
Listen:
Michelle Branch - Tuesday Morning
Goldfrapp - strict machine & twist (did u all seem them on rove? hehe)
Hanson - down
mary j. blige - love at first sight
dashboard confessional - knock em dead
faye wong - eyes on me
I have eaten sooo much today, here is a list of exactly what I have snacked on during today:
1 muffin
1 bowl of soup
4 pieces of toast for the soup
1 hershy's cookies and cream chocolate bar
1/3 of a box of large hot chips with chicken salt
1 bowl of stirfry & noodles.
1 tiny chocolate
And i have drunk lots of water and had half a glass of orange juice(only because there wasn't enough for a full glass).
Some dickwad left like the smallest amount of orange juice in the fridge. I mean, what the fuck is the point of doing that? So others can have some? is that sharing? i think fucking not since there's hardly any left to share so you mite as well drink the whole bloody lot! honestly, some people really piss me off. i bet my sister did that, she does that with lemonade too - i go to the fridge to have some and find there is only enough drink left to slightly cover the bottom of the glass.
Anyway today i went for a walk to my local vid store - and i picked up a few dvds and vids: The rules of attraction, just married, casablanca and jackie brown - i couldn't see bambi.
Just married was amusing, but it was fairly predictable. The rules of attraction was very very good in my opinion. I mean if u don't like the film and script or whatever you gotta love the cinema photograhpy and that cool split scene trick. But i really enjoyed the film because it wasn't your stupid usual teen college type film - it wasn't as predictable, but i liked it alot. I have yet to view the other two films, and when i do i'll make my appropriate/or inappropriate comments then.
OH i got the michelle branch cd and the christina Ag cd...so i'm fairly content now.
I visited my friend Tristan on monday - i skipped my one hour lecture to visit him and play Halo - which was pretty cool. I admit now i wish i had an xbox so i could play that game - that and the buffy game would be sweet.
Our vcr has stoofed up. For some reason it dislikes video head cleaners, likes some tapes and hates my tape which has perfect blue taped on it from last saturday nite - which i wasn't allowed to watch cos my stupid sister wanted to watch romeo must die -but she fell asleep half way thru the film, and i fell asleep during the last ten minutes of it. Well saturday nites are never that good for me...i can stay awake late on a week night, but weekends just don't agree with me and the staying up. I do enjoy watching rage though on a friday or saturday nite - thats were i saw that sickly infectious song "star treking" i mean i hate star trek cos i think its stupid - but that damn song just gets me singing along.
Listen:
Michelle Branch - Tuesday Morning
Goldfrapp - strict machine & twist (did u all seem them on rove? hehe)
Hanson - down
mary j. blige - love at first sight
dashboard confessional - knock em dead
faye wong - eyes on me
Thursday, August 14, 2003
MICHELLE BRANCH IS AMAZING! she totally rocked my socks off last night...and rocked my hearing - so after the gig i was temporaryily deaf. and my voice got lost amongst the whole crowd yesterday too. It was a very very very good performance...but the only thing i'm really bummed about from last nite is that i spent my only 20 bucks on expensiveism drinks when i could have purchased myself a copy of the album. After the gig michelle was signing stuff, me and lis hung around only for a bit and then left. I didn't realise how tired i was last night till i finally sat down..and standing for like two hours-or more in the same spot kinda hurt my knee alot. BUT it was worth it. all of it was worth it. totally. if i could i would fly to sydney and see michelle again - she was that good! and she played alot of songs from the new album...and couple of ppl in the crowd yelled out for songs like "sweet misery" and "paper pieces" but her little acoustic set of songs was very good - she played 'game of love' and my personal acoustic favourite 'desperately'. lol..it was very good.
anyway. i need to get some lecture notes before i go to uni today. buh bye.
anyway. i need to get some lecture notes before i go to uni today. buh bye.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Here I am, take me
It’s easier to give in
Some people mistake me
They only hear what they want to hear
If you’re losing sleep
Forgive me
I just can’t keep pretending
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be
There’s a prism by the window
It lets the light leak in
I wish you would let me
You feel the water but do you swim?
And it’s only me empty-handed
With a childish grin and a camera
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be
La da da da
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be
‘Cause I’m packing my bags
And I won’t be back
- empty handed - michelle branch
It’s easier to give in
Some people mistake me
They only hear what they want to hear
If you’re losing sleep
Forgive me
I just can’t keep pretending
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be
There’s a prism by the window
It lets the light leak in
I wish you would let me
You feel the water but do you swim?
And it’s only me empty-handed
With a childish grin and a camera
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be
La da da da
I’m packing my bags ‘cause I don’t wanna be
The only one who’s drowning in their misery
And I’ll take that chance ‘cause I just wanna breathe
And I won’t look back and wonder how it’s supposed to be
How it’s supposed to be
‘Cause I’m packing my bags
And I won’t be back
- empty handed - michelle branch
Sunday, August 10, 2003
I didn't go to manifest. I wanted to. but my head decided to fuck up and give me lots and lots of head aches all day..or just one big head ache that lasted alllll day. Anyway. i have been watching plenty of tv lately. so far Im half way through series 3 of black adder - and i sooo love every episode so far. I have so many other buffy episodes to watch, a video of hornblower and one ab fab video to start this week. And its the last episode of Buffy this tuesday night!!!! i'm so excited, because i can't wait to see what happens, while it may be the end of a great cult teen series, buffy will live on forever..in the form of dvds.
Meanwhile how addictive is Australian Idol. There have only been like four episodes of the damn show and already every one is hooked! It will be exciting to see how it all turns out. But it is a very good replacement for big brother.
playlist:
bowling for soup - girl all the bad guys want (i wrote this one on the blog awhile ago, but i love it)
Christian Ag - Impossible
Boomkat - what U do 2 me
Thicke- When I get you alone
Lumidee - never leave you
Meanwhile how addictive is Australian Idol. There have only been like four episodes of the damn show and already every one is hooked! It will be exciting to see how it all turns out. But it is a very good replacement for big brother.
playlist:
bowling for soup - girl all the bad guys want (i wrote this one on the blog awhile ago, but i love it)
Christian Ag - Impossible
Boomkat - what U do 2 me
Thicke- When I get you alone
Lumidee - never leave you